A SOUL BUDDY THROUGH LIFETIMES

 

I had a soul friend called Mick

 

He has since passed on

But the memory of him will never, ever be gone.

 

We first met on the beach of Kauai

 

It was our usual spot to walk, talk, and be

This lifetime is a miniscule spec of time you see.

 

 

In the last he’d arrived from Singapore

 

For years, we meandered to assuage my turmoil

His demeanor was so comforting having surrendered toil.

 

In that life he tried to explain

 

His words meant little to me as a proper Christian

Why couldn’t he understand? It was my mission!

 

My love had sailed away

 

Mick would ignore my perpetual yearn

As if he knew all along, my captain wouldn’t ever return.

 

 

I could always count on him to awaken a smile

 

He was there for me through every pain

Right to the end as a gift, to stay sane.

 

In this life, I never knew him to work

 

Getting compensation from the Government was like a toy

As a Vietnam Vet, they’d stolen his joy.

 

 

Diabetes was the reason he used

 

All the while, he smoked cannabis to stay high

While he was alive, I couldn't truly see why - - - sigh…

It was amazing that we were such close friends

 

Both of us would have liked becoming lovers

Yet it just wasn’t meant to be with our covers.

 

 

He hated being trapped in his body

 

Moreover, my focus on things like metaphysics

Made him gossip angrily to everyone else – hisssssss…

 

We got along well with thousands of miles in between

 

Yet whenever broke he’d land on my doorstep

I’d feed him until his check arrived like a pet

as a medic for 2 terms +++ he EARNED his good karma!

 

Mick bounced from Hawaii to California

 

There was a little girl he helped who’d been bit

Manual therapy was continuously needed before she could even sit.

 

 

Writing postcards and letters to everyone constantly

 

Regularly attempting to get a Pilippino mail order bride

The loneliness he felt wasn’t something he even tried to hide.

 

 

He was the only adult man my daughter ever really knew

 

Playing Santa, the Easter Bunny, not missing a single birthday

Running from memories prevented being a father figure to show her the way.

 

 

A camera was the lense through which he saw the world

 

Taking hundreds of pictures weekly to print

The illusion of separateness guarded protectively was more than a hint.

 

 

Not wanting to think clearly or reface the ugliness of war

 

Soul travel or past life regression to him was a stupid fuss

Our bond through lifetimes was something we couldn’t even discuss.

 

 

Once I truly realized who he was

 

The sacred contract he fulfilled as a friend, an eternal mate

Wanting to show him unconditional love without react, well, it was too late.

 

We hang onto such ridiculously tiny opinions in this life

 

He felt the true ugliness of it when he was at war

From then on in this life, he wanted to feel no more.

he's always there - even if only watching from the darkness
he's always there - even if only watching from the darkness

 

I miss him so much, finally feeling the full weight of his loneliness

 

His soul embraced me in my dream

When I awoke I realized not everything is as it’s consciously seen.

 

 

Through that eternal connection I heard the whisper of his love

 

Deeper than forgiveness he said simply, “Look up in the tree”

“Whenever you see beauty as a picture, you’ll be with me.”

 

 

Now even without a body I continually feel his comfort 

 

Soar or rest freely in peace my eternal friend

Thank you for reminding me, our love will never, ever end…

 

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lxxy 7 years ago from Beneath, Between, Beyond

A very lovely ode to an interesting and awesome sounding man!


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thank you lxxy - you would have truly loved him too. Appreciate you taking a moment to honor him.


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Montana Farm Girl 7 years ago from Northwestern Montana

Wow, very powerful indeed!!! He is with you, watching over you and smiling... no more physical pain and probably now, understanding the dimensions in which we live~~ Thank you for sharing this part of you and your special connection...very touching!!


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emohealer 7 years ago from South Carolina

An interesting piece of an interesting life that otherwise would have gone unnoticed. Well written prose to a well deserving man. You are fortunate not only to have known him, but mostly to know the rest of the story. Now he knows his fortune in knowing you.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thank you Montana Farm Girl - he passed through your state often. It was a drive he loved with its wide open space. I'm very grateful for your comment - I will now remember him smiling :)


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Aloha emohealer - I still feel in his debt. Think I died of Malaria when he was there to comfort and keep me sane. There is an ache recalling how I could not take his pain and loneliness away in this life. Strange we had such opposite outlooks... If only we wouldn't be so scared to see the bigger picture before decades of living. There are undoubtedly many we wouldn't allow the petty reactions to come between us. Thank you too for honoring him!


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k@ri 7 years ago from Sunny Southern California

Oh, pass the tissues! You bring tears to my eyes, this is absolutely beautiful. I think they are tears of joy, that you know someone so wonderful and know that although they no longer are on this plane, they are still with you!

And as to your comment above...I am positive you helped him much with his pain and loneliness...maybe not removing it all, but maybe being the bridge that prevented it from flooding him. Love and hugs! =)


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

LOL love it k@ri! I did actually need tissues as I was writing, and probably the first time posting an initial draft for that reason. Thanks - you lightened my heart :) Maybe we did lessen his pain after all. He sure seemed to get out of depression when around my daughter but as a man, pretty sure he would have liked me to be a lot less deep about stuff if you know what I mean :( Ah, let me not remember the woes over the smile you brought. Return love & hugs!

Since the dream, the thousands of pictures I have of his seem different too - as does looking at the beauty all around knowing he's there, here, wherever :)


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Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

Beautiful! I love the way you've written this. As for the connection with Mick...you are so lucky to have recognised it. Thanks for sharing, SEM Pro.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thank you Feline Prophet. The format seems a little strange to me so I appreciate the feedback. I am lucky for the recognition - trying once again to help others realize it might be worth the trust to get lucky themselves. There truly was no rational explanation for our connection. Even had a boyfriend who got crazy jealous about it, and at the time, all I thought was that Mick would always be more welcome in my life than any jealous boyfriend.

