God Shining In His Glory, My heartfelt testimony in time of sadness.

Shine On Lord / On the Canal 8-01-2010

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Glory Be to God

I woke with a sadness on my heart. I miss my husband. I quickly turn my thoughts to Christ. I know this situation will work for 'HIS Glory'. Many time's one has to go down hard to move from the situation and get to God. We know, we are very fortunate that no one was maimed or injured because of a stupid, selfish decision to drink and drive.The reason I say we is because it is an illness that wipes out the whole family. Alcoholism is like a tornado that comes in and mows down what is in the path. The family becomes as sick or sicker then the actual alcoholic. Covering up, hiding, enabling. I know so much about the illness coming from the background of alcoholic parents. I have lived it much of my life.

Many of you may know my husband David is spending time in jail for 2 DUI'S. November 05 2010 will be his departure date as stated by the courts. His time was suspended by months because of God moving on he judges heart. David knows and encourages me to share in my stories the battle ground that comes with the illness of alcoholism. If one person is encouraged David says he is grateful. It is not a rare illness. I went to ask Jeeves.com and it seems to be 4 out of 10 ages 16 to 65 are alcoholic. The numbers are on the rise. When I got sober over 22 years ago it was 1 in 10. You see there is an enemy out there. He will use drugs, alcohol whatever to wipe you out. DO not allow it to happen to you.

The hole in my heart ached this morning. I hurt. I am not going to sit here and tell you I was all peachy keen. I was not. God is the hole filler. I know that. God does not want me to be sad or in pain. He weeps, when I weep. I sit up and imagine Jesus sitting next to me. I can feel his tender touch. I cry. I have cried much this week. It is a process. I know in my spirit I need to focus on the promises of Christ. I speak scripture. What always comes to mind is, 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me' I help others. I do selfless acts to get from my self centered pain. I have come to far and I will stand with Christ. The enemy is not going to knock me around. Jesus is in me, HE is holding me.

I go to hub pages because there are some amazing writers and I know their reads will help to change my thinking. My thinking can keep me stuck in the wilderness. I do not like it. I am grateful for the knowledge. My thinking can be a dangerous neighborhood. I go to my friend Quills page. He wrote a hub on journal writing. It was much deeper then journal writing. it touched my heart. His experience I can use. I do not really do journal writing, per say. I listen to some worship music. My hole is there but I know it is getting filled. I feel I can make a move now. I refuse to give in to the enemy. God has removed fear from finances. This is a miracle since there is no income coming from a 'world business' How God delivers it to me could be a hub in and of itself. His mail system is by far the most amazing I have ever known. He is on time and even early. I am amazed. I smile.

My business in Hair is so slow and the desire of my heart has changed. I have little desire to do hair any longer. I am writing for Christ. The doors for Hair started shutting when the economy started going haywire after 911. Christ moves from our paths what he does not need there any longer. My ministry in Hair is moving from there, to cyberspace. I do not question. I know God knows what he does. Silly me. I may feel lonely but I am never alone. I have a best Friend, husband, boss, savior, guide and more then a girl could ask for, living in me. Moving for me. Yes, FOR ME. For you too, just ask. God says he will lift his 'children' in the later days. He does not lie nor change. I decide to stop thinking.

I take Quills words of wisdom. I grab a notebook, a pencil, water, and my two dogies. I splash cold water on my face, throw on some shorts, grab some food. I feel like I do not know what I am doing. I feel sad. I am taking one step at a time. One foot in front of the other. The dogs are all excited. They know we are headed to the canal. When I put on the leash it is canal time. The puppy now 9 months old pushes on me on to move faster. I laugh. He is so darn cute. I swore to my Abby I would not puppy raise, another one.See what do I know? I think he is here more then he is at her home. My old dog Benji about a whole 8 pounds and 14 years just waits, wagging the tail. Rocco and him start to play. It is like the great uncle playing with the nephew. I cant help but laugh. You know God knows when to send a wink your way.Out the door we go.

I feel the sadness come on. It is hot outside. Soon we will be at the canal and shaded. I start to sing scripture, anything. I do not feel like singing. I do it anyway. The enemy would love it if I wallowed in the pity party. It is no wonder Adam named them dogs, God spelled back words. Mans best Friend. You can be what you want and they will love you.You can look a mess and they do not care. You can be sad and they sit by you. You can sing crazy ,out of pitch, loud songs and they run and play, happy you are now doing better.

In my heart of hearts I know the desire in my heart is Gods desire. We are in times that he needs his 'saints' to share the good news of the Gospel. It is not going to get prettier out there in the 'world ' of things. Children of God will be lifted up to heights that are beyond our imagination. We will be safe. God promises never to leave nor forsake us and to provide our needs and desires. I know all this. I have lived this

.I could sit here and tell you this has been one grand journey. My husband in jail. As much as I wanted him gone, I think I miss him more. I know him. I know he loves the Lord. There is no man that I can think of that has ever loved me more. There is no man in my life that has supported and stood by me more then David. This is truth. I have divorced and dated then dated many a times and years and there is no one that has been sweeter to me then David. The ride started going downhill when I took my 'gain' for granted and when David took his first drink over 4 years ago. His 13 years of sobriety gone. We went on a roller coaster ride and lost it all. I lost David in the process. I lost me in the process. I called on the Savior and HE was waiting. I had to change my life. With or without David I made a decision to love God first and start over.

I could care about the material today. I care about Jesus and serving him. He is the reason I am here. He rescued the sinking ship. SO many do not make it up. SO if you are down rise up to the occasion. God is waiting. DO not wallow in sorrows any longer. It will do nothing for your life, to make it better. In fact it is a tool the enemy will use to take you down. DO not allow it. Please do not.

