How Marijuana Addiction Affected My Marriage

Addiction Affects Children

Family and Addiction do Not go Hand in Hand!

It all started on a sunny afternoon when I came home and told my husband that I did not want him smoking marijuana at our house anymore. I had come to a point in my life were family and addiction did not fit in the same category; I had to choose family or addiction.

This immediately threw my marriage into despair. He packed his bag, took a few personal belongings and left. His final words to me were, “I am done with you, done changing for you, and I’m divorcing you!” Because his addiction to marijuana was stronger than his desire to be a good influence on his children my marriage was in despair.

Family and Addiction Equal Devastation

My feelings were that of devastation. How could he choose this drug over my children, over his children, over our relationship?  I was done pretending that it was not happening. My husband was smoking pot in our garage on a regular basis. He also was inviting his relatives over to join him.

However my children did not appear to have any knowledge of his addiction (marijuana smoking) I was tired of putting them at risk. I had to put my children first and implant boundaries for my home even if it meant my marriage would be in despair or possibly destroyed.

My husband was gone for about twenty four hours before he came home to talk. He seemed to understand that my desire was to be a mother before all else. To my knowledge he has completely stopped smoking marijuana.In my household, family and addiction was about to focus solely on recovery.

The After Affects of Family and Addiction

His addiction to this substance continues to haunt him on a daily basis. He struggles regularly with hot flashes, irritability, restlessness, and insomnia. Our marriage is not perfect but it is a work in progress; hopefully that progress will continue to be drug free. Rather than being family and addiction, we are a family without addiction.

I continue to worry that my husband’s perspective on marijuana use and addiction in general will eventually hurt my children and contribute to the despair and destruction of our marriage. Two questions race through my brain frequently, “Would he ever smoke pot with my kids like his parents did with him?” “Do the kids know that daddy smoked pot?”

Addiction is very destructive; my husband, myself, my marriage, or my children have not been safe from the affects of it. I struggle with feelings of paranoia, my husband struggles with cravings, and our children just struggle to live with us (just joking, kind of) In my experience family and addiction combinded never has a positive outcome.

I realize that many families are affected by addiction. Multitudes of moms have attempted to keep their children safe from the effects addiction can have on them (including my mom). Thankfully I acquired the courage and strength to stand up and follow my moral compass (my mom never found this strength).

There is Hope that Family Will Triumph over Addiction

Though it has been difficult and emotionally taxing at times, it has been well worth the despair to keep my kids as safe from addiction as I can. Family and addiction may never have a positive outcome; but abstinence from substance use can result in many positive moments and changes.

Many moms (women in general) and some dads are raising their children in homes that are consumed by substance abuse. I would plead with these mothers and fathers to seek help for themselves and their children. Remember even though it may feel hopeless it is not. There is help available for you, your children, and your addicted significant other (if he or she will accept the help). Remember family and addiction do not go hand in hand!

Family and Addiction does Not have to be a Prison!

A few options for family members of an addict are:

  • If in immediate danger call 9-1-1
  • Seek out a local therapist or counselor
  • Seek out a minister or pastor
  • Seek out a local co-dependents anonymous(CoDA)group

A few options for an addict are:

  • If in danger of harming yourself or have overdosed call 9-1-1
  • Seek medical help (see your physician)
  • Seek out local Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) or Narcotics Anonymous (NA) meetings
  • Seek out an outpatient and/or inpatient treatment center
  • Seek out a local therapist or counselor
  • Seek out a minister or pastor

Life is what we make of it. If we choose to let addiction consume us, our children, and our entire lives it is as if we convict ourselves to lives of imprisonment. Hope is only but a footstep away. One footstep to say please, please help me today!

Comments 19 comments

ruffridyer 5 years ago from Dayton, ohio

A good hub. I am glad your husband choose his family over the drugs. I wish you all the best.


OnixJ 4 years ago

Been there done that and same as you my ex husband chose Marijuana instead of me and our (then) two year old son. I am happy now, his addiction was a cause of constant torment as I dont believe in drugs and I was very opposed to him smoking in our house just a few feet away from our baby boy. He too invited friends and he too said he was done with me because i was trying to change him. Its sad but as mothers we must think of our children first and if there is no other solution simply walk out. After the divorce he decided he didn't want to be part of my son's life either I guess is easier to just get high all day without any responsibilities. Shame on him and men like him... Please check my blog out I wrote a Book about this in the hope many other women out there don't have to suffer what women like you and me have... onixj.wordpress.com


emack 4 years ago from Sydney Australia

I work with families struggling with addiction and see every week how wives, mothers and children are caught up in the toxicity. I must add though that it is the most uplifting and powerful experience to be able to travel with these families as they recover - it is possible for all to become empowered by the journey so never lose hope. Mack


Dan 2 years ago

I have a family, make good money, and smoke pot regularly. I don't do it around my kids. Its safer than alcohol and I find it to be therapeutic. Why can't your husband smoke pot in the garage outside of the presence of your kids? Maybe you should change. By the way he probably still smokes and hides it from you. This is a classic case of someone (You) being a product of government propaganda.