In this life, the places we travel to, or people we encounter, are more easily understood. A Scottish fellow joked about it saying how much easier it was for them because all their soulmates/ancestors still lived on the same block lol

Some golden threads, or decisions we make in past lives, dictate what or how we do things in the next as well. Clarity and acceptance become much easier.


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JJLBvS 7 years ago from USA

A fitting tribute for a unique individual. As you say Mick was a wonderful person, who lived through and experienced some truly horrendous things during his time in Vietnam. This changed him in many ways, however, through it all he did retain the ability to see beauty all around him, and capture on film. A true artist.

Every surviving veteran of any war will relate to this eulogy, as it honors the spirit of all who gave of themselves in order to protect the rest of us.

He fulfilled his promise to you as aloual "soul mate" and you were his "candle in the window", his safe haven on tough times. His passing was by his choice, so you too fulfilled your promise to him.

Rejoice in the fact that he was a part of this life and that he was able to leave such a lasting impression on almost everyone he met.

Aloha Mick and thanks.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thank you JJ. He was my candle in the window on more than one occasion as well. I appreciate you honoring him. And you are correct, there are many who will remember him with warmth in their heart and a smile on their face. He was very special and unique.

I do believe I will make the time to post at least a few hundred of his photos for everyone to enjoy. lxxy just shared a site - wiki for photos - he'd like that :)


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I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s 7 years ago

This is lovely SEmPro! LOVE soul Buddies! lol ~ sounds a sweet connect. He will always be with you... Interestingly, some of my favs took a hike a couple of years ago,...rightfully so. Yet, wow, they just re-appeared!! so grateful. Such a sweet tribute to a soul friend. Hugs :)


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thanks Ma'am :) Your life must be improving for them to re-appear - yeah! I think when we get caught up in the trivial of this world, our spirit guides and friends can't be bothered with that kind of wasted energy. Occasionally they'll be that little "Jiminy Cricket" voice we hear faintly, which we chose to ignore at the time, but for the most part, its only when we pay attention and stay centered in spirit that we know, we are definitely not alone!

Glad you came by I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s. This isn't a poetic work of art, but it's as unique as my friend would have wanted. Actually, to truly honor him, all it probably would have had were photos and buds :)


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Raven King 7 years ago from Cabin Fever

A very moving hub.


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JJLBvS 7 years ago from USA

Please do post those pictures, they are a part of his legacy and he left them to you without reservation to do with as you wish. Maybe more than a "tip" yes?

They would be a great way to share his vision with people who didn't know him, and some great motors for those who did.

"Dead did I say? There is no death, only a change of worlds."

Closing statement of Chief Seattle's Treaty Oration 1854


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thanks Raven King - appreciate your comment :)


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Once I get moved and settled in, I will JJ. There are many posted on my hubs already for people to enjoy. He took the one of my daughter jumping for freedom on "Bittersweet Empty Nest..." and it is one of the most popular hubs for viewing. And of course, he was there at the sanctuary and must have taken thousands of her on the beaches of Kauai. Aside from flowers, think she was his favorite subject :)


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k@ri 7 years ago from Sunny Southern California

SEM Pro, You inspired me to write a hub to another who inspires me greatly...to one I feel I have known forever, although it has not been that long. I decided that I should not let time waste. Thank you! :D


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dohn121 7 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

A great inspiring tribute to a once in a lifetime great and inspired friends The memory will forever live on. Thank you for sharing, SEM Pro.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Oh k@ri :) There are few sentiments more rewarding than what you have expressed! I am overjoyed - thank you. http://hubpages.com/relationships/My-Hero-is-Amazi and again - congratulations!


ralwus 7 years ago

Wow! I could only hope someone may remember me in this way so eloquently. You did a frabjuous job of it and the pictures were perfect compliment to the poem. Mick may be smiling.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Thank you for reading and honoring my friend dohn121! You and I share a similar upbringing in working, going to school, participating in athletics and "night owling" 'till we could drop or give it all up in our moments of exhaustion. To find wings to fly from someone who surrendered toil lifetimes ago, was tough for me, but you are correct, in hindsight I realize how truly inspiring he was.

In our Struggles to Peace, it is the awakening realization that the connections of our hearts and souls are what help us accept all, and bring the true inner peace we need and deserve.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Ralwus my dear new found friend, I have only just begun to be fulfilled by the depth and truth that flows from your pen. I have no doubt that those who have been blessed to know you personally, could write volumes on all the joy you have given them. Perhaps your son will write honoring you as I did my dad :)

Thank you for commenting on Mick's pictures - that has him smiling to be sure! He used to leave 5 or 6 pictures even to waitresses as a tip. At the time I wondered what they did with them after he left. With my newfound perspective and understanding, I realize he was saying the same thing to everyone he ever touched.


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kirstenblog 7 years ago from London UK

That was really beautiful! Its such a sad thing when people we love pass on and such a joy when we feel they are still there. The power of our emotions and connections with others is something science will always been trying to understand me thinks.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America Author

Well ALOHA kirsten! Welcome to hubpages and appreciate your fan mail! I look forward to reading your blogs as well :)

Mick is indeed part of my soul - this tribute is probably the closest I will come to trying to explain it. Whatever science is found for an expansion of words, I'll probably guage the science against how I feel to know if it's valid or not lol Thanks so much for visiting and commenting - I'm honored you'll revisit for "uplifts"!

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