Dream - A four year olds nightmare

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Our Marae today
Our Marae today
Our Marae just before I was born
Our Marae just before I was born

Background

I was raised in a wee part of the eastern shores of Lake Rotorua. There were eight or nine homes that surrounded our Marae which were at least five minutes walk apart and at most 30 minutes walk apart. The families dwelling in these homes were all related and were of Maori descent.

When I was four years old, I had two older sisters, one older brother, one younger sister and a baby brother. All eight of us lived in a tiny two bedroom house. One bedroom was for my siblings and I, the other for our parents.

I loved spending huge amounts of time outdoors basking in the beauty of Mother Nature, as did most of my siblings. We could be found climbing trees, exploring the native bush or lying in the shade of the ferns just staring into the sky. Sometimes, after swimming, we could be found lying half buried in the sandy shores of the lake singing to the sky or marveling at the wonder of it all.

We had no TV and this was how we passed the time in our childhood days.

I remember my very first dream as a four year old. It would not be the only time I would have this dream. This dream would haunt me for the next six years. I would have this dream at least four times a week without fail.

The Dream

He has curly blonde hair that frames an oblong face. He is white; he has thick blonde eyebrows that protruded like a hood over his piercing blue eyes.  He is a man! He frightens me. He smiles as he speaks but I do not like the look in his eye. I have never seen that look before but it frightens me. What is he talking about? I don’t understand. Why is he smiling and looking at me like that? Please stop, you are scaring me I cry. He never hears what I say. He started to touch me. I am screaming but I cannot hear myself. What are you doing? He is still smiling with that look in his eye. He is talking but I don’t understand what he is saying. He keeps touching me all over my body. I am frightened. He touches me in places no one is allowed to touch me. I am screaming at my sister who is in my bed with me. She can’t hear me. I scream out to my other sister and my brother they can’t hear me. I scream out to my mum and dad they can’t hear me. How come no one can hear me I cry out? He keeps touching me. I am frightened. He can’t see I am crying. He opens my legs. I am kicking and screaming but my legs are not doing what I am thinking I am doing. He has a weird look in his face. I am frightened. His head goes between my legs and I tell myself to wake up! Wake up now, you are dreaming! I wake up. It is pitch black in the room. I am crying and I am frightened. I can hear my sister beside me sleeping. I am calming down. I hug my sister, I calm down more. I can still feel him near me so I jump up frightened again and run into my mum and dads room. They are sleeping. I quietly slip into the bottom of their bed. I am safe now. He can’t get me now. My mum and dad will protect me. I am calm. I am not frightened any more.  I hear my Dad snoring and it soothes me and carries me off into a peaceful sleep. No more bad dream.

My niece and nephew..cuties!
My niece and nephew..cuties!

Connecting the dots

The next morning, my mum woke me and asked why I was sleeping in their bed. As I sat up Dad was looking at me with a knowing smile. I told them about my dream. Mum and Dad looked at each other curiously. I suspected they knew what the dream was about but were not going to tell me. Instead they assured me it was just a dream and one day when I was old enough I would understand it. Dad then said gently, it’s ok, you are always safe. I accepted that as law and even though the dream frightened me every time, I was comforted by the belief that I was safe. Not to mention the fact that I always ended up in Mum and Dads bed!

As I grew older, my parents, over time taught me about our connectionto all things. Connecting eventually became a lot easier. The dream started to make a little bit more sense. In my teens, I came to understand what the man in the dream was doing. Whilst I understand the recurrence of this first dream was probably from the fear of the first. Who or where I was connected to in that first dream I still don’t know.

All I know is, that there is no way a four year old could have a dream like that and not be connected to some person, somewhere at some time.

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pennyofheaven 22 months ago from New Zealand Author

Thank you Delores


Delores 24 months ago

Heck of a job there, it abstuloely helps me out.


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pennyofheaven 5 years ago from New Zealand Author

Wow I missed these comments in my haste!

Bigbrother: Thanks for stopping by. Dream on!

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Erin: Sleep well to my sister. Enjoy you also!

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Nell: Yes agree maybe genetics has something to do with it. One may never know!Thanks for stopping by.

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Anja: What is PL? Thanks for stopping in again!

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Mickey: Thank you, will do!

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Acatenna: Yes sometimes its the only ones that are trying to make a point that I remember. Thanks for stopping by!

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Hi Ricky, I am great thanks! Hope you are too! Thank you my friend for the wonderful review. Sending my love back to you!

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Hi Askashville3433, Awww Ricky is a gem. Bless his heart! Bless your heart too and thank you for stopping to read them. I do agree every things happens for a reason, good or bad!


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AskAshlie3433 5 years ago from WEST VIRGINIA

Hey Penny! How are you? I love your poems. Ricky got me reading them and you are truly blessed with a gift. As always, thank you for sharing. By the way, I believe dreams have meaning and pretty much all things in life. Everything happens for a reason, good or bad. lol


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rickyrt44 5 years ago from LOGAN, WEST VIRGINIA

Hi Penny! How are you? Dreams do have meaning. Dreams are what your heart feels, atleast most are, I think. lol

You all should read Penny's poems. She has a way with words! Beautiful writings from Penny! I send my love across the ocean To you Penny! God Bless!


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

Brilliant - dreams are amazing, I rarely remember them though.


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AskAshlie3433 5 years ago from WEST VIRGINIA

I think our dreams really do matter. Penny just explains it much better then other. You really have a way with words Penny. LOL


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Nice thoughts again as always Penny! Stay warm!


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anjalichugh 5 years ago from New York

As Nell said, dreams have to come from somewhere. They can be memories from past life as well. In some cases, the memories remain clear and vivid till the age of 10 or 12 but eventually fade away as the person grows older. I wonder if you thought of going in for a PL regression session at any time in life. That is only if you still are curious to understand the meaning of some bizarre questions / images / dreams / memories which might have haunted you over the years.


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Nell Rose 5 years ago from England

Hi, dreams can be so strange, so are symbolic and others are just bits and pieces from life, who knows where they come from? maybe it is genetic memory too, cheers nell


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Big Brother 5 years ago from Earth

Dream on, my e/friend. Thanks


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

Penny, I love your thoughts about the connectedness of the universe. And I am so curious about deeper discussions with you about our dreams. Again, I so enjoy your hubs and we have so much in common! Sleep well my friend, Namaste'


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Dave Mathews 5 years ago from NORTH YORK,ONTARIO,CANADA

Penny often dreams are just that dreams. They can be scary, they can be funny, they can be loving. The important thing to remember is they are but dreams.


scriber1 5 years ago

A connection to the cosmos is the necessary forerunner for a connection to anything within it. You were blessed, as are now we in you sharing it.


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pennyofheaven 5 years ago from New Zealand Author

Hi Antoine, yes I was very lucky to have parents like that. The dream for sure was just the beginning of things to come later on in my life. I do agree wholeheartedly, in its essence it is always good even when we may not see it at the time. As we develop we get a greater perspective. Thank you my friend for dropping by!


Antoine Van Hove 5 years ago

Good that you had such wise parents, Penny.

We are indeed always safe, and it a dream is getting too scary, we are fortunally able to wake up out of it.

Maybe the whole experience helped you to 'wake up', later in your life?

Everything has at first glance a good and a bad side. But if we dig a little bit deeper, everything is in its essence always 'good'! In the way that all things necessary for our development, cross our road all the time in life. Most of the time though we are unable to see that, because of our lack of view on the greater perspective of things.

Thanks for sharing!

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