Widowers Valentine

Foreword

When you are someone’s Muse, you cannot know in advance how what you do, say, or are, will affect them in their response to you. For me at least I see so many muses here at the Hubs that I often end up with a product that can not really be attributed to one, but comes to me from all or so many I cannot identify them. Not so with this poem, I want to thank BlondePoet shazwellyn , and muslima61 for their inspiration. It came to me on the thread Tomorrow Never Comes opened by muslima61 but as is normal it took a turn from the original supposition and thus this hub was born.

I have been blessed to live a life that is well expressed in so much music. The greatest joy I think is much of the songs that could describe it were written well after I began to live it that way and served more as a confirmation than advice for me, but I would not be true to my soul if I did not pass some of them along to you given the spirit of this hub so they will follow the poem. I am I think one of the blessed few that can reach an age over 50 and can honestly say – NO REGRETS.

Now I also have to give some credit for my greatest muse Zena; for she is of course the subject. I hope it conveys the deep but yet light side of our love. You can read more about her at Men-A-Widowers-Lessons-from-a-Warror-Princess and Tribute-to-a-Warrior-Princess . some might think after all this time I am not ‘over her’ or ready to move on, yet what they do not understand is the great truth she left me and that is, that you are free if you love loving. So it is with me, I have tried to turn off those flames of passion, and make my heart cold and hard. I did not like it much. Since as they say, that an old First Sergeant has to have Brass Balls and a Steel Heart, what they don’t tell you is how fast they expand when they are warmed with love.

So cry not for me here or for Zena we will be happy when again united, it is in fact a day I can look forward too, but I know it is not a day for me to choose. (That’s way above my pay grade.) But until then I have to share life love and laughter with all my muses and friends.. I hope you enjoy it…

Zena The Warrior Princess
Zena The Warrior Princess

Widowers Valentine…

What did love teach the two of us

During time we shared together?

Did we both the two of us

Live each day for one another?

I think as still my heart has grown

Since the day you left

For sweet embrace of Christ and God

Took you from this world and me.



That 8th day of April

when a St Christopher you bought

a memory of your father a year before you lost..

And three dances danced in Norwich Town

A soldiers wife to be…

Was born as sure in my arms that night

A love twas meant to be

And when we later, stayed our first night

At New World Inn Together

The Soldiers Demons disappeared

Love filled his dreams from that first night

And each one we were together.



Twenty four years five months and six days

We knew each others love.

For eight and six and two of those

duty called me from her arms.

And yet beneath a painted sky

Somewhere out there I felt and knew

in every fiber of my being

True love was there beneath the sky waiting home for me.



Flames of passion stoked the hearth of

My daily love of thee.

The inside joke,

The paid old pro

Was long tween you and me.

A nickel on the dresser at days end of toil and work

Meant a Huny Do list I did face that night

Upon our lovers bed...

And joy I took unto the task!

And with each one you pointed out

I’d relish, smile , and craft

Till perfect was our union, long into the night

Living as a ‘Paid Professional’

the title you gave to me!



Did we each look at the day as if tomorrow may not come?

Did we dance true a Dance of love?

Oh yes we could have missed the pain

But you and I dear sweet,

know we couldn’t have missed our Dance…

whatever the outcome be.

And now you ask O Would I dance it all again?

Or would outside the fire I stare and lonely look within?

For her or I to do so I think,

We could not have been true to each other

For each one of us a sin to live less than the day demanded

For Ride to the Sound of The Guns! We knew

Was written for each other.



Then in ‘05’s October ten days afore you’d be Forty-six

You took your long sweet final breath

And home you went to God.

To stone I tried to turn my heart,

But so much love had we shared

I found that I could not.



What did love teach the two of us

During time we shared together?

Did we both the two of us

Live each day for one another?

I think the proof is here

as still my heart has grown

Now with muses I do share

Our fun our joy our sweet passion true

Now I give so freely what I only had for you.

For what was taught by you sweet one

Is true unto my heart

Love to love and do it well

Hold back you dare must not!



And So in heaven rest ye well my love

For soon one day I’ll smile

And say to both

God and his Son

I’m here at last to see again

My Huny Sweet and Fair

I know a Paid Professional is needed at her stair….

Time Offers no Second Chances Do It Now, Do ItToday!!

Says much about the Two of Us...

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zzron 6 years ago from Houston, TX.

Nice poem and videos.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

zzron - thanks for stopping By!


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blondepoet 6 years ago from australia

Oh Hmr that had do much love, so much emotion I swear I'm going to cry. You write beautifully and thanks so much for the mention. Wow.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

It is you I thank o muse o mine...XXOO


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myownworld 6 years ago from uk

i broke down reading this....just so beautiful and moving. Makes me believe in true love again...! Yes, keep spreading that love.....it's so inspiring!


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Tears of Joy and passion I hope...Thanks MOW Love Ya!!XXOO


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amulets 6 years ago from Singapore

Very well written. I am totally moved by it. It brings tears into my eyes. Thanks for sharing!


