Are you there God? It's me Shemiah.
I know many of you have heard "Are you there God? It's me Margaret". Mine is similiar in a sense.
Truth be told I just want to cry.
Here we are living in the 21st century. We have freedom. We have life.
But sometimes, I just want to break down and cry.
I am a college graduate... it shouldn't be THIS hard to find a job. It's like every day, I dread checking my e-mail because yet once again there is a job rejection letter in there. I have had about 6 job interviews and before long I won't have enough fingers to count them all on.
I used to know what I wanted to do with my life but it just seems like I'm selling myself short. I'm selling my potential short. I want to go back to school but I'm afraid it will be even more hard to find a job once I get a Master's degree.
The job economy sucks...
The jobs that ARE hiring they always always always want experience. I understand that.
I get that. I know just like I apply to several jobs so are hundreds more people. And honestly, they may be in worse situations than I am. I have a part time job, it gets me by. Yesterday, I found out that they had to cut back hours. So my 32 hours went to 16. Yes, I work two days out of a week. That's literally about $130. When I think about the amount I make I compare it to the amount of bills I have and it really just makes me want to break down and cry even worse. I moved back home to stay with my parents and now I just feel like I'm trapped.
I'm not trying to complain I honestly am not. I just want you to know where I'm coming from.
I pray and I pray and I pray to God asking him to just help me. Most of all help me be content with where I am for the time being. My sister and I graduated the same day May 11, she got a job exactly ONE month after graduation. Here I am four months later. . . still nothing. I do have a job interview tomorrow. I pray that God answers my prayer.
I don't want a job. I want a place where I am content. I know that wherever I end up at I will work to the best of my ability.
God, please just hear me out. I know it sounds like I'm complaining. I have so much other things to be happy about and you're right. I'm very thankful.
God, just give me a job where I can help other people. So for all of you out there that is in between jobs and you're just wondering what you're going to do, or how you're going to make it to your next pay check or how you're bills are going to be paid. It's not easy. But keep trusting in God. Keep praying and just know that there is indeed a light at the end of the tunnel.
And I don't know if I'll get the job tomorrow or not, if I don't I will keep on trusting God and I know he will have me in his hands. Whether it's days, weeks, or even months away from my next job. I will continue to pray and trust in God. I've seen it happen. I've seen him get people out of situations.
And what's even more crazy is I see people all around me getting new jobs and I'm just wondering when is mine coming? When will I have my breakthrough?
But... just remember. . . Keep on praying and keep on trusting. God's got something in store for you.