From Satanist to Salvation

I have turned the cross up right again were it belongs!

This is a picture of "The Black Pope" (Anton Layvay) during the time when I was member of the church of Satan.
This is a picture of "The Black Pope" (Anton Layvay) during the time when I was member of the church of Satan.

PART ONE: A door Opens....

My story begins at the age of seven when I had my first experience with something beyond my understanding, an accidental trip into the unknown. That day, I had been hunting lizards with my best friend in the open fields around my house. This was on the outskirts of San Barnardino in Southern California.

On this day, I was returning home from this “hunting expedition” empty handed. I had a large cardboard box with me I was going to use for the lizards. Since it was empty, I placed the box on top of my head and pretended I was one of the Africans I saw in Tarzan movies. As I started to cross the street, the box blocked my view and I slammed right into a car. It was being driven by a woman who was rushing to hospital for she was about to go into Labor!

The next thing I knew, I was catapulted high into the air by some unseen force. Then, I was soaring over a dead-end street that was near my house. I could see my friends playing out in their yards and I tried to get their attention by waving but they did not see me. Then, it was like something was pulling me back, so I “flew” back to the street were I was hit. This is when I saw myself sitting on the side of the road crying! I remember thinking “I guess I better go back why I still can.”

I tried to tell the Lady who was driving the car about the dream I had, and she said that was impossible, for I was sitting on the curb crying all that time. Way back then, I did not know anything about Out of Body Experience or Astral Projection. I did know one thing; I was going to find out how to do it again for I thought it was cool! Fortunately, I was not seriously hurt and yet, something changed in me that day. A door was opened.

As a child, I had strong imagination and I had to sleep with the closet door closed and my bedroom door ajar. I started “seeing things” on regular basses, but I keep this to my self, for I started to realize that not every body was like me. The next major incident I had was when I was nine and my sister was at the hospital dying from stomach cancer. I was awakened by the feeling that something was watching me. It also seemed there was some kind of electrical current going though the room. I closed my eyes and that is when I saw my sister lying in a coffin with her hands folded on top of her body. I knew then she had passed on even though my parents did not tell me this until the next day.

The older I got the more I came convinced that I did not belong in the world I was growing up in. I had a fascination with nature and animals and studied Taxidermy and other un-cool things like snakes and insects. My mother had become deeply religious and I was force-feed Christianity, (at least that is how I saw it then). I was sent to a privet school made up mainly of rich kids and my family was lower Middle Class (my father was an electrician).

Because I did not fit in, I was picked on constantly. At first, I “turned the other check” like I was taught, but that just made things worst. Then one day I “blacked out” and beat the bully who I was fighting to a pulp! This changed everything, for I gained respect and I was even feared! This was the first time I let the rage I had berried inside me out and I loved it! Rage became my first drug of chose! I also had some learning disabilities that kept me from doing well in school and keep me even more distant from my peers.

My parents became desperate for me to do better in school and sent me to a “continuation” High School that was meant for kids who were “educationally challenged,” or in other words, rejects from the mainstream. This is when I met Robert.

I remember that day like it was yesterday. He was sitting at a picnic table in front of one of the classrooms drawing very sacrilegious pictures mocking the Crucifixion of Jesus. Haft in jest, I asked him if he was a Satanist. He glared at me and stated in a very mater of fact tone. “Yes indeed I am, do you have a problem with that?” I had never met a Satanist before and the concept was stimulating. I found out that he belong to The Church of Satan founded by Anton Sazandor Lavay.

Soon we became close friends and I feel into a dark world I knew nothing about up to that point. This was the perfect religion for me; it gave me an out let for my rage! Not only was it okay to feel rage it was encouraged! Up until that point, I was taught to suppress my emotions like lust, rage, greed and a hunger for power. Now, I was given permission to wallow in sin like a pig wallows in mud! It was great, for a season!

My friend Robert was quite a womanizer and we started forming a Coven or Church, mainly consisting of women. It was life in the fast lane, or actually life on the exit ramp. I just did not know this then, nor did I care! After about six months we met other Satanist and other forms of witchcraft, it became an addiction and all I carried about was how powerful I could become.

It is important to state, that I was not involved in any form of animal or human sacrifice. On the surface anyway, we held the belief that Satan was symbolic. We did not really worship the devil, we just wanted freedom! Little did I know that I was actually a slave. The deeper I got in, the harder it was for me to get out. Life became one big party but all parties eventually end.

After High School, I moved up north and lived on a ranch way out in the boon-docks in Humboldt County. Robert on the other had decided to become a Mortician! We both continued our practice, he formed a good size following and I became a “solitaire,” or lone witch. For three years, we did are own thing. He worked and lived on a Mortuary, I worked on a cattle ranch, and I started growing Marijuana in bulk. When the heat got to hot with the law, I came back to Southern CA. I got back involved with Robert's "church", both of us sharing what we had learned so we could apply it to forming our own brand of Black Magic. He was the Priest and I was his assistant. We thought we would rule the world! We thought wrong!

TO BE CONTINUED.


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HOOWANTSTONO 6 years ago

Keep going, sounds worth hearing, especially for those that think Angels are all good.

God speed


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aguasilver 6 years ago from Malaga, Spain

I'm going to second that opinion HOO, keep going and stay protected at all times, our former master will not like this.

You are in my prayers.

