Changing Me First, How God Built Me, He Can Change You Too

The Change In Me

As I was exploring Hub Pages Forums and questions, I came across the most interesting question. I do apologize to the asker, I can not recall your name or even the exact forum..... but it was to the effect of , " what is God doing in your community" ?

My answer was swift to come, and perhaps even curt.....I did not mean it to appear so, sometimes that is my downfall. I am straight to the point, ask me a question and I give you an answer. That may be why I am so drawn to writing, I have that chance to command my words.....

Spoken words, and those given in haste do not afford us that luxury.

My Answer Was ...As Closely As I Can Recall

When I was younger, I asked God for world peace and to end hunger.

Then I asked God, for peace in my home and enough to feed my family.

Today, I ask God for enough to share with others.

God has been developing me.

Develop me, my neighbor, my community, my state, my country and then the world.

 

No Favors Given

I did not truly honor the question, the asker or God. I hurried through it, and haste makes waste.

My purpose here at Hub Pages is not debate. That time has passed for me. I am confident in my God, in my faith, in my understanding, and in myself.   This was to be " my time".

Nor is my purpose here for converting others. God knew there would be those who refused Him, those who chose false gods, those who trusted their own paths, and God knew there would be " reprobates".

I have learned that I am not the saviour, there is only one Saviour, and His name is called Jesus.

Yet, despite my resistance, I am drawn to these things.......spreading the Word, Accepting, Leading, Planting, Growing, Harvesting.......and then I falter.

What I Wish I Had Said

Christians are some of the vessels in which God works through. He also works through non Christians ( Rahab, anyone) I did not always understand that, I thought that if I prayed for a particular result , long enough and hard enough, God would perform a miracle and I would have to do nothing.

That is not so.....We are His workers. We are to be Brothers and Sisters in His mission. We have a cross to bear also. We have a part. We have a duty. We can not simply dismiss our part with a half hearted attempt at prayer and expect to command His will.

I had to learn compassion and mercy, I paid a dear price for that lesson. The price was so high for me, that it dared to break my spirit and my heart. But, I did live on.......and I learned compassion. I learned that hurting........well, it hurts! It hurts others as deeply as it hurts me.

Comfort did eventually come.....but the scar remains, just as they do in the nail pierced hands of Jesus.

I learned that life is not about me......it is also about my neighbor . All of my neighbors. Those who offered me comfort, those who rejoiced in my pain and those who chose not to look at all.

I learned about unity. Uniting with others who have been broken. Uniting with another link in the chain. I learned about tensile strength.......you know, a chain is only as strong as the weakest link. I learned how to add to the strength of that weak link, rather than to blame it.

I learned that by strengthening me, my sister was made stronger. In turn, by lending strength to my sister, I was stronger. I learned to build and to rebuild.

As we build each other, we build a community. A community can accomplish what multitudes of self serving individuals can not dare.

I learned to add to the community. As the community grows and supports the individuals, you end up with strong cities. Strong cities can influence the state. States influence the nation. The nations build civilization.

The first change was with me..............before, I could do anything in the world, in the nation, in the state, in the community, I had to let God develop me.

It Is Not About Me Or You

 While, I paid a price for the learning, I did not pay the greatest price. 

Relationships are not about keeping score, and neither are communities, cities, states, nations and the world.

There comes a point when we simply must let go of past hurts, disappointments and work together.

God will not bless us in our greed, our selfishness, our sins......we must let go of those things.  We must get past ourselves, let Him guide, one person, one family, one community at a time.  He will not come into an uninvited heart.  He will not perform on demand.

The Changes To Come

We can not beat others over the head. It is ineffective. It turns our neighbors off. It shuts off communication. Jesus did not do these things. He went, among sinners, He offered His Salvation and then He went about His business. He did not ever "hound" anyone........there is not a single account of Him trying to "convince" someone. In fact, He quietly refused to " prove" Himself to the Pharisees.

In the past, I have been called everything that you have: Bible Thumper, Indoctrinated, Brainwashed, Bible Belt Barbie, goody two shoes, mythological believer,........I have heard the terms, bid daddy, sky daddy, big guy in the sky.......etc, etc, and etc...........

It hurts because it is simply disrespectful to our Lord.

Don't you think the ridicule, the mockery, the flogging, the "trial", the Crucifixion were hurtful and disrespectful? Don't you think it hurt Jesus?  How hard it must have been for Peter, Simon and Mary, the Mother of Jesus to witness.  How His early followers must have wept.  What names they must have been called.  They may have suffered physical attacks.

