Eve's Despair

What was Eve thinking after God found Adam and her hiding in the bushes in the Garden of Eden?

What went through her head, on that fateful day, after she learned the devastating consequences of her actions?

Though the Bible doesn't expound on Eve's thoughts we can be sure there were many emotions and fears racing through her head. She made a deliberate choice to go against God as she followed the voice of the enemy. I imagine that Eve felt confused, upset, ashamed. fearful, hopeless and devastated by her gross error in judgement and blatant disobedience to God's instructions..

I have spent some time trying to get into Eve's head. In this article I will strive to express how I think Eve felt and what she may have thought. I mean, what if I was the first woman on earth and the only woman in that beautiful garden? Would I be profoundly grateful that God had created everything, this fragrant thriving paradise, just to bless me and my husband? Would I be loyal to my creator? What if it was me that listened to the snake and deliberately went against my Father God?

I have imagined myself in her perfect world surrounded with majestic, glorious beauty. Oh how her voice must have risen in inexplicable joy and praises as she got caught up in the love God had so lavishly poured out on her husband and on her. She knew that her Father God owned it all - He created her and Adam and everything in existence.

Then comes that ghastly day. In this portion I will replace Eve with me. It will be my own imagination responding ,as I think Eve may have responded, to what actually happened.

There I am in the midst of the bountiful garden. I picture myself perfectly at peace strolling and humming praise songs when suddenly my attention is riveted to a beautiful creature - I have never seen this creature. He is shiney and his eyes draw me in. As I study him, he begins to call me over to where he sits, right there, under the forbidden tree. "Eve," he purrs, "Come here dear, beautiful girl, let me see you up close." The serpents eyes look deeply into my own, “Did God really say, you must not eat from any tree in the garden’? ” he asks. I look confused and reply, “ No, that is not what God said, He said we may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, he only forbid us from eating fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, he said we must not touch it, or we will die.” The serpent hissed, “You will not die, God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

At first I am appalled, doesn't he know that God created everything, I mean God even created the serpent. I have never even questioned the authority of God but the creature raises some good and provocative questions about God. I am thinking like I've never thought before. I feel free and adventurous as I allow my thoughts to ponder the creatures accusation against God. I begin to question God. What if He is holding out on us? Why shouldn't I use my own judgement to determine if God is good or if he is withholding something wonderful from me?

The alluring serpent is persuasive and he works his magic on me. After allowing my mind to wander from the truth God established in me, I am persuaded by his charm and I find myself deliberately choosing to disobey my Father God. After I bite into the forbidden fruit, my eyes open wide, in a way I have never seen ... and now, in horror, I think .. "What have I done! How then will I ever face God?"

How hard did it hit Eve when the intimacy she freely and lovingly shared with Father God was suddenly cut off? How would you have felt or responded after making such a devastating, life altering decision; One that you knew would affect all of mankind?

Join with me as I strive to enter Eve's world and express her heart.

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Oh dear God, what have I done? How could I have been so stupid! Why did I let myself get deceived by the manipulative tactics of the beautiful creature in the garden?

Now, I see it clearly. The creature knew exactly what he was doing with his smooth talk and persuasive words. His words were filled with malicious and deceitful lies. The serpents lies were aimed at separating me from my loving Father and pulling me out from under His blessing and protection. The pain of this separation is too much to bear.

Father God gave Adam and I only one rule - just one simple boundary. He said, “Do not eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.” Everything else was ours to enjoy - absolutely everything else. That slimy serpent whittled away at my Faith until I caved and felt I must have the one thing God told me I could not have.

Well, he succeeded, that slimy serpent - oh how I hate him. Though I hate him, I hate myself all the more because it was me who allowed his lies to lead me to the worst decision ever! In a moment of naivete and vulnerability I took of the fruit.

The weight of the consequences and the rippling effect on future generations is more than I can bear, Oh my Lord my God, what have I done!

My heart is melting within me. Why did I even stop to listen to the serpents lies? My Father God had freely given me such bounty? My life was filled with so much love, color, beauty, tranquility and perfection.

