Daily Bible Devotional: Commentary on Psalm 139

Life starts at creation

Psalm 139:13 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb

In the bible, God makes it clear that He has created us. In fact, He even planned us and has watched over us from the time we were conceived. Unfortunately, in our society, somehow this message has been lost. Over 3,700 babies are aborted every day (one baby every 24 seconds), and there are countless women that suffer and continue to suffer over the loss of their aborted babies.

I was one of those that felt guilt, having an abortion at the tender age of 15. Back in the seventies when I had the abortion, no one in my circle seemed to have a problem with me having one. In fact, many encouraged it. The only thing I can think of is that no one in my circle took into account Gods design of children and what He thought about unborn babies. I don’t fault those people, because I know they did not realize or understand the seriousness of what I was about to do.

Fast forward many years…after grieving for many years for what I had done, the funny thing was is that I still defended my pro-abortion position. I still believed that I had the “right” to do what I did and that other women had that “right” also. I still did not think of an unborn baby as a living created being. I think the real reason I was feeling guilty is because I felt bad about what I had done and somehow needed to justify my position. I wanted others to think it was OK too. Now as I look back, I realize how wrong my thinking was.

One day, about 20 plus years after I had the abortion, I was walking into our local fairground and there were people out there holding signs of unborn babies. It was at that moment that something profound happened. As I looked at the photo of the unborn fetus, sadness mixed with clarity gripped my heart. That photo could have been my baby. He looked perfect. All of his little arms and legs were balled up, and he had small perfect eyes, a nose and lips. He was perfectly formed!

My heart towards unborn children and abortion was changed from that moment on. I started to study the word of God and found out that not only had God planned each one of us, but that He made each one of us with our own unique fingerprints. Just think about that for a moment, that out of 7 billion people that populate the earth today, none of us even have the same fingerprint!


My grandson and I

I can't imagine if my attitude towards abortion had not changed - I would not have my precious grandson! God can heal our hurts and get us through unplanned pregnancies, and help us care for our children.
I can't imagine if my attitude towards abortion had not changed - I would not have my precious grandson! God can heal our hurts and get us through unplanned pregnancies, and help us care for our children. | Source

God forgives us

It was after seeing that photo that I began to realize how much I needed forgiveness from God. That He did not want me to continue on feeling trapped in my guilt for what I had done. But, He also did not want me to condone abortion anymore. As God began to heal me, I stopped jumping on the abortion bandwagon. I started encouraging other pregnant women instead to think about their attitudes towards the unborn and too tell them that God loved their unborn babies too. And that God wanted to forgive them also for abortions that they had had. I never became one of the radical abortion protestors because I felt God only wanted me to share my story to reach out to others – not with violence but in love.

My youngest son is here because of my change of heart. Because I was going through a horrible divorce at the time I was pregnant, there were some people that encouraged me to abort my son. They did not see him as a precious gift from God, instead they thought of him as an “inconvenience” in my turbulent life at the time. I am so very glad that I knew Gods design for my son at that time. I knew that their attitude towards my unborn son were not right. I knew that no matter what, God would see me through and He did!

And I know that one day, I will be reunited with my first child. I still miss him to this day but I know that he is with God and that God has forgiven me for what I didn’t understand all those years ago.

Something to think about: Abortion is a politically charged topic, but how many of the pro-abortion protesters have actually had abortions? Isn’t it kind of wrong to tell people what should be OK when you haven’t even had your own experience with it? Especially something so personal as the life of your unborn child? If you are pregnant and reading this, think about what God has said regarding his children. And if you are reading this because you have had an abortion and feel sadness and guilt because of it, remember that God loves you and will forgive you if you just ask. God is not in the business to condemn us, but to love us and teach us through His words.

Coming soon: My new 365 day devotional

This is just one devotional in a series of 365 devotionals that will one day be a book - both in hard cover and for the Kindle. All the text in this is my own (except of course for the Bible scriptures) I will be using the NIV (New International Version) for most of my reference to scripture. All the photos used will also be my own photography. If you would like to see more of my art and photography you can also visit me at www. dorsidiaz.com where I will also be chronicling this new book, along with my ideas for writing, marketing and creating e-books for aspiring writers. Thank you for reading!

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WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

The guilt suffered by those who have gone through an abortion is a major abortion-industry secret. So is the far higher suicide rate. I personally know of a woman who had two children and could not justify a third, so she had an abortion. Within six months, she killed herself out of grief over what she had done.

I know another woman who finally sought help, years after her early adult abortion. She cried herself to sleep night after night, because of what she had done. Americans are starting to realize just what an abortion truly is...the paid murder of your own child.