They persevered because they understood the change (s) that would come. They paid the price. It was a great one.

Change does not come by the millions, it comes by the individual.

God changed my community by changing me.

Joining in Prayer Together
Joining in Prayer Together

Ask The Right Question

Before we ask, " what is God doing, perhaps we should ask ourselves, " what am I allowing God to do with me?"

Do as you conscience leads you, look where you may, but please do not be among those that refuse to see anything. Jesus, the Christ, went, saw, and looked, . We, as Christians, owe Him that much in return.

To be aware of something in the distance is not to look at it. I recall, my first trip to Philadelphia. Sure, I knew that there were homeless people, but it was, there, in the " city of brotherly love" and " the birthplace of our nation", that I saw, humans, people, desperate people living in cardboard boxes, in streets riddled with crime..............A powerful city, rich in history, of great importance, a thriving and vibrant city, in a state of many resources, a beautiful state......gorgeous even, highly populated, high tax revenue, museums, Philadelphia Hall........,the LIBERTY BELL,..........is a city of cardboard boxes.

My husband, held me as I wept...............

I can't house the residents of Philly, and I can't feed them all.  A very heavy heart followed me out of the city.

But I can take a plate to the elderly next door, in my own community.  I can make sure that she has a warm coat and a blanket in the winter. I can buy gas for the stranded traveler trying to get home. I can give a break to a stressed mother and offer her reassurance, as she doubts her ability and effectiveness.   I can help her acquire school supplies for her children.

I can be a modern day Samaritan, in many small ways.

By allowing God to change me, God is changing my community.

 

What Others Said..........

 

Fullerman5000 8 weeks ago

The part about relationships are not about keeping score and if the past hurts let it go. this is so true, yet im just now learning this.

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Michael Adams1959 6 years ago from Wherever God leads us.

Amen such a wonderful hub, glad I read it, your work in Philly is so precious keep it up!


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Judicastro 6 years ago from birmingham, Alabama

Another beautiful hub dear friend! Yes, God has changed me too, has broken me to a point that there have been times I could not go even to Walmart without becoming so overwhelmed by what I saw in the faces I passed. I ask Father everyday (at least I try) as to what is on His Heart. What is my assignment for today. I recently moved into a new neighborhood and as I began to meet my neighbors I heard their stories and my heart would break. One woman whose husband was a pastor of a very large church fell into pronography, she is broken in her own disappointments along with having breast cancer. Another flies off to be with her daughter who has been having headaches only to find she has stage four cancer, all in the same year of her husband's homegoing. I look into the eyes of young men everyday who just want a job so they can feed their family. Some still cling onto hope while others have the distant look in their eyes that tells it all. With each one of these that come across my path I bring them to the Father. I too want to make a difference in my children's lives, my community, my world because like you He has made a difference in me.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Michael Adams 1959,

Thanks for reading my hub, and for your kind and encouraging words. I, too, am glad you read it!

I am afraid you have misunderstood, I do not live in Philly, nor do I minister there. That story, was to illustrate, that I expected only historical significance grandeur and found extreme poverty in such a city.

I will edit that portion, so that others are not mislead. So sorry, that I confused you.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Judicastro,

Hello my southern sister!

Christian lives are full of such tales........

From ashes comes beauty. This is one of His promises.


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lcg4jc 6 years ago

Thanks again one good woman for another great hub. I am blessed once again by your words and pray that as we grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ we may positively affect those around us.

Blessings to you, Lorena


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Thank you Lorena.....

I am glad that my words have spoken to you. Sometimes, well meaning people, complicate simple things.

To me it is simple, believe, pray, study, do good things for others and be kind to them.....the rest will fall into place.


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DaKingsKid 6 years ago

I did originally ask this question you are responding to, as an opportunity for others to share on what it is God is doing where they Live, and what kinds of moves that He is making within the church. Great Hub, and thank you for the in depth answer to the question


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

DaKingsKid

How AWESOME that you made your way to my hub.

It was you........as soon as I saw your pen name, I knew you had found me.

Thank you SO much for coming by and identifying yourself. I appreciate it, and your comments immensely.


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justom 6 years ago from 41042

This is a great hub, I get very tired of everyone arguing about what they think is right and to me all it's about is just what you said, doing the small things every day that will help or just make someone smile. Nice work! Peace!! Tom


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d.william 6 years ago from Somewhere in the south

I truly liked this hub. You are obviously a kind and caring person. I always enjoy reading your articles. Thank your for sharing your thoughts. Although you find my writings offensive at times, i still believe in the goodness of life, and in God's eternal love and mercy and that everything we suffer on this planet serves a purpose, if we can only see that purpose through our pain and disappointment and learn from it..


