Princess in Tears

MY PERFECT UNPERFECT LOVE STORY

"If I wasn't here tomorrow, would anybody care?"


I never thought that I would post one this early after a major U-turn on 100th hubvenue. But after reading comments from my friends, Bill and Sha, to post another poem, I made my choice to have this one posted.

Great timing though that today I am so sad and feel like my heart has been broken again because of what I discovered... curiosity really is my worst enemy!

My friends would always ask me why I can write these types of poetry in a jiffy... why is it so easy for me to paint a heartbreak in few words or why I can describe the pain of tears while they smoothly glide on the cheeks, when I never really experienced how to be in love – well, that’s what they know.

It’s just because I know what it feels like to be left alone, to be only an option, a second choice or just only a best friend.

They never know though that I just cover my tears with fake smiles and forced laugh and even hide what I really feel inside. Sad words always flow freely on pen and paper in front of me.

And every time they asked me to carve what they're feeling, I would always capture it perfectly.


JUST A LITTLE NOTE

When I'm gone and out of your sight
Promise me you'll never cry
I'm just here by your side
An angel in disguise.


Cause someday, I know, goodbye is a must
Memories will last
And this love will only be a flash
That happens so fast.


If one day, you wake up and can't find me
Just believe I'm a 'lil away
Meant to stay
But gone for a day.


I know that it will break my heart
When you and I will have to part
But I promised to be back again
When my broken heart was mend.


Sad love poems were my way to escape reality. It feels like someone is feeling your pain and the hope of moving on is within the reach. But the truth is, I'm afraid to forget.

I'm afraid that I might not even remember the sound of his voice or the smiles on his lips.

And I'm afraid to move on. Moving on means forgetting and I don’t want to. I gave him my whole heart the first time we’ve met and I will never ask him to return it.

Sometimes when I’m alone, I think about the perfect life I wished as a child.

But then, life is not perfect. Fairy tales exist only on storybooks. But you can make your own perfect fairytale by learning to live a happy and contented life. I learned to embraced all the imperfections and be thankful for whatever God gave me.

At least I found someone who truly loves and cares for me unconditionally. Love is not always smiles and laughs. You will soon learn how to cry and how to be hurt so that you will appreciate the moments and will have the courage to fight.

He calls me “Princess" and treated me like one. I don’t care if this is the most perfect unperfect love story one can have. What matters most is the love we shared perfectly to each other.

I now learned how to count my blessings instead of pains; and learning how to love just one person for the rest of my life.


© 2012 Mycee. All Rights Reserved.

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Janine Huldie 4 years ago from New York, New York

Beautiful Myz. I too had a bit of heartache before meeting my now husband and am so thankful for him on any given day. I can tell you this though even after being married for only a little over 6 years, nothing and no one is perfect, but it what you make of each and every day that matters. I have learned to deal with the good and the bad and just be so thankful and grateful for all I do have. Have voted, shared and tweeted too.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Janine thank you for this beautiful message. You are right, we only have to embrace the imperfections of others and accept them whole heartedly. then we would know how blessed we are for having them in our life. Life is not that perfect but we can make it perfect in our own simple ways. thank you so much for the shared and vote Janine. xoxo hugs and kisses to you.


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midget38 4 years ago from Singapore

We've all had the moments of sadness, M. We have to accept the sad moments and let them go...knowing that there's someone else out there who's meant for us. A wonderful share.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

That's the spy I came to know and love. Excellent work my friend. Spy, I learned from all of my loves; yes, it is bittersweet, but oh so worth the experience. Excellent work!


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CloudExplorer 4 years ago from New York City

Lovely poem and narration of your love that's lost for a day or so and then found, or was it you. I think we all in the physical sense as well as spiritual sense represent love, because it took love to bring us into the world, and most of us for that matter (Some others were unwanted births unfortunately).

You have learned to encompass all that love has to offer to you, and including that of its low sad points, covering its hurt, and painful staking grips and all by hiding your true self a bit to that of passers by.

