You can go home but....
You can go home but you can't go back all the way
Bob Dylan sang those words in a song of his and as I sat and thought about it, it's so true. After twenty-seven years I decided to to just up and leave everything and everyone to pick up where I left off. Being forty-five ears old you'd think I would've known better. The truth is I did know better I just didn't care. All I cared about was where I was going because I thought it would be a better life. I was totally wrong. I never really knew how many people really loved me until I had left. I often wonder how could I let myself do that,being a Christian and very involved with my church. Here I was working for God and bettering my life and at a drop of a hat I just upped and left it and everyone all behind. Sometimes I wish I could go back,but I know I have to move forward because you can't go back all the way. I often wonder,if I go back what it would be like. Alot of my friends ask me to come back but I don't know. Part of me wants to go back and part of me wants to stay here where I am and rebuild my life over from scratch. In a cense I am already doing that.There' so much to do restarting over.You've got to find a job,place to stay,have to be able to afford bills and food. No matter what you do in life and no matter how much you mess up in your life,God will always be there to guide you through it.
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