You Can't Have Me

You call me in another snit

Demand of me I must submit

Loyalty is mine to commit

You can’t have me, I’m done, I quit

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Wheedle and whine, the tools in your kit

No glue to bind, no bracing bit

No need to pretend we're closely knit

You can’t have me, I’m done, I quit

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Summer thru winter I did permit

Yes to no, and where is the writ

No more of me for your benefit

You can’t have me, I’m done, I quit

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Twist and turn your words to spit

Create the rift that widens the split

Relief the torrent that I emit

You can’t have me, I’m done, I quit

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Truth in code does not transmit

Connect the dots and must admit

The size is wrong and it won’t fit

You can’t have me, I’m done, I quit

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You don't know what I feel

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nighthag 5 years ago from Australia

Loved it!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

nighthag, thank you very much!


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

beautiful write Amy, you can now turn the page and write another chapter. God Bless


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well that entrusted seer up above Vietnamvet68 has said it all!

This poetic crossroad of which you write demonstrates to me that you easily become a copywriter's dream in the way you so deftly put words together in such a rhythmic fashion and yet still get your message across to your readers. You never blink or back down (from your stark feelings) and through this soulful vessel of words the catharsis is unleashed with the usual honesty, integrity and raw emotion that we have come to expect from such a finely tuned writing talent like yourself!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, vietnamvet68, the only thing I know for sure is, all I have is "now", so there is no point in squandering one moment in any other way than I choose. Spent too much time taking on too many problems for too many people. Now, I'm gonna figure out what's important to me. Thanks for your good wishes!


Hostingbar 5 years ago

Amy,I like your work! You've got talent.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

It is interesting, Epigramman, that you note that I "never blink of back down" (from my stark feelings) in my writing. It is unfortunate that I have to experience so much anger before I can just say it! I bear up under and then the proverbial straw that broke the camels back, and I'm done...no turning back. Sometimes, I wonder...Colin, what would I write about if I was content? As always, you give me something to think about, my friend. Thank you


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Hostingbar, thank you for your compliment.


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

Live one day at a time my Dear, it helped me for many years. You go Girl! Never allow yourself to be talked into a single thing. The most important word I learned whether it be the ex or even imposing friends, was No. Great poem.


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

What would you write about if content?

With your talent, you can just invent.

Cabbages and kings, beautiful things,

Just say no to those who would prevent.

Happy New Year!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear BobbiRant, I say "Yes" to "NO". You'd be proud, I said it several times, and will say it many more, without guilt, as I see necessary. The series of events that left me so angry also kept me awake until 3:00 a.m. But, like all new skills, practice, practice, practice will make it easier to use earlier, creating less stress, drama and grief. Thank you for getting to the heart of the matter and your support, BobbiRant!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

drbj, Thank you for your very creative way to inspire me. I love "Cabbages and kings, beautiful things", a whole new venue! Happy New Year to you, my friend.


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Bel Marshall 5 years ago from Michigan

Is this where I stand up and applaud LOUDLY? I am so tickled that you stood up for yourself and you put YOURSELF about that energy sucking vampire!

BRAVO AMY!!!!!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Bel. I was so angry at her audacity in trying to question me about what I talk to my daughter about, insinuating that I discussed her with Megan. I was shaking mad as she would not allow me to speak without trying to run over me,so I ended her lame lying attempts by saying I will not discuss this any further with you. I'm done and I hung up. Then I wrote this poem, but could not sleep until after 3:00 a.m. I was drowning in adrenalin. I was amazed at my strong reaction to even hearing her say my daughter's name. It reeked of violating, intrusiveness. She has never met Meg's and I resent, with all my being, her dillusional assumption that she or any of her constant needs would ever take precedence over my child. That lack of boundaries was at the heart of all of my issues with my neighbor. She was very offended when I asked her to please refrain from constantly calling my cell as she was not one of my 5 Fav's on my T-Mobile plan. She was waiting for me to justify my choices. She will never understand and I don't care. And, today, I do not regret how it ended. I am relieved, but I feel strange, off balance and for some odd reason, slightly scared. Do you understand that? Maybe because it is out of character for me to become so enraged. I saw early on where this was going. She saw an opportunity, an easy mark. I will not second guess my intuition and instead listen to and trust myself in the future to not allow anyone to overstep my boundaries. Thank you for your help and now your "Bravo"! Here's to a brand new year, Bel! Health, happiness and all good things to you and yours!


