The Confession

Introspection grips me twenty-four hours a day

Nearly joined a dating club, but I don’t want to play

Alone, not lonely profile, but the snow colors me blue

I find that I’m thinking a lot about you

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I filled the application, sent a picture on the way

Response was hot and heavy, desperation on display

Stop the bus, I’m getting off, from that coop I flew

I find that I’m thinking a lot about you

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Long distance, words and photos create this foray

Cross the miles, bridge the gap, jump into the gray

Fact or fiction, truth or dare, another complex rue?

I find that I’m thinking,a lot about you

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I’ll take my chances, come what may

Heart afire, 100%, both feet in the fray

Wish upon a star, my dream comes true

I find that I’m thinking a lot about you

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So, here lays fair warning and hear what I say

Batten down the hatch ‘cause I’m use to gettin' my way

I’m not the same scared kid, afraid to pursue

I find that I’m thinking a lot about you

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Everybody's got somebody to lean on

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Bel Marshall 5 years ago from Michigan

Every step forward is a step in the right direction. Keep walking, you will get to the other side.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you for the encouragement. My new mantra will be "Stay calm and carry on."


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epigramman 5 years ago

.....there is always an emotional and intellectual depth to your work Amy - there is always something going on behind these words and that is why there is an 'edge' to your writing - there is more than meets the eye - and yet what I read pleases my eye and provokes my mind!


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epigramman 5 years ago

..and you have a higher score than I do - lol lol - so Amy you wear many 'hats' here at the hub:

- could easily write for Cosmopolitan magazine

- could easily do an investigative piece for the New York Times

- could easily adapt her real life episodes into a reality TV show or docu-drama

- could easily win the hubtastic award for best new poet at Hubpages

- could easily make me forget that I'm spending too much time over here and slipping up on editing, composing and hosting my own hubpage

.....can't wait until what you come up with next - Amy's Hubpage is starting to become a real 'happening' ......


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

You Go Girlie!!!!!!!!!!! So glad to read: "not the same scared kid" You are a great person in your own right. and anyone who has an ounce of brains will love you just as you are. Don't change a thing my Dear. Great writing!!!!!!!!!!!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Poetry in motion you are, Epigramman. Your commentaries provide a glimpse of your "rich beyond words" imagination. As your mind built the "easily could" list of possibilities, my heart was racing, because any of those would send me into orbit.

So, Epi, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your unfailing support and encouragement. Truthfully, without your beautiful thoughts and the way you express them, I doubt I would have had the courage to continue writing. I would have been intimidated, unsure and uninspired without. So, now I'm not only motivated by you, I have been opened to the possibilites...and I realize that fantasy is not a fairytale, but maybe, someday "could easity" be real!

BobbiRant, it's true, I'm not afraid because of you. You were first in jumping on the "following Amy" train, well O.K., caboose. I remember how excited I was, and continue to be, everytime I find your comments. You are never ho-hum, and have been what I look to for confidence and the truth. Thank you, my friend


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Epi, I wrote a long comment and it is now gone. I am disheartened to retrieve it from my memory bank. Love you Mr. C!

BobbiRant, also, my commentary and thank you is gone. However, thank you both for your support.

Love you, my friend.


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TheManWithNoPants 5 years ago from Tucson, Az.

Awesome stuff Amy. Heres a couple of lines from one of my songs. "Home is a place that used to be, and love is a girl that once loved me. But I'm gonna get moving so I don't get stuck. You're digging your grave, when you're in a rut."

Freedom and happiness begin when you make the hard decision to throw the bare essentials in a back pack, walk out the door, head to the curb, and stick out your thumb. You've done that, and now the possibilitys are endless.

Good hub. thumbs up, beautiful, awesome

jim


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I love your stanza. Now, that's great stuff, which is standard for you! Thank you for your support. It's my lifeline. Truly...And I am 100% in agreement with your assessment of freedom, which is happiness.


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Just remember that getting back out there takes us out of our comfort zone. We are better with age, just like a fine wine. And we cast the net, WE get to throw most of fish back. You have beauty, stature, intelligence, and experience. Be careful, you will be getting more attention than you realize. Get ready...


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

Glad to see you comming out of that shell, to be alive and smile, to loved and wanted, to find the love you deserve. You go girl. God Bless I wish you the best.


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shynsly 5 years ago from Sierra Vista, AZ

Be fearless and be bold, my dear. If you live your life with the same passion as your writing, it will have a sweeping array of ups and downs, but regret is a fool's game for people too busy not enjoying life. The highs will be worth the lows, and in the end, your story will be a tale worthy of being told!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Yes, Augustine, I wax and wane and actually ran for cover when I submitted my app. I cancelled before I even accepted the offer! It was just too overwhelming and sad. I am going to take my time, and let it happen or not. Thank you for your kind and thoughtful words. I agree.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

vietnamvet68, I'm back and forth, but at least I am open to the possibility of the excitement of meeting new people. However, I am going to do it on my own, without paying someone to scout for me. It is just too sad. The quick flood of response had me hightailing it back to safety. I don't want to sound difficult, because I'm not, but one "contestant" was 80-years old. It has the ambiance of a game show. I'll meet new friends just by being in the world. Thanks for your best wishes.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear shyandsly, your commentary is beautiful. I especially loved the revelation about passion correlating to highs and lows...I thought about your words, and you are precisely correct. I never actually made that connection before you said it. So, thank you for pointing out something that I will always remember.


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

With that one short phrase in your poem, Amy, "desperation on display," you summed up in only three words the entire internet dating game. You can write, my friend. Keep going and I promise to keep reading. :)


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

drbj, my friend, it is your encouragement that has given me the courage to find my voice. And for that there are no words sufficient to thank you other than to let you know they mean everything.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas

You are really writing some good stuff right now...hang in there and keep turnin' 'em out! Thanks for sharing! WB


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Considering I'd never written a poem before I joined the hub and judging from the comments, I think I've come a way. It kind of "gets on my nerves", though, that now everything I think is starting to run through my head as poetry. I think I've gone mad as a hatter! Thanks for your support.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Great writing for an old hat! You're writing like you've spent your life writing! God bless Amy!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thanks, Micky. I'm having so much fun here at the hub. I'm meeting some great people...and I'm glad one of them is you! Feels like family.

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