Oh Powers-That-Be, Deliver This Panic and Fear From Me

Fashion models' dressing room

THIS IS A FASHION MODELS' DRESSING ROOM -- where beautiful fashion models get dressed for strutting down the catwalk. This place is a very-secure place made for females only. No males. If someone in power sent me inside this room to deliver a message to one of the models, I would be shaking out of my shoes. It's the way a woman glares at a man when he sees her almost-undressed.

Diesel truck

A DIESEL TRUCK --- scares me to death. There are 16 to 18 forward gears to deal with. Plus Dept. of Transportation laws. I would not make a good "gear jammer," for I can see myself getting into a traffic jam on the freeway in Los Angeles and having to bail before a gang of Hell's Angels dragged me from my truck and beat me up for causing the traffic jam.

Enter fear, the "being"

Almost every human being battles this vicious, flesh-ripping beast each day of their life. I do wish I could say that this beast has three horns sharp as a razor (carried by the late singer, Jim Croce's "Bad, Bad, Leroy Brown), breathes napalm and has three-ton scales on its back all the way to its scorpion-like tail. But I cannot. I have to face this beast and tell you the truth.

Fighting this "being" is far from fun. This monster can cause anyone a handful of painful ulcers along with digestive problems if it's not faced-down and defeated. I am totally-serious, friends. By the end of this self-confession of weakness, you will gain a new understanding of this being who has us all in his crosshairs.

F-16 Phantom

Three other places "fear" lives

A jail cell. This is where being caught and arrested in the two places below will send you and me. I fear the jail cell.
A jail cell. This is where being caught and arrested in the two places below will send you and me. I fear the jail cell.
And the drug bust
And the drug bust
And an illegal gambling den
And an illegal gambling den

Fear is a complex beast, my friends

This being is "fear," "insecurity's" first-cousin and "no confidence's second-cousin. If you have one or all three against you, then your life will not be as you dream or expect it to be, so you can get accustomed to vast amounts of disappointments, let-downs, rejections, shame, embarrassment, and always coming in at second or last place in races you run.

Now the upside of fear is that it is not a mortal sin to have fear in your life. Being fearful goes with being human. It's just that some people have more fear than others with the end-results being of a bigger number than the normal man or woman with an average amount of fear.

Now may I talk about myself? I know that I sound egotistical, but I cannot say it any other way. I promise to be brief. Concerning my being a "long-time victim," of "fear,' I can only hope for a miracle to allow me to see the time and place where "fear" started bullying me around like a ragdoll with no stuffing. It is this serious.

A lion's cage

SAY HI, TO THE LIONS' CAGE --- a sure-fire "den of death," if one is trapped inside of this with a few hungry lions. Lions have no conscience that we know of. And if they are hungry, nature has it that they eat--anything made of flesh and duhhhh! I am made of flesh. I would not enter one of these cages even if it were empty.

Marine boot camp

A drill instructor yells at a Marine recruit. Recruits get yelled-at most of the six-weeks they are in boot camp. I was yelled-at a lot when I was  kid. That's why I feared the Marines.
A drill instructor yells at a Marine recruit. Recruits get yelled-at most of the six-weeks they are in boot camp. I was yelled-at a lot when I was kid. That's why I feared the Marines.

Other things that cause "fear" to attack me

A venomous Rattlesnake deserves my respect. Not an ungodly-fear. Both are okay to use in avoiding being bit and die
A venomous Rattlesnake deserves my respect. Not an ungodly-fear. Both are okay to use in avoiding being bit and die
Getting wasted on homemade whiskey. I did get drunk on homemade whiskey--once. Since that time, I have feared its power
Getting wasted on homemade whiskey. I did get drunk on homemade whiskey--once. Since that time, I have feared its power

My dad was "fear's" main lieutenant

(Some) of the reason that I am like this, fearful of most new things, people and places, is my dad whom I know meant me no harm in always taking me aside each time I had an opportunity to experience something new, to just fill me with all negative reasons why I should just let it pass.