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Bel Marshall 5 years ago from Michigan

Amy,

Don't let go of this resolve. Yes, it will feel odd because your time suddenly belongs to YOU! Besides, you stepped up for yourself, something I have a feeling is new for you as well.

Soak it in, enjoy it, luxuriate in it and then BREATHE for the first time in a very long time.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

O.K., Bel. As I read your words, I BREATHED deeply several times and it feels great. I felt so beat lately I was hunching over and breathing shallow. Thank you for that great advice. It sounds simple, but I wasn't really conscious of that until I read your comment. I'm going to make it a new habit to be conscious of breathing, which is part of the principles in yoga, I believe. That might be a good thing, too. Thank you and Happy New Year, Bel!


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Bel Marshall 5 years ago from Michigan

Amy,

Are you familiar with EFT? It sounds like a bunch of woo woo to many people but there are mainstream therapist that are using it for everything from PTSD to physical pain.

I don't want to spam your page but if you are interested email me and I can send you a couple of links for youtube videos that walk you through the process. I swear it takes the crazy out of my crazy and it does HELP!


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, I believe a person with integrity will respect the wishes of another person. To keep on nagging a person who made up his/her mind is showing disrespect and contempt.

I know you were furious and terribly frustrated when you wrote this poem, but my imagination presented to me the picture of a cute bonny-girl shaking her pompom tail for the person who irritates her. Lol! Ha-ha!

Rave on forward, I am cheering you. (Smiling, because you are so endearing and loveable. I would have loved a neighbor like you. Not to take care of me, but to join me in tackling challenges by the horns.)


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, I’ve just read your discussion with Bel, and I feel my previous comment was a bit too lighthearted. Forgive me! I have to give you my opinion.

Dear neighbor overstepped the boundaries. She broke the rules (she doesn’t even know exist). She blew it. You have now all the right to turn your back for once and for all on this devastated relationship. You actually have no choice, if you love yourself, you must call it quits.

In your shoes I would not look back, not even allow one more conversation. It’s over. Dead. Buried. The flowers are going to grow on it now.

Of course you are scared, you fear regret. But you will not regret this. You've walked more than one mile with her. You have turned your other cheek more than once for her. Forgive her now and forget her. Never forget to love your neighbor AS you love yourself and NOT MORE OR LESS than you love yourself. Now you can pray for her. Let God take care of her. He will throw her in your lap if He wants you to do something for her on His behalf.

Good luck my friend!


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, perhaps you feel affronted because I saw you as a cute bonny-girl. Just want to add – it’s okay to look pretty and cute, but that does not mean you are everybody’s doll. I am described as a cute little squirrel in one of those holes on a golf course, grunting at the players who want to roll their balls into my ‘home’. But everybody knows I’m a courageous and dangerous squirrel who will not be scared out of my home. The one who try to get me out of that hole will go home with less than ten fingers. If they want to get rid of me, they’ve got to shoot me. Thank heavens they think I am too cute to be shot. Just so you know I am well aware of your soft heart but also of your strong and admirable mind.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Martie,

I loved your first, second and third comments. I was laughing out loud at your endearing "lighthearted" and very sweet, funny take. Are you kidding, you adorable woman?! How could anyone be offended at "cute, bonny-girl". It's one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me!! In that same spirit, cute, little squirrel is meant as a term of endearment, although I must say, there is nothing "squirrelly" about you. You remind me of myself in that you are very careful and take very seriously...your words. Anyone who has the slightest idea of your sincerity knows you do not do or say anything frivolously. And your "cuteness" is just one more asset and does not diminish your intelligence or depth as a person. It is one more plus in the personhood of Martie! And, actually, you hit on a very valid point in the "everyone's doll" concept, because that has factored into my life in a big way. My "friendliness' has allowed some users to assume I haven't a brain..assuming I am an easy mark. Much of my accummulated anger is due to their false assumption that if a woman looks o.k., that the sum of her worth is in only that capacity. I have had so many people who express amazement when I have my say. It is such an outdated, unfortunately, enduring assumption that a woman that looks good, can't be intelligent. The smart ones know that it's another tool in the arsenal of persuation...it can be an advantage and it can be powerful, as you know. You are a brilliant businesswoman...I'm not telling you anything you don't already know! I was very happy to read your perceptive take (in your 1st comment)on integrity, respect and contempt as those three words are at the heart of the matter for me. As always, Martie, I appreciate your sincerity. You have so much heart and a fine intellect and I feel so lucky, in this whole big world, to have the privilege of your care and concern. You and the wonderful friends I have made here are ushering in the beginning of another new, promising start...Happy New Year, Martie, my friend and thank you!