I did not know there was any other way to live. I never saw or experienced discomfort, guilt, sadness, sin or any form of evil .. not until my eyes were opened. Yes, my eyes were opened to evil and sin. My eyes were opened - because of my choice - my deliberate choice to disobey the one thing God had said no to.

I was so embarrassed when God came looking for us in the garden. Embarrassed because of my nakedness and so ashamed by what I knew He would see. He see’s everything. He knows all and so He saw in me the ugliness of betrayal and sin.

I have utterly and completely failed the one true God and the worst thing is that I cannot undo what I have done. All humanity will suffer because of my sin and rebellion against my Father God. I am no longer innocent - I am guilty and I feel it so deeply; a pain that infiltrates my being and seeks to destroy me.

Adam blamed me ... and that cut me to the core. He had always been so protective of me and only .. ever loving and kind. But, of course, it was me that offered him the fruit, I am to blame. I was not content to disobey God alone … I had to drag Adam into my rebellion.

After Adam blamed me I was so afraid that I immediately blamed the serpent. I hate the serpent but, in the end, the fault is mine. I chose to listen and let him lead me to the worst mistake of my life.

My only hope is in my Father God. His love endures forever and He forgives even the gravest of sins. He will restore my soul and make a way to restore all mankind to the way it was in the very beginning.

I will put my faith in my Father God and choose to accept, with humility and submission, the consequences of my sin. I will seek Him with all that is within me and strive to walk in His truth every moment of every day. I will not trust in my own flesh but will look to my Father God and to Him alone for wisdom and direction.

Oh my God please help me to never be deceived again. Forgive me for my stupidity and restore me. I love you my. Father God, and though I will never be the same - from this day forth - I give you my complete allegiance.

Thankfully the story that began in the garden of Eden did not end there. God could have made Adam and Eve pay eternal consequences for their blatant disregard for HIs love and authority. But God loved them too much. He made a way to restore mankind to Himself. He didn't have to, but He did ... He sacrificed the most precious thing in His life to save you and me from the eternal consequences of sin. Through Jesus we are Justified - Just as if we never sinned.

Though Adam and Eve sinned and deserved the consequences of their actions God's love and grace found a way to bring mankind back into relationship with Him. You see God is the creator and He loves us, His creation. God could not imagine life without us so He made a way to restore us back into relationship with Him.

There was one big problem created after that fatal sin in the garden. You see, God is holy and He cannot even look upon sin. When Adam and Eve sinned it was the beginning of the great separation between the creator and his creation. Every man and woman since the beginning of time has chosen to go their own way. Isa. 53:6. (read it in God's Word)

God solved the problem of separation that sin had created. His solution was to send Jesus, his one and only son, to die in our place. You see the only one who could pay the penalty for ALL of our sin was Jesus, because Jesus had NO sin. Jesus willingly came down from Heaven to live among people on the Earth. He came knowing He would be killed and knowing that death would pay the price for our sin. He made a deliberate choice to allow the people of that day to crucify him. There on that cruel cross he took our sins in his own body and paid for them with his own life. I Peter 2:24 (read it in God's Word)

Oh how He loves you - Oh how He loves me - Oh how He loves you and me.

To those who are reading this article I ask you, have you heard this true story of the Fathers love for you? Jesus Christ died as the substitute for you and your sin. Do the words of the Bible ring true and can you believe that Jesus died for you in order to give you eternal life?

If you truly believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, why not pray and tell God so. Ask Him to forgive you and thank Him for sending Jesus to pay the penalty for your sins. If you need to understand more about this Jesus and God of the Bible, let me encourage you to read it. I would recommend you begin with the New Testament book of Mark as it is fast paced and easily grasped.

The apostle John has written: “And the testimony is this, that God has given us eternal life, and this life is in His Son. He who has the Son has the life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have the life” (1 John 5:11-12). When you have the Son of God, the Lord Jesus, you have eternal life.