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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Will) Thank you for reading and the comment. Yes, I can imagine how much of a lid they need to keep on the real statistics of abortion and how it effects the women afterwards. That's why we need more women to come forward and tell the truth about what abortion really is and what it does. So sorry to hear about your friends - how very very tragic. Guilt can eat a person up.


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Acbmom3 4 years ago from Colorado

Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. I appreciate the journey you were on as you changed your opinion concerning abortion. It's wonderful how God has worked in your life. Great hub!


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sligobay 4 years ago from east of the equator

I've had some thoughts about life and death and abortion,

http://hubpages.com/art/Wordzilla .

"What strikes me oddly, however, is the recent statistics that I read about abortion. For nearly forty years that statistics have been maintained by the CDC (Center for Disease Control) and the WHO (World Health Organization) one quarter to one third of all pregnancies have been terminated by abortions. With 180 million pregnancies in 1995, the estimate was that there were 45 million abortions. Fifteen years later, the number of pregnancies must have reached 200 million. Population control seems to be a poor line of reasoning to justify removing any human being from a brief experience of a mortal existence, particularly as the World Population approaches seven billion. Fifty milion to sixty six million souls annually are sentenced to non-existence by a single young woman without better options. As a species, homo sapiens, and as the Human Race who share this small piece of real estate circling the sun, we are all complicit and can do better. How many scientists, musicians, engineers, humanitarians, prophets and saints have become the victims of our consensual genocide?

Are we not like vampires, slaughtering innocents to satiate our own hungers? Fifty million annually amounts to ONE BILLION people over the course of twenty years. The population of the world might have been approaching eight billion instead of seven billion now."

I feel that young women are compelled by economic and governmental policies to "choose" abortion. There is really not a free choice when choosing life imposes severe economic burdens. I am in favor of free choice where the benefits and burdens of either decision is equal. Society currently provides a cash incentive to a mother to murder her own child. Life is not valued but infanticide is valued. The residual consequences and costs of abortion to our society needs to be calculated and widely disseminated.


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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@acb) Thank you. Yes, God has definitely changed my heart about abortion.

@sligobaby) Thank you for the link. I'll have to pop over and read your hub.

"Society currently provides a cash incentive to a mother to murder her own child". I'm just curious about that statement, does the government give money to someone who chooses abortion? Just wondering.


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sligobay 4 years ago from east of the equator

I was just being facetious about the cash. The financial inducement is that most women can return to work shortly after an abortion. A woman who carries a child to term misses more time from work with the pregnancy and its complications prenatally and postpartum. Its cheaper to abort a child than to raise a child. That is what I was alluding to. The cash incentive by the government to encourage abortions for population control is not that far-fetched.


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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@sligobay) Thanks for clarifying that. Yes, it's costly all the way around, especially to the mothers mental health.


Tina Truelove 4 years ago

HI Dorsi! Thank you for connecting with me on RedGage. I noticed you listed your religious views as "Christian" so I decided to follow your Hubpages link and check out your hubs. I'm so glad I came across this one. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I think many women are hesitant to share their story because of the personal guilt they carry and also for the fear that the Christian community will think less fondly of them. Your willingness to share your story will surely encourage other young women to make the wise decision to allow their babies to live. Though it was God's intention for your child to live, your experience will encourage wise decisions, save the lives of many children, and enrich the lives of families that would not be a family without hearing your story. Therefore, your child's short life on this earth carries great value and you can rejoice in the knowledge that you will be reunited again.

I have a child in heaven too. I did not have an abortion, but my baby died in my womb at the age of 15 weeks. We delivered the baby and I held him in my arms, my hands actually. My doctor estimated his death to be approximately two weeks before delivery which would have made his tiny little body about the age of 13 weeks. He was entirely whole. His eyes were sweet and I took notice of his tiny little fingernails. His feet were long and narrow and his torso and shoulders resembled his older brother's body shape. I remember thinking, "You look just like your brother." We stared at him forever as we grieved and wondered the infamous "why?" I believe his short life had a purpose. We made photographs of him and treasure each one. I have never posted his photographs publicly, but I have always been willing to allow anyone who comes to me who is thinking about abortion to see them. Most women have no idea what these children look like during early pregnancy. If more women were more informed, I believe more would choose not to have an abortion.

My prayer is that many women who are thinking about having an abortion will read your story and babies lives will be saved.

May God richly bless you.


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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Tina) Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so glad our paths have crossed. I really needed to hear what you had to say - that as sad as it was for me, that my experience will help save other children. That means so much to me, it really does. I am so sorry about your baby, so many people just don't "get it", they think it's a choice but no, it's not a "choice", it's a "child". Even within just a few days and within weeks, they are tiny little babies, that are so perfect...

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