It is a very interesting position, I find. I had suicidal thoughts from time to time, but I never acted upon them. I knew how painful depression was.
I was also able to come up with words like that. Not quite like that, I never said people were selfish. You don't know that. Some cancer patients want to die sooner because they could not cope any longer. People who kill themselves are NOT selfish, they cannot cope any longer.
To say that they are selfish is the same as to say that people who are in love are crazy. It is the chemistry of the brain that is changed when we are sad or happy or in love. Suicidal is just an extreme.
Talking? It is difficult, it depends who do you talk to. My grandmother committed suicide, but she had her reasons, even though I always thought the solution might have been easier, but I never judged her. Ever. But then my father started talking about suicide and I was dismissing it as rubbish. "It could not possibly be so bad!" It was. I tried to reason with him. One day, he was leaving and saying that he is going to do it. I panicked. I had no idea what to do - we called 911. Apparently, if you suspect it might happen, a person should be hospitalized immediately. It is hard to judge how determined a person is.
Then I had my share of days in a psychiatric facility and I saw those who tried, but not succeeded. I knew that was the whole program for them. And one day, my turn came - I was suicidal, this time enough to do it. By this time I knew the strategy - you don't advertise, you just do it. But I did not. And I will tell you how it feels - IT IS HELL. Nobody can help you immediately, pills take time to kick in.
Please, don't say you understand. Because you don't.