I’ve spent my life feeling like someone who was on the move. An itch would get under my skin and inflame the hairs up and down my arms, tingling through the back of my neck. Little imperfections in my environment would become huge gaping holes propelling me to go, to move, to change for the sake of change. I always – always – saw an ending for me that was somewhere alone. It’s cheesy but true – my ending in my mind was always me, living alone, with a couple of cats. I wasn’t afraid of commitment … I was afraid of abandonment. Love to me was always something you left before it left you. End of story.
But my story has changed now. Life has changed that for me. Love has changed that for me.
Life is an open question now, one that I stare at a great deal – surprised that I get to have a life I never thought I would, never thought I could. Every single day is a surprise because nothing is the way I once suspected it would be.
Right now it’s about determining how to let go of how I always saw the end and allowing life to take me where I’m meant to be. With who I’m meant to be with.
there is always a purpose in everybodys lifes.finding it is feeling it, as we are not always sure, we need to listen to our voice and find ourselves in the inevitable chellenge of life and relise how wonderful is to be alive in love.
People need love to live. Try to open your eyes then you can see plenty of loves around us in life.
You need to make yourself involved in some activity that would totally deviate your mind from your current situation. That kind of helped me. I still have issues and feel guilt and -ve thoughts come in my mind when I am idle,,, so just keep yourself occupied with something you like, and admired.. like joining a bookclub, take a sports class, yoga, or anything you want,..
You may even consider going to a shrink. It kind of helps
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