I would protest like any kid would if he knew that most of these shining-opportunities would never show themselves again, but my words fell on stubborn ears. My dad would always say, "That's too dangerous," or "You do not need this," both convenient arguments and reasons to keep me at home as another exciting chance to grow sailed out of sight. I was not a kid when these encounters would happen. I recall that I was 14. I always thought to myself, when I get older, this will change. How wrong I was, for this denying me some memorable things just kept on the older I got.

I have some photo examples of the areas in which my dad prevented me from growing into a normal manhood and adding some spice to my life.

Police line-up's are very frightening I have been told. Men's very freedom hangs on (a) witness' ability to identify the real thug
Police line-up's are very frightening I have been told. Men's very freedom hangs on (a) witness' ability to identify the real thug

The "monster" fear shows me these photos in my imagination

I would die of "fear" being the criminal in a police shoot-out. The police in 2015 are well-trained in marksmanship and do not intend to let a criminal take their lives with a firearm.
I would die of "fear" being the criminal in a police shoot-out. The police in 2015 are well-trained in marksmanship and do not intend to let a criminal take their lives with a firearm.
 If you want to see me have a melt-down, just tell me to go skydiving with you.
If you want to see me have a melt-down, just tell me to go skydiving with you.

EVEN SEEING A CARTOON OF --- a police line-up as we have seen on television gives me the creeps. If a person is accused of committing a crime, they are put with three or four other people who may or may not be a thug. Then the witness, who is behind a one-way glass, has to identify "the" real criminal. Just imagine. A person's freedom is in the breath of the witness to say, "he is the one, " or "he is not the one."

Thank YOU

for Not being "Fearful" to read this or any of my hubs.

Sincerely,

Kenneth

I appreciate Dale, Jr., but had rather face all of the other things on this page than ride with him

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ComfortB 21 months ago from Bonaire, GA, USA

There's something about taking a hike or a walk in the park that makes me starts imagining that every tree branch is a snake. Even the good book says, "Fear is a torment".

Nice hub.


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Kylyssa 21 months ago from Overlooking a meadow near Grand Rapids, Michigan, USA

Kenneth, I think your fear of lions is something hardwired into most humans. Our ancestors were the prey of big cats since before we were properly human and before they were properly lions.

Sometimes, I dream of lions. Sometimes, they aren't nightmares but, instead, wish-fulfillment in which my best friend's cancer has been turned into lions that I can at least try to save her from.

My worst fear is losing more people I love, sitting helplessly in hospitals as they die.


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mgt28 21 months ago

I hate to admit, but I dread the jail cell. TOUCH WOOD! I fear snakes also but that pales into insignificance when I think of a jail cell. God.


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kenneth avery 21 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

mgt28,

No judgment. You are free to speak your mind here. And like you, jail scares me too. Pays one to obey laws and do their best to do right.

Snakes are no fun either. Come back and visit me anytime.


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kenneth avery 21 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dear Comfort B.,

I hear you. And your fear is not far from normal. You have a super-active imagination. Does your mind and imagination take a long time to shut down when you go to sleep?

Mine does.

You are a blessed girl. Thanks for your comment.


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kenneth avery 21 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Kylyssa,

Your left such a deep comment. Thanks so much. The two fears, breast-cancer and death all derive from lions. That is so interesting.

Your last one, watching loved ones die as you watch helplessly, moves me. I do not f death, but I fear how It LOOKS.

And did you know that nowhere in the Bible do you find the term; Death Angel?

Preachers have used this for years and I tried to find it. And failed.

Thank you for your comment and visit with me again.


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vkwok 20 months ago from Hawaii

Fear remains a plague to a lot of people, but also something necessary to keep us from doing something stupid.


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kenneth avery 20 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

vkwok . . . you are right, my friend. I found this in the Bible: "fear is the beginning of knowledge," so fear can be a good thing. Thanks for the nice comment.

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