I felt all of this while reading this hub, and the strength however in what you have learned in your life thus far, truly exists in my opinion where you admit to yourself openly that you have felt such ways.

This is a true sign of inward to outward maturity, and growth into a more healing phase of life, and no matter if you found yourself alone, or that of your partner found you no longer presence mentally or physically.

Thanks Spy for sharing such a touching inner experience of emotional undertones, it has definitely open my eyes to see that many more people besides me, have felt at one time or another just as I've felt as well.

Thumbs up and sharing!


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Cracknutcase 4 years ago from India,bangalore

Spy, I am sending you a warm hug all across the way from India so that you don't feel low any-more. Yes its easy to paint what your heart really feels and you paint it quite well, my friend. There will be a sunrise I promise. Meanwhile hold on tight, smile and let the world know u can't be defeated.

Beautiful poem as always :)

Take care


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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

This is a sad poem. Your writing is amazing and always wonderful to read.

Voted up and awesome, Joyce.


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kashmir56 4 years ago from Massachusetts

Another one of these poems flow from you pen so easily so tenderly so wonderfully, and maybe empty your heart of sadness one day so a everlasting love may live there for evermore .

Hugs for my friend M !!!


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teaches12345 4 years ago

Sorry you had such a bad experience in love, but it looks like you are pulling out and onward now. You are a princess and deserve the new attention.


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Rosemay50 4 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

A beautiful tender poem of heartbreak Myz. Your heart pours into your poems like liquid honey. No matter what happens in the future or who mmight come along and sweep you off your feet, you will ALWAYS remember your first love, so don't be afraid to move on.


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aviannovice 4 years ago from Stillwater, OK

Very well said. Perfect is what makes us happy, again unconditionally.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

@Michelle, Billy, Mike, Hajira, Joyce, Tom, Dianna, Rosemay, Deb..

I'm so glad that you really took the time to comment and sympathize on this feeling most people undergo one time in their life. This is just a writing, i don't really feel this way.. it's just that it is so easy to write these kind of things and feelings which is relatable to other people.. I am happy with my life and even though i write pains and heartbreaks, it doesnt really mean i am going thru a tough time with love.. this is a compilation of all the things I have noticed and the things that a lonely girl out there feels. :)

honestly, the love i have now is perfect..more that i wanted and you know, happy to found the man who never makes me cry.

thank you for reading this little narrative hub of mine and well, looking forward again to many more poems :)

@Cloud, that's remarkble comment. thank you so much..thankfully it's not me, but we do learn on some other experiences right!

@sir Bill. hehehe well, you and Sha just trademarked me for this topics!


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Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

Amazing poetry. And I love what you shared about about after the poem. Very painfully intense and thought-provoking. Voted Way Up to the Heavens, except funny. In His Love, Faith Reaper


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Mhatter99 4 years ago from San Francisco

Beautiful! Enjoy being young (yes even the pain). Even"the great martin" could only be 14 ( the age it all started for me) once.


Sueswan 4 years ago

Hi Unknownspy

Beautiful and bittersweet.

"And I'm afraid to move on. Moving on means forgetting and I don’t want to. "

You will never forget a special love. He will stay tucked away in your heart until the time comes and you find a new love. Then he will be in your memories.

Voted up and away

Take care :)


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HouseBuyersUS 4 years ago from Centreville, Virginia, USA

Look, all these things are the part of our life. But you really had a tough experience. But life doesn't stop...so forget about past keep moving...good luck!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Faith, wow that was very lovely! i knew you'd like it.

Sue, that's right, no matter what happens, a special love will always be in our heart.

Mhatter, hehehe thanks for the lolvey comment.

Housebuyers, it's not really easy to forget and move on.when you feel true love, it will really take time to heal the scar but you will never forget how much you love that person. i never had any tough experience though. that's only a writing.. thanks for reading!


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dghbrh 4 years ago from ...... a place beyond now and beyond here !!!