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

D.William,

I am truly humbled by your remarks.

Normally, I do not find you " offensive", but detect an air of anger or bitterness. Never having been in your shoes, its roots are unknown. Our experiences shape us, perhaps you have had ugly ones.

Not all of "us" are out to get "you". :)

thanks for coming by, and I truly wish you well...........


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Justom,

That's pretty much how I see it. I can't save the world, by I can lend a helping hand to that one that I can reach. It matters to that person.

thanks for coming by, you are always welcome on my hubs


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Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

Hi Y,

Another quality hub from “Bible Thumping Barbie,”…sorry, I couldn’t help it, I would laugh if someone called me bible thumping Ken.

Seriously though, you offer extremely cogent points, especially the illustration of Philadelphia, what a sad state of such broken devotion. There are individuals who read our work, who are in need, they require us to contact them, let them know we are more than just a community of words. Keep leading the way Y, God Bless you.

congratulations on maintaining that score, WOW. Good things are being done through you with God's influence.


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drpastorcarlotta 6 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

I love when you said: "God will not bless us in our greed, our selfishness, our sins......we must let go of those things. We must get past ourselves, let Him guide, one person, one family, one community at a time. He will not come into an uninvited heart. He will not perform on demand. How true! You must give up and let God. I work with the homeless, street workers, drug addicts, etc. My heart as yours, go's out to them dearly!! We can't help them all but who we can help in our community is good enough to God! I love your Hub my new friend and I love you too!! I voted awesome!!!!!! Be Blessed and a blessing...


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Drpastorcarlotta,

I am glad to see you here, reading my hub! It means a great deal to me.

Everywhere that I have lived, there is someone who needs a helping hand. There is plenty of work to be done.

At times, your ministry must really try you, you see the broken lives of those in defeat.....God Bless YOU and keep you strong.

Thanks again for the encouragement you offered to me.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

JRM,

As usual, you are too kind with your words. It is not me who deserves the credit. Remember, like Jonah, I was a reluctant vessel.

All I do, is perhaps, make the life lesson more modern.


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CameoT 6 years ago from Moab, Utah

This is so touching! You are so gifted both in words and heart! Thank you for opening yourself up so much, this is truly remarkable!


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Cameo T,

I do thank you for your kind and gracious words.......but the 'message' is not mine. I only guide the pen across the paper...

My heart has been made " new " again by His hand.


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IvoryMelodies 6 years ago

I so enjoy reading you. You bring me to tears and help me remember why I'm here and to Whom I belong. Compassion has been a hard lesson for me to learn as well. It has taken many years and I am still not always so good at it, possibly because there are as many cons out there as people in real need, and I see that side quite a bit. But the cons need Jesus as much as the needy do. My old line of thought concerning people used to be that I'd just as soon run them over as deal with them. So glad our Lord has indeed changed me. With the help of my dear pastor and mentor, who has taught me so, so much, and held on tenaciously.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Ivorymelodies,

Thanks for coming and reading!

Beware the con-artists, they do exist.

By keeping our eyes open, we can often see a struggle going on with our friends and neighbors. They are often the last to ask for help. Let's do what we can for those we can without insulting their pride.

I am glad you are over that " run over them " phase, I could be anywhere :)


Electlady7777 6 years ago

Good morning

I like the fact that you are honest. There is nothing better than honesty. Life is too short to beat around the bush.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

electlady7777,

Thanks for coming by and reading my hub.

It's good to see you on HP again. I will

visit your blog.


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Fullerman5000 6 years ago from Louisiana, USA

The part about relationships are not about keeping score and if the past hurts let it go. this is so true, yet im just now learning this.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Hi Fullerman5000,

It is so good to see you here!

As long as we are learning, we are growing. It is by growing, that we move from what we " are ", to what we will be.

Hang in there friend.....


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kashmir56 6 years ago from Massachusetts

This is a beautiful well written hub,I'm so glad i dropped in to read it,it has made my rainy day here brighter. Thumbs up!!!


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Hello Kashmir56,

Thanks for taking the time to read my hub. New readers are welcome here!

I am delighted that it has uplifted you.


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jrsearam 6 years ago from San Juan, PR

Another moving glimpse of what you carry in your heart. Thanks again for your generosity. Although you may have already heard it, I thought you might like the following metaphor:

An artist and his son stood before a painting which the artist had just completed. The son, always quick to constructively criticize his progenitor's work, said,"Father you've made a mistake. The door has no doorknob!" The artist turns to his son and softly explains,"My dear boy, the man standing before the door is Our Father, Jesus Christ and the door is the human heart. If Jesus is to walk through the door and into our hearts, it must be opened from the inside." Many blessings OGW, JR


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Jrsearam.......