Selina 2 years ago

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kate 21 months ago

husband smokes pot, when he's out of pot he is very abusive physically and mentally I don't know what to do, no one to turn to ?


godstruth6 20 months ago

reply to Kate :) Please reach out and get help from church groups , counsling , self help web sites , anyone, physical abuse is never ok, I was in a physically abusive relationship and I truly believe he was going to kill me one day, so please TRUST in GOD and get help don't wait, Jesus loves you and is with you every step of the way even in difficult times :) There is hope for you :)


Michelle 20 months ago

Hi, in my marriage I have been battling with the issue of weed. I met my husband and he smoked it very occasional many years ago when we had no kids. Although now older not in our twenties exploring life the last 5 years has been a night mare it has become constant thing constantly rolling up 5 -8 splifs daily it driving me crazy and destroying our marriage. He always gets angry when I say anything keep being told its his thing he does I need to stay out of it then critizes me weight, snorting and fitness( reverse psycology) or makes comparisons with other guys who cheat who are doing much worst. I feel hopeless it's like I have to choose either to accept it or end our marriage. The kids no we argue about the issue of smoking but they don't know its weed (they think it Tabacco ) recently started lying as he said he was going to stop but the one night he must of missed placed it and turn our bedroom upside down. I then realised hadn't stopped and the extent of his addiction. No one to talk to as it's embarrassing feel realy alone at times. Reading the last post made me cry as it says Jesus loves me and I know this but it's so hard to deal with.


godstruth6 20 months ago

re: michelle you are not alone we all feel like we are alone at times but that is when we must reach out to talk with someone else to get help . Or pray is the most powerful thing to do it can change your life if you just trust in God and pray for whatever it is you need him to do for you :) I will pray for you as well and there is a really awesome radio station called Air One that has a website you can put prayer request in there to plus they play really positve music :) Remember Jesus does Love You and that will never change :)


Bert 17 months ago

Help me please. I cant do this on my own and despite prayers God is ne where in sight. You woyld thibk after 26 years i could do this but i cant.


Sally 15 months ago

First of all "Dan" who commented oh his regular use of smoking pot needs to crawl back under the rock he came from. My husband, soon to be ex used to smoke pot prior to our marraige. He could never hold down a job because he was always calling off or going in late. After 7 years of dating I finally had enough. He wrote me a 4 page letter professing his love and said he was done withbthe pot and hhe really was. We got married and I had to find him a job so he could contribute to our future together. This marraige lasted for 15 years. His job is stressful and when the drug became legal. Boom he was going back to his old ways. This time lying, manipulation, being a complete ass. It was like a desperation for him. Medicine he calls it. I say go for run or meditate or whatever. Prior to this he was drinking and taking anti anxiety drugs. He was even pushing me into taking meds I didn't need. I saw a different side of him. The addict. Now if he gets piss tested guess who loses their job and health insurance etc. My husband is loving and funny, but im not going to support his ass so he can play all day. It's sad but im not going to live with it. Oh and now hes smoking cigarettes as well after 10 years of quitting. I've cried and grieved over the husband I thought I knew but his pot is more important. So I guess he can slowly die from COPD and emphysema or lung cancer and when hes struggling to breathe he can cuddle with his budz or some other loser. Hope it is all worth it. For the other women dealing with this. Cry and grieve and get it out of your system. It is devastating for those of us who refuse to "accept" it. But we will prevail. God is in control and we need to focus on what God wants for us...and its not a pothead loser stoner asshole.


godstruth6 15 months ago

Praise God!!! After 18 years of heavy marijauna use my and lots and lots of prayer my husband quit his addiction!! :) We spend more time as a family , we still have our ups and downs but overall we are so much more happy, and I thank Jesus for bring him through this. So never give up hope or prayer Im living proof it works!!! :)


Kris 15 months ago

My wife smokes weed EVERY night, our relationship is on the brink. I have tried talking to her about it, but she doesnt think there is anything wrong with it. I have tried to compromise with her and she has promised to cut back to once or twice a week but that has never happened. We havent been communicating at all, and I blame it on her addiction. I find it hard to talk to her when she is stoned so I have completely shut down. I want to get her help but its very difficult to help someone who doesnt think they have a problem. I am beyond stressed out about this.


godstruth6 15 months ago

Attn: Kris my advice is to pray ,pray,pray and never give up hope ! :) also find yourself some family or friends who can support you because you need that right now, I will pray for you guys and Pray that God will bless your marriage :)


Me Too 14 months ago

I know this is an old article, but I found it because I am experiencing the same thing. My husband uses marijuana pretty much every day. He vaporizes, so he thinks I don't know. I do. I know because when he hasn't used, he is irritable. He retreats outside to smoke for hours a night, neglecting me and our kids. He has lost almost all interest in sex. When we do have sex, he can't always perform. Come to find out ED is a common side effect of chronic marijuana use. He has become very detached from us. My kids can tell him about something that happened, and he doesn't hear any of it or will forget it the next day. But he claims it it not hurting anyone. It is. It hurts me and it hurts our kids.


godstruth6 14 months ago

reply: Me Too I will be praying for you and your family,Please do not give up hope, Jesus Loves You and Your Husband and Kids too, Anything is possible threw Christ who gives you strength pray with your husband so he knows how you feel, find support outside the home and stay strong peace and love to your family My husband quit after 18 years Praise God!!! :)


Cristina Sulzener 9 months ago

My husband smokes pot a lot. It makes me tired. He constantly looks me in the eye and promises he'll stop for sure "this time" but lies and goes behind my back and smokes with his co-workers and friends before he gets home. He thinks i don't know and notice this but i do. He blames his stress of work and stuff on it. But even in our best moments he goes back to smoking. How can i help him? Some recommendations? Or should i leave my husband because he won’t stop smoking? Any help would be highly appreciated


godstruth6 9 months ago

Pray and ask God if he thinks you should leave him or not and he will answer you and then lead by example all things all possible through Christ who gives me strength, just be patient and all things will work out for the good

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