Dear Princess of someone who is precious for you,

Life is this.......and what else is left to say as you have said all. In your words here you have born and you heave seen sorrow through your pen in paper you have bled to cry. Tears are only beautiful for me as well. You have a company here at least with life time guarantee. I trust you with for sure with the disclaimer as well. Keep it up .

All my votes up excluding the fun part and sharing too for sure.


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Pamela99 4 years ago from United States

Myz, This is a beautiful poem. You are certainly gifted in expressing those difficult emotions. Life certainly has times of sadness and times of joy. Awesome hub.


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TToombs08 4 years ago from Somewhere between Heaven and Hell without a road map.

Great job, Spy. Captured the feelings and sentiments perfectly. Awaiting your book of poetry! :)


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

Sad but also so beautiful.

Eddy.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hello Deergha, Pamela, TT and Eddy,

thank you so much for the lovely comments. I appreciate this much guys!


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Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

I just read your interview with Maria. It felt good to know more about you. I don't have any words to say about this poem, wonderful as always.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

So very lovely and glad to hear life is treating you well.


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Movie Master 4 years ago from United Kingdom

Incredible writing Myz, voting up/awesome


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

@Vinaya, thank you so much for the wonderful message. Your interview is awesome too!

@Gypsy, thank you so much for the read. Yeah..huggs.

@Lesley, so glad you stopped by. thank you so much.


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livingsta 4 years ago from United Kingdom

Beautifully written, I know the feeling!


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rajan jolly 4 years ago from From Mumbai, presently in Jalandhar,INDIA.

This is an awesome poem Mycee. You draw out the inner feelings of a broken heart so beautifully.

Voting it up & awesome. Shared.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Livingsta, Rajan, thank you so much for the kind visit and wonderful message.


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kj force 4 years ago from Florida

unknown spy..I know of what you wrote..it is relative..as far as unconditional love, if you want it buy a dog or a pet of whatever you prefer..otherwise to me life is a compromise, you chose to live it or exist it...it's our decision. enjoyed the change of pace, it's gratifying to know that you can do both and you do it well my friend...enjoyed thanks for sharing your thoughts..have a great week end


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dwachira 4 years ago from Nairobi, Kenya

I hope your heart is not broken anymore and that you are much happier now, I love the introduction of this article, you certainly have a wide field to write from. Voted up.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

kj force, thank you so much for the kind visit. :) thank you as well for the message!


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

thank you dwachira.. we experience sadness in our life. no, my heart is full and loving my vest everyday. though i seem to write most about heartbroken, its the way to comfort someone's grieving soul out there..telling that some people have the same feeling as them.


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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York

Unknown Spy voted up and beautiful! Like Faith Reaper loved what you wrote after the poem. You have a lovely spiritual gift of your heart flowing through your pen. Keep polishing that gift from God.

You are a treasure. Thank you for another phenomenal hub.

Blessings, Sparklea :)


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hi Sparklea. how are you now? how's your appointments going on? i mizz you here in HP.


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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York

Hi Unknown Spy, I am slowly trying to get back on Hubpages and check it out a little each day. So many wonderful people on HP and so thrilled to be part of HP.

My last appointment was Monday. I will fill you in later, as I am waiting to hear from a decision two of my physicians have to make. Thank you so much for your prayers. I WILL stay in touch.

Blessings, Sparklea :)


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Sparklea, thank you for the message. I keep my fingers crosses and hoping that all is well. please stay in touch. you are my special friend here and would like to see more of your writings.


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bravewarrior 4 years ago from Central Florida

There's my girl! Beautiful poem, Spy. I love the disclaimer. I am so happy for you, Mycee. If anyone deserves the love you have, it's you, my beautiful friend!

Love Ya!

Sha


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Miss you Sha!! Sending you my love


Sammiree 4 years ago

Beautiful


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Hello Sammi! Thank you so much!


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CrazedNovelist 3 years ago from Hampton, GA

I love this Unknown! Great writing. :)


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unknown spy 3 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up. Author

Geez,,thank you so much Aubrey!!

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