When you took me for granted

 For all the times you took me for granted, the things I did for you, the feelings I had for you. I want you to know how much you hurt me with me with your indifference and the way you never had any appreciation.

For the times I spent scrubbing your clothes on my hands and knees while suffering from crippling arthiritis, when I didn't even have the strength to bathe myself and make sure I was dressed myself, I made sure you were taken care of. You took it all for granted.

For all the times I made your meals, cleaned the house, took care of our child., when I wasn't able to take care of myself, your lack of appreciation let me know you took it all for granted. Your demands for breakfast in bed when I could barely drag myself out of bed, you took it all for granted.

When you took for granted the feelings I had for you and I bore the signs of your abuse, both physical and mental, I was humiliated and ashamed that I couldn't stand up to you. When you made fun of my disabilities telling me no one else would want me and that you could do so much better, you took it all for granted.

When you took for granted the time I put into my education while at the same time having me do all your paper work, you wanted to break my spirit and I let you. I let you make me feel like less than a human being and hung my head.

When You took for granted my desire to help you and let you pawn or sell everything precious to me, you drained me and left me without even the basic necessities. I still cared, even though you took it all for granted.

When I supported you on my megar disability check  for four years while you lay in bed and watched TV , you took it all for granted. You called me names, worthless bitch, useless and things that tore out pieces of my soul.

When I  told you I was leaving you and that You wouldn't have me to fall back on anymore, you still took it for granted that I would change my mind and stay, but I didn't.  I spent the next week packing and moving my things.

Now you call me telling me how sorry you are that you took it all for granted....

But sometimes when you take it all for granted you just can't get it back. I took myself for granted, now i am picking up the pieces of my life and learning to love myself again....

I will never again be taken for granted.

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Rashmi Singh 3 years ago

@christalluna1124 Anytime you can remove the crap I have linked. But when I read what you wrote, I could feel it... I have really felt it and it goes on.. I hope u understand.. Moreover I always thought that these kind of thinds happen in India and alike countries..


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

rashmi - I hate it when people link their crap to my writing! That is SO rude.

Anyway,chris, you have some through some very tough times and more than survived. How you have been able to get a degree while balancing on the edge of your illness, let alone that leach you left, I'll never understand, but you've done it. If you never do another thing in your life, you have spoken volumes. You are a living tribute to women who are still trapped and I am honored to make your acquaintance.


rashmi singh 5 years ago

There is a story in everyone's life.. Life is not kind to everyone...There are many like u READ

http://rrashmi211.blogspot.com/2009/08/oceans-of-l...


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christalluna1124 6 years ago from Dallas Texas Author

Blaise,

Thanks for your comment. I haven't been well and its taking me awhile to catch up on things. I am always so glad to see you and check out your sites.

warmest regards,

chris


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blaise25 6 years ago from close to you...

Im so sorry to hear that Chris. I know it's so hard for you..but life wont leave you empty still. Hope you'll smile again. God bless. You have friends in here.. :)


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christalluna1124 6 years ago from Dallas Texas Author

Blaise,

thanks for the comment. I haven't been very productive these past few days, on top of the depressive bout giving me hell I just lost two of my nieces to a automobile accident. I am kind of still in pieces.

warmest regards, chris


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blaise25 6 years ago from close to you...

you're a strong woman Chris..I liked how this story ended ;) God bless.

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