From A Mother's Pain Follow-up
Man or woman of God, I pray that what I'm about to tell you will take you to a place of peace that passes all human understanding.
It's only been a few days since I posted my last article, From A Mother's Pain. If you haven't already, I urge you to read that first before continuing on in this one.
God has moved powerfully in these last few days and I felt compelled to share it with you. After I posted the article, I received an email from my niece, who has a doctorate in Christian family counseling. She wanted me to know that she had read the article and wanted to share her thoughts. She said I vividly portrayed my struggle and pain over my daughter's salvation, and understood that as a mother I wanted nothing more than to know my daughter is safe and in the arms of God. She said that as she read on, she was hoping and anticipating a confirmation of this but I ended at the same place I started - not knowing. Frankly, I hadn't thought of it that way, and since my instruction from the Lord was to write about that specific topic and post it for others as a source of comfort, I thought I should follow-up with "the rest of the story" just in case you, too, were left hanging. I want to thank my niece for her part in my healing journey. She is very special to me.
The next day I was praying in my journal and asking God about another matter when the topic abruptly changed. I found myself talking about my daughter's salvation again. I heard the Lord say, "Go to Luke 15 to know Me as Jesus knew Me." It was the parable of the child who went off to the far country only to return in total defeat. It was vs.20 that got me, " So he got up and came to his (own) father. But while he was still a long way off, (my emphasis) his father saw him and was moved with pity and tenderness (for him); and he ran and embraced him and kissed him fervently." Man or woman of God, I pray that what I'm about to tell you will take you to a place of peace that passes all human understanding.
When I read, still a long way off, I realized that my daughter had not reached the point where she could reveal her feelings outwardly and she was still a long way off from being able to, but God saw it in her, and HE was moved with pity and tenderness, and HE ran and embraced her and kissed her fervently. I have read that Scripture many times since her death and always thought it was me doing the pitying, and embracing, and kissing, but this time I realized it was God!
Please hear me, the devil was taking the precious Word of God that was nestled in my heart, and preaching it back to me like the law, and I believed it. I was in so much pain that I didn't even perceive the lack of grace.
Your circumstances may be different than mine but we share the same pain. If you can relate to anything I have said, please take it to your heavenly Father and let Him reveal the truth of what you are going through. He is so loving and faithful. He does not want you to suffer anymore. If you need prayer, I have a website at www.emptyvesselsforchrist.com, where you can leave a prayer request. If you would like to talk, that can be arranged. Leave your information and I will get back to you as soon as possible.
I don't even know you, but I feel very connected to you. Please don't carry this burden alone. God wants you to cast your care on Him and He uses empty vessels who have poured out everything so He can fill them and use them for his purposes. To God be all the glory!
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