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Thank you so Amulets glad you enjoyed it..GBY


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Tom Whitworth 6 years ago from Moundsville, WV

Hmrjmr1,

You are a man of many passions but you have a soul governed by love. God bless.


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tantrum 6 years ago from Tropic of Capricorn

What a nice, great poem !!!! what a wonderful way of loving !! I enjoyed so much reading this !! Cheers !! :)


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50 Caliber 6 years ago from Arizona

Hammer,

21 Guns Bro'

I came back to add this http://hubpages.com/literature/Innocencestory101 it was the second in line after this one today


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Tom, Tantrum Glad you enjoyed it!!

50 Cal - Much appreciated My Friend That means a lot to me.. Semper Fi!! and Hooah!!


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breakfastpop 6 years ago

Dear Hmr,

I've said it before and I'll say it again..you are an amazing and beautiful man and I can see why your magnificent Zena would fall in love with you and stay in love with you until the end of time.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

BPOP - We made a small change in our vows..

For at the Altar where we wed

Before God and Priest and Thee

I promised not 'till death do us part' but

'for so long as I shall breathe'..


ivori 6 years ago

Love ... it must truly be a wonderful thing. Thank you for an inspiring writing. It is beautiful.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

ivori - thanks so much, glad you enjoyed it..:)


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

hmm I need to find a true love, so moving, Maita


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Hope you do Maita, there is no greater thing in life...John


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Pamela99 6 years ago from United States

Hmrjmr, This tribute you wrote to the precious love you shared with Zena brought tears to my eyes. You are indeed a unique writer and this was beautifully written. Not everyone is blessed to have known this type of love. God Bless.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Pam - And may he bless you and your love too. Much Thanks..


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas

Okay you made me cry today HMR. This is a beautiful poem and you can tell that your inspiration was filled with so much love. You are lucky to have been able to love and be loved this way. Please do not ever try to turn your heart into stone because the time that you spent with Zena is too wonderful to be undone in that way. You are a very talented man and I enjoyed your poem very much.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

LJ - No worries lass, I tried that cold heart once didn't like it. Never happen again. Thanks so much GBY..XXOO


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habee 6 years ago from Georgia

This is beautiful - it brought tears to my eyes. I hope Zena can see it!


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lorlie6 6 years ago from Bishop, Ca

I am so very touched by the love you shared with Zena! On this upcoming Valentine's Day I know she will be dreaming of dancing with you once again.

Lovely.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Habee - Thanks so much, I know she can, GBY!


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Lorlie - A pleasant dance it will be Thanks and a Happy Valentines Day to you.. GBY


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trish1048 6 years ago

I can hear the joy and pride in your voice as you speak of your love. I too am glad you didn't turn bitter. As sure as I sit here, I know Zena is smiling down upon you. She gave you a great gift and I'm glad to see you sharing it with others.

Thanks for sharing.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

trish - Thank you for your kind words and for stopping by, sharing and loving is what I do...Thanks!!


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prasetio30 6 years ago from malang-indonesia

nice poem. That's way I love this hub. I think Valentine's is for everyone. For those who still single, married or widowers. God bless you.


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tim-tim 6 years ago from Normal, Illinois

Nice expression! Thank you for sharing:) Valentine's Day might be joyful for some but sad for others, just like Christmas and other holidays.


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muslima61 6 years ago from manchester UK

What a beautiful, emotional poem, you had me in tears, thank you so much for the mention, i am happy i was able to give something, be blessed x :)


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Prasetgio Thanks my friend

tim-tim it's still a joyful time for me, hope it is for you,, TRhanks

muslima may Allah be with you all of your days, and may he smile upon you and your family, God Bless!


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GmaGoldie 6 years ago from Madison, Wisconsin

Hmrjmr1,

You made me cry...Oh, very, very wonderful. I saw Sarah in concert - great choice - all the songs were a wonderful heartfelt pick. I lost my husband on 10.11.2005 - the days we had were priceless - great memories.

God bless you and your family.


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Hmrjmr1 6 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

Goldie- My commiserations on your loss, hope you are doing OK, Thanks so much for your kind words. God Bless.


ruffridyer 5 years ago from Dayton, ohio

I loved your poem. It touched my heart. I lost my wife to diabeties 3 yrs ago. She was only 51. It was like a part of me died, the best part. God Bless you.


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Hmrjmr1 5 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

And may God Bless you too Ruffridyer, I understand, but know that when we reunite with our Hunies, all the best will be there again. Peace my friend.


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

Such a moving poem to your wife. Words can not even come close to describing how touching this prose was. Thank you for sharing this with us...


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Hmrjmr1 4 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

AA - Glad you enjoyed the poem.


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Beth100 4 years ago from Canada

Your love is beautifully captured in your words.

xox


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Hmrjmr1 4 years ago from Georgia, USA Author

thanks for such kind words

Beth- XXOO

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