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De Greek 5 years ago from UK

Now THIS was really good :-))


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

De Greek, I consider that a supreme compliment from a writer of your caliber. Thank you much and Happy New Year to you and yours!


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TheManWithNoPants 5 years ago from Tucson, Az.

Amy, I just got notice if this. Sorry I'm late. This is perfect kid, and I love it. Just say a prayer for the old bag because God's the only one who has a shot a fixing her, certainly not you. You done good.

Thumbs up, useful, funny, and beautiful.

HEY PEOPLE, GO BACK UP THERE AND VOTE! ONLY TAKES A SECOND.

jim


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Never too late, my friend! I appreciate your support. Ultimately, your synopis about "fixing" is spot on. God knows, I ain't perfect, not by a long shot, I just keep plugging away and try to do my best, but as a mere mortal, I will always look and concede to our Creator when I can see that the battle is futile or worse, damaging. Thanks for your wise perspective, Jim, and being my friend.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

I like it. Standing up for yourself is a great first step.

Good Hub.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I appreciate you stopping to read. Thanks for your comments, WillStarr!


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epigramman 5 years ago

....now what I do when I come to Amy's hubs is I put the scroll down the screen on 'auto-pilot' and go away to do - some laundry

make a little snack

catch the 7 day weather forecast on TV

pick up the kids at school

have a little jog around the block

feed the cats

go for a pee

......and when I come back - it's finally down to the bottom of the screen....... Amy you're such an excellent communicator - and we can see why - the people have spoken - and we are all listening to each other!


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

I'm taking back my poise and grit!

You're always such a phony twit!

You can’t have me, I’m done, I quit

And yes, my dear, you're full of...spit.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Hey Micky, You know when you got to the last word, yep, the same word I debated on...thank you for your clever, funny compliment, I see you got it.


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James A Watkins 5 years ago from Chicago

Wonderful words waxed poetic! I enjoyed your proud stance. Bully for you!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, James. It's a new way for me and long overdue. Happy New Year to you and yours!


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prasetio30 5 years ago from malang-indonesia

You touch my heart with this poem. You made my day so beautiful. Good work, my friend. Thanks for writing this and share with us. Keep on writing and have a nice day!

Blessing and hugs,


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear prasetio30, How sweet your comments are. Thank you for making my day!


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carolineeexx3 5 years ago from you dont have to know

This is great :) read my "hub" its insane but the truth. ;D


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you carolineeexx3, for your time and comments. I'll go see your hub!


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Old Poolman 5 years ago from Rural Arizona

Job well done Amy my love, you said it like it needed to be said and I'll bet you feel much better now. Hang in there kid, we need you to be here.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mike, you are adorable and I admire your strength. You are an inspiration. You never lose sight of your passion for a cause, you fight for the underdog and that is a soft spot for me. It so reminds me of my sweet, wonderful dad. I miss him. I am so grateful for the hub, because I met you and many friends. My life would be much less without. Thank you, my dear sweet friend


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Old Poolman 5 years ago from Rural Arizona

Amy, you are more than welcome. And if what Jim tells me is correct, I am old enough to be your father...........


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mike, certainly not! I meant that the quality of you reminds me of my dad as he was so genuine, unpretentious, generous to a fault and had a special affinity for helping the down on their luck. He once gave a car to a man who needed one for work, but could not afford to buy one. My dad drove a Honda Civic to and from work everyday. He never splurged on himself. The car had heat, period. Not even a radio. He was completely happy and grateful for what he had. He worked hard all his life, shift work at Anheuser-Busch as a fireman and oiler. When he retired, he worked hard in the yard, and helped anyone in the neighborhood, even those that weren't kind to him. He worked in the yard all day the evening he had a massive stroke. He passed away in 24 hours. He died the way he lived his life. Even his death inconvenienced no one. He lived quietly and died so. I try to be like him, because he was a great man. That's probably more than you wanted to know, Mike. I don't get many opportunities to talk about him. Thank you for listening. You're still a young dude!


