Unholy Forgiveness- Prose

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I can’t do it
Not like you want me to
I’m not a God
I’m mortal just like you
I loved you once
I needed you like air
But then you changed
You became a lion in its lair
You controlled my thoughts
You controlled my fate
My heart turned on you
My love turned to hate
Then one day I left
I may have saved your life
Evil had its suggestions
About a gun and a knife
Maybe you knew this
As you heard it in my voice
My mind turned to madness
I had no other choice
But now calm breezes blow
Just like when we met
You said God brought us together
You said let us not forget
But it was time
That softened my emotions
I traveled alone
But I am unable to walk on oceans
I thought of holiness
And the words of Jesus
I wondered about humans
And if he did deceive us
What are we capable of
After a journey into darkness?
How can I love someone
Who is no longer my princess?
Am I to forgive
And forget
When tomorrow awaits
With further regret?
How can I forgive
What I cannot trust?
How can I love
What a commandment says I must?
I read the words
Of the stern rubric
But I am a failure
I cannot play the music
In the unholiness of my offer
I can only give you this
I will never hurt you
But I cannot offer a kiss
You must let me go
And realize what I say
You may believe in God
But my sin does not pray
The decision has been made
You are forgiven
But I will walk into the fire
Because today only Jesus has risen


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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

Dark places of the heart eloquently portrayed in this piece--so well done!


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

I agree with audrey it is dark but beautiful too...it is so wonderful to know Jesus has risen and He forgives us our sins...great hub..debbie


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

This is really beautiful. Jesus forgives, sometimes it is difficult for us. Thank you. Thoughtful words...


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Audrey - Thank you. Yeah it's dark and confessional. Just admitting the truth about myself. Hey... are you on Hello Poetry?

@Deborah - Hey thank you... if you agree with Audrey then ya'll have great minds right?

@always - Thank you. Yeah Jesus forgives. I guess I'm saying it's hard being like him...


Joanie 4 years ago

We do what we have to do to get away from people that are harmful to us continually in this life. One life we have - find the good people - they are out there.

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