It is I who thanks you..........

No, I had not heard this tale before today. It has a strong and poignant message. Thank you for the telling.

May God go with you as you travel.


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Deborah Demander 6 years ago from First Wyoming, then THE WORLD

This is a beautifully written hub.

The most important change we can make is first on the inside. We have to decide that we want it to be different. When we are willing, God will use us for his purposes.

Thanks for a great write.

Namaste.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Deborah Demander

Thank you for the lovely compliment.

I do agree, the first change is within

ourselves.

Thanks again for coming by and taking the

time to read my hub.


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voiceofpraise71 6 years ago from Georgia

This was a blessing to me..so glad I stumbled upon it. Thanks.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Voiceofpraise71..........

How glad am I that you did!!!!

thank you so very much!


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breathe2travel 6 years ago from Gulf Coast, USA

Beautiful.

Voted up. Voted beautiful.


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onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town Author

Breathe2travel,

So glad you are catching up

on your reading.~~

I appreciated your vote of confidence.


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fred allen 5 years ago from Myrtle Beach SC

So glad I found you here on hubpages. This hub is exactly what I needed. You are quite a talent. More than that, a gift to your world. You nailed it with this writing. Our Father has show me that I need to be the change I wish to see. It has really made a difference in my marriage. My wife and I spoke about that just last night. I told her about my response to a hub that spoke about how unhappy he was in his marriage. Don't know if my response helped him but being the change I want to see sure did help me. Grace is my only hope. Grace has changed me. It has become the overflow of my heart. What a wonderful Savior we have!

Your inner beauty is an inspiration!


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onegoodwoman 5 years ago from A small southern town Author

Fred Allen,

Your words are most gracious, and I thank you.

I, too, am glad you found my hub! New readers

are always welcomed.


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OpinionDuck 5 years ago

There were no Christians when the Old Testament was written, and it was written by humans that had no idea what happened in the book of Genesis.

There is no Biblical God, and there is no Heaven or Hell. There are more than six billion people on this Earth right now, and that is the only fact that can be proved. Since the first humans that means that there have been much more than six billion humans.

What we also know is that humans haven't changed since recorded history, at least not in form or actions. The biblical God had no affect on humans, and Jesus Christ had no affect on humans. At least not for the good.

People are basically higher forms of animals, and nobody has to teach them to be evil, but they have to be taught to good. Man created laws and religion to domesticate humans, much like we train dogs. Some are faithful and some are not. It is when we try to train cats that we have real problems. So humans are like dogs and cats, some can be trained and some cannot.

Sorry


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onegoodwoman 5 years ago from A small southern town Author

OpinionDuck,

It is evident that you spent some time writing

your rebuttal. You are most certainly entitled

to your own thinking. I will not try to sway it.

You have failed however, to weaken or shake my own

faith. Because you have not allowed God to make

a change in you, doesn't refute that He has made

one within me.


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wba108@yahoo.com 5 years ago from upstate, NY

This article has many wise words such as; "God would perform a miracle and I would have to do nothing.

That is not so.....We are His workers. We are to be Brothers and Sisters in His mission. We have a cross to bear also. We have a part. We have a duty. We can not simply dismiss our part with a halfhearted attempt at prayer and expect to command His will.Most Christians play church and expect God to move while they sacrifice nothing, that's not the way it works. If we want the fire of God in our lives we need to put our flesh on the altar.

Also a good point that we are not the savior Jesus is. It took a long time for me to learn this, perhaps I have even more to learn. Its a great point that Jesus never had to prove Himself to anyone ie. the Pharisees and of course we need to be that way. Like you said we are to be confident in our God, in who we are in Him. We are ambassadors of the most high, the royalty of royalty. We have great works to do, that He has enabled us to do!


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onegoodwoman 5 years ago from A small southern town Author

Wba108.....

Thanks for your commentary. It is

appreciated, and it is always good

to see a new reader!


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moneycop 5 years ago from JABALPUR

i am a fan of you after reading this hub...and i want you tell write more..u r pure and pure soul are transparent to show the face of God. the last question "what am i allowing God to do with me" superb.


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onegoodwoman 5 years ago from A small southern town Author

Moneycop,

What a gracious thing to say!

Be sure, that I too, have been

tempered by the fire. Surely, there

are more lessons in store for me.

Glad to have you as a fan.

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