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Old Poolman 5 years ago from Rural Arizona

Someday we will find out the truth, and I'll bet I win that contest. It seems that you inherited your dads fine qualities. I think I would have liked to known your dad personally, he was my kind of hero. His kind are few and far between and if you have a friend like your dad, you are truly blessed.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mike, he would have liked you, too. He didn't have much time for bullshit. I think he preferred the real nature of those that were struggling, because he felt he could help them...they tended to be honest as they were fighting to survive, not impress. My dad had no arrogance or notions of superiority. He was quiet and didn't talk alot, he just DID. He would be out in the driveway shoveling the snow so he could get out to get to work. He never asked for help, but I'd be out there as a kid helping him shovel, because I saw him always lending a hand to a neighbor with some god-awful task. He'd just do it. My mom told me after he died, that she didn't understand why I was his favorite (I had no idea and still debate that), but if I was it was because he saw me try to be like him. I know he's watching over me. I have proof, which reaffirms my assurances of an afterlife, the knowing is his gift to me. Thanks for listening, Mike. You've got me on a roll.


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Old Poolman 5 years ago from Rural Arizona

Amy, you really need to write a hub dedicated to your father. I can tell you had a deep love and respect for him, and still do. Just from the few comments you have made it would be a straight from the heart hub and we would all get to know him better. My guess is a lot of him rubbed off on you. He sounds like he was a wonderful person and we need to know more about him. Just a suggestion and don't do it if you would rather not.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mike, I think it's a great idea. I've done a couple of poems, but not an article type write. I started out just writing and then got into the poetry thing. I find poetry addictive and I was never a fan until I tried it not long ago. Now I find myself "thinking" in rhyme. There is something wrong with me! Thanks for your understanding, kindness and willingness to listen to my words on my dad, Mike.


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Old Poolman 5 years ago from Rural Arizona

Amy, just do it. You would feel good about having done this, and we would all get the pleasure of a great read. That would be a win / win for all of us.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mike, you're a sweetheart and I see your passion in your comments. You have a big, beautiful heart in acknowledging my admiration and love for my dad. I'm going to write about it, but because it holds such a special place in my heart, I want it to, at least approach, "holding a candle" to what he meant to me. That's a tall order. But, I'll know when I've got it right. Thanks for your inspiration, my friend, Mike!


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breakfastpop 5 years ago

I love the strength in your words.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, breakfastpop, and I love your name. Great way to start my morning! Thanks for stopping and your comment.


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lone77star 5 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

Love the poem. Guilt is not worth the paper on which it is written. Yet, humility is golden. With humility, certainty is turned from conceit into faith. Faced with such power, arrogance shatters.

Keep writing your words of strength and wisdom.


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valeriebelew 5 years ago from Metro Atlanta, GA, USA

Sounds strong. Good for you. (:v


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amy, this is really great! Said so WELL and so completely! Not a wasted word! Very very good.


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

How very clever. It is so difficult to write as you have done with the same rhyme ending for every line. It is not easy to choose the correct word so that it makes sense, but your words do - completely. You have such talent.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

lone77star, thank you for your brilliant synopsis, which is pure honesty. I appreciate your time and commentary. Your words are very beautiful.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

valeriebelew, thank you for your time and comments. I appreciate your visit.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Lucky Cats, thank you, my friend, for your encouragement and beautiful words. That is exactly my goal...not a wasted word. Thank you for noticing!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear acaetnna, Thank you so much for your commentary. I appreciate your kind, encouraging words and especially your specificity. It helps me enormously in further writing.


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Docmo 5 years ago from UK

Your words sing, stir, run wild, turn and stare, show strength and such emotion- they live under your hands. This is not a poem, it is a caged beast. It is sinewy like a black panther. Wow!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Docmo, you inspire me with your fire. Thank you for your recognition of how I felt inside as I fired these words off. You have the soul of a poet and you look like Hollywood. Wow, now that's power.


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writinginalaska 5 years ago from southeast Alaska

Brilliant Amy, absolutely brilliant, i hung on every word! voted UP!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

writinginalaska, thank you so much. You made my day!

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