John


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Highvoltagewriter 6 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Thank you to both HOO and aguasilver! You are so right he does NOT LIKE IT but the one I serve now has and will protect me! there are so many that still embrace that life style and the same God that made his presence known to me can save them also! Thank so much for your prayers!


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myownworld 6 years ago from uk

i love that 'dark' side to your hubs...there's such a magnetic quality to them all! Keep going...i want to know more...! wishing you a happy new year and lots of luck with your writing! x


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Highvoltagewriter 6 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

The Dark side is something I know all to well LOL, since I have spent too many years hanging out there... If you want I can email you some of my Horror Stories I have written for Magazines. I am now trying to move a way from that even though I am in the process of writing a Novel, The Howling Heart which I have call a "Horror Parable!"


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magnoliazz 6 years ago from Wisconsin

WOW! This is really interesting! I can't wait for part 2. You could write a book! Really good hub!!


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Highvoltagewriter 6 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

The Lord willing it will be a book...I have a lot of experiences that are to graphic for HubPages. But first I must finish "The Howling Heart."


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Annie Bows 5 years ago from Everywhere USA

Wow... sounds like you had some really trippy experiences.


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Highvoltagewriter 5 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Yep I had a wilid and strange youth! I just thank God I survived it!


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nighthag 5 years ago from Australia

Its very brave of you, to stand up and talk about this, your past and where it took you. having been force feed christianity myself i can understand you wanting something else.

again I am impressed by your courage at talking about such a personal topic so openly...thank you and be safe


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Highvoltagewriter 5 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

It was not easy for me to write this stuff, for I have been exsposed to a lot of spiritual war fare. However I feel that it is the mission that God put before me. One thing I know is if God is for me NOTHING can stand against me! I feel the reason I seem like a natual for writing Horror is that at one time my life was like a horror movie!


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magnoliazz 5 years ago from Wisconsin

I am back to re read this hub again and vote it up again, awesome hub!


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heavenbound5511 5 years ago from Under the shadow of the Almighty God!

Hi Highvoltagewriter,

Thanks for your testimony of where God has brought you from. I know God will and is using this for all those needing deliverance from the occult.

I will add a link to this page on my ex occult page.

Thanks!


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Trish_M 5 years ago from The English Midlands

I just found this ~ it is really interesting.

You went through a lot at a very formative age. It is not surprising that things may have 'got out of hand' a bit.

I am so sorry about your sister ~ it must have had a huge effect on you and your family.


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Highvoltagewriter 5 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Hello Trish, I am happy to see you have done a bit of exploring within my hubs. Yes that was a long time ago when I lost my sister, and as they say time mends all wounds. Here is the messege I wish to convey and I will repeat it in my next hub on this subject...looks can be deceiving and what may seem innocent really is not at all!


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

Interestingly creepy read , i voted up and interesting . Thanks:)


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Highvoltagewriter 5 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Thanks for stopping by Jamal, you now read the rest of the story for it gets deeper! It is the part of my past I am glad that I have left for behind!


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iskra1916 4 years ago from Belfast, Ireland.

Excellent!

I'm looking forward to the next part!

Voted up+useful+interesting+awesome!


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Highvoltagewriter 4 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Thank you so much iskra1916 for stopping in! I sorry I some how missed your comment until now.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

voted up and interesting. I'm a PK and a fan of the study of religion, I look forward to hearing the rest of your story!


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Highvoltagewriter 4 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

What exactly is a PK??? ANYBODY?


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Preacher/Pastor's Kid. PK


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Highvoltagewriter 4 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Thanks for that! PDXKarokeGuy, my mind was taking me allover the place...like Pariot Kindom, or Passion Kit or...well you get the picture!


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Penis King? Plain Kaiser? Pungent Kangaroo? Plaster Kansas? Pudgy Kid?


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Talisker 4 years ago from UK

I'm glad I read this. You were obviously trying to make sense of a very bizarre world right from an early age. A very honest and open account. I'm looking forward to exploring your other hubs too.


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Highvoltagewriter 4 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

This is a good hub to start with if you want to understand why I have reached the conclusions that I have...For I understand why people do not believe their prayers are being answered, or there is not a God. The enemy of God, who I believe is very real and very focused on his agenda, does what he can to prevent people from knowing the truth!


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jirel 4 years ago from Philippines

Very interesting!!Voted up!!


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Highvoltagewriter 4 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Thank you jirel for dropping by....all I am trying to do here is too send up a warning shot...things that seem innocent can turn dangerous in a heart beat!


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travel_man1971 4 years ago from Bicol, Philippines

A volatile account of your past.

With God's grace you're back to where you belong, in God's Loving Hands (through Jesus). Bless you!!!


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

Your hubs are wonderful. Thank God you came back from your past and thank God you have the courage to write about it.

God bless you.


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Highvoltagewriter 4 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

Thank you, Michele for your encouragement and for the fact that you also are unafraid to write on some controversial things. We are in this fight together!


Erin 2 years ago

I also practiced Magick and Witchcraft for nine years. I am a Christian now. I was very knowledgeable in things from the craft. I have never really read or heard such real testimonies from former Witches. Thank you for this site. I pray that many lives will be changed by these testimonies.


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Highvoltagewriter 2 years ago from Savannah GA. Author

I know a few that made it "out" ; but when comes to Black Magick at the degree I practise, few survive. I say this for almost everyone who took witchcraft as far as I did is no longer alive!

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