You WILL Reap What You Sow-Part 4
I've said all of that to say this
So now this brings me to the conclusion.
I did try to be a good step mom to Drew. However, I didn't read the manual that said that not all ex-wives and mommies of children are without problems. I should have been the more Godly woman and prayed for this woman instead of letting the flesh rise up in me. Romans 12:19-20 "Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: It is mine to avenge; I will repay says the Lord. On the contrary: If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head". Do not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
I should not continue to "poke the bear" because I am forcing my stepson to choose his mom.
I should send her flowers and an apology letter but she has already told me that she wants NO contact with me ever again.
All I can do know is pray for God's strength to keep me away from checking on her. I need to show Drew that 2 people can be in a committed, loving relationship where problems are discussed, not screamed about. I need to show him that physical touch does not lead to the bed for a session. I have talked to Matt and he is willing to try to convince Drew and his lady Candy to visit for Christmas but I don't want that. I want them to visit because they want to.
I waited a decade for Drew to call me and wish me a Happy Mother's Day. I guess I can wait another decade for him to visit.