Whatever You Want To Believe Babe

My honey listens and gives me her support

When your ideas sink like a rock to the bottom of the ocean faster than a fish can swim

I have been there

No time to cry

No time to hesitate

My beliefs have been shattered like a florescent bulb tiny and only a cloud of dust is left behind

How could I be so wrong?

Where did I make a mistake and didn't see the error in my ways?

How can I repair the loss that I feel?

Should I give up and call it quits when I get covered in mud and everyone else seems to laugh

Can I find a smile or have I given it away one time to many

Why do so many people find great pleasure in my pain

I wish them luck and they can't wait to tell my story of shame

I press on against all odds and see victory in the fog ahead

I will pick myself up after I have fallen a few times too many

I will be looked down upon and be left standing cold

I can feel the pain that cuts deep under my skin

No marks left on me because it is mentally not physically

No blood shed or witnesses to my suffering

I will find something that will keep me sane

I notice a little girl who plays all alone

She giggles to herself

She has learned to have the last laugh

Content and happy just being left alone

Why does she not feel the loneliness I feel?

She knows the world will miss her special gifts

Is she smarter than me at the the age of 8?

I think so since I haven't learned to change

I just want to believe the bad

I can't shake that awful feeling that creeps inside of me and will not leave

I will watch and learn what she is all about

She sits there patiently waiting for friends to come

Hours pass and she is alone

I can not believe my eyes

What I see before me can not be true

She is happier than before

Knowing who she is

Someone who she cheerishes often

An uncomplicated girl without confusion

She is the commander of her love

I sit in awe and am truley shocked

For I have learned and keep learning

I did not risk everything I had

I only stopped short and can have what others have


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Darlene Sabella 6 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

Great hub, I love this story, poem, and I love the deepth...

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Dark Heart 6 years ago

I liked it.Points out that we have to be able to live

alone well in order to live well with others.

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carolina muscle 6 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

This is a lovely idea... yes, i think she knows something we don't.

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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Darlene Sabella ,Dark Heart,Carolina Muscle I appreciate your comments.

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shazwellyn 6 years ago from Great Britain

Hi Dream... is 'she' your daughter?

Nice hub x

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poetlorraine 6 years ago

this is so intriguing, i like it.

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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Shazwelllyn she is a neighbor.I watched her so content playing by herself.Poetlorraine reminds me of one of your hubs.

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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

Iteraction is good for us but oh to actually 'enjoy' your own company is a wonderful thing. ( I think so anyway)

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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Dim Flaxenick I sometiimes have to spend time alone to regroup and rethink my thoughts.Then I feel empowered to succeed and continue on in the right direction and focus.

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