There is a heaven and a hell. There is good and evil. There is God and Satan. God fought for us and died a horrid death so we could be made righteous in his eyes. We sinners could live and live a life of abundance if we make the choice for Christ. In and out of Davids sobriety he would come back around to Christ. Yet he fell back many times. It took what it took to wake this man to his dying soul. God does not want us to be sad or drunk or angry or hurting. Through my experience woman or men young or old get up and turn to the creator. He is the only way out of this mess in the world. You see the world will not fix you. If you think so, I do not know what window you are looking out of.

SO I make a decision to put one foot in front of the other. I decide not to beat myself up because I did not write a chapter in my novel as planned. I need to take care of me and my fathers business. I need to snap out of this. God gave me a letter. There is one for you too. It is called the, Bible. If you have none it will come to you. Just ask. Reach out. 'Children of God' will be there for you. So in my head I know what I need to do. I do have a few brain cells left kidding.

The Highline Canal is only 100 feet from my back porch. You can walk on the path and follow the canal for miles and miles. It is all shaded with trees, flowers, little Cubby's where one could hide out and write or sleep, day dream, pray or cry. The dogs go in and out of the canal on the hot day. This is their heaven on earth. It is truly a miracle I live here. When we lost our home in BK God had this planned. This is where my writing 'career' started. The seed planted many years ago was buried but when Davids drinking was out of control I took my pen and I could walk for miles sit and write a story. In the middle of the city I have this 'paradise'. It is truly amazing at the beauty all around. We just need to look. Sometimes I am so into my stuff I forget to notice. I do not like that any longer. SO that is telling me the Holy Spirit has been working on my heart. I have changed. I have new glass's. They need cleaning often, but for the grace of God, I can do that. He tells me how. The Lord is so good. I am feeling better.

Do not act on how you feel, give it time because it will change in a moment or a few but the feeling will pass. Everything God tells us in HIS Word is for our benefit, not HIS.He does not need the help we do. You know he says to discipline a child with a rod and they will not do the wrong thing again. He says do not use your hand, The hand is for love and touch. He says walk away when angry and come back to discipline and or talk. Use a paddle and spank the child. Why am I thinking of this. I guess because God has an answer for everything, He must have been so tired after his creation it is no wonder he devoted a day for rest.

I sit in the shade. The dogs run in and out of the water. They give my heart joy. I get my pencil I start to write. I write and write. I do not know what I write. I am taking the advice of my brother Quill. I write whatever comes to mind. I have a few tear drops. I am engaged. I do not know where the dogs went. They will return. They always come to check and make sure I am OK. I hear a few people walk by. It is like an echo. I know they are there but I am in another world. I am in the Spirit. I cry, sing, write. I stand to stretch and do a little dance of praise. My mind is renewed. I feel sanity or peace return. I have more energy. Here come the dogs. Rocco the puppy has weeds and twigs all over him. His leash is dirty. He smells of something rank. I start laughing so hard. I have no clue what he got into. I can not help but laugh. The Spirit was in me. You know the laugh that will not stop. Rocco and Benji just look.They sit and stare at me. It makes me laugh harder. I pet them. Really guys I am OK. Praise God.

I look at the journal 10 pages back and front filled. The dogs and I head home. It is beautiful outside, the cool breeze is blowing on my face. I stop and take a picture of myself by the climb to safety sign. I am so vain. I try to fix my messed hair. Again the laughing starts. It is from deep inside. It is like vent up pain is leaving. I do not analyze. I am having fun. The dogs just look at me. Rocco's ears point straight up He is not sure what to make of me. We walk on. I feel the peace of God. It is like HE is whispering to me. I thank Him. I am so grateful for HIS gifts. I tell him it would take a day on the canal to write them all. I literally feel like I never want to leave this place of inner peace. I look at the time. We have been gone for three hours. I am amazed how the time flew by.

My old guy is getting tired. The puppy has slowed down. I see this part of the canal that looks so beautiful. I walk over. The water reminds me of the living water of Christ Jesus. The green looks like velvet. I feel a warmth on my back and shoulders. The sun is in front of me. I know it is the warmth of Jesus. I feel like he is beside me. I really do. I just had this most glorious walk with Jesus. He knew what I needed. I listened. I stepped out of myself. I am so grateful. We do not have to stay in 'stinking thinking'. I took a picture of an angel on this path last year. Not this spot but close by. The angel was in a tree. I wonder if the same angel is around me. I did not see her until I got home to look at the picture. I have it posted on 'Angels on my path'

The water is flowing like the peace of the river that calms after a storm. I take my camera phone and snap a picture. I move back to get another. I feel like I could run and leap for God. I can not see the picture too well because of the shadows on the canal. All I know know is God is Glory. He is the one and only way to freedom. If we get in pain, he will lift us up and out to healing. If we were never in pain we would not need to call on HIM. One day there will be no more pain, no Dur's, no jail cells, no tears, no illness, no starving. Today God will get us through. Just do not give up or give in. Get up and help God out. DO something for him. Anything. Sing to him, talk to him, smile at someone, give the guy on the corner a ten dollar bill. He will Bless you for trying. Plant seeds. Seeds grow. Your harvest will come.

The temptation is ramped in the 'world' It is easy to get off of course. Faith comes by hearing the word. Keep hearing or start hearing. If you have not asked God into your heart as Lord of your life this is a good time. DO not wait. There may not be time to wait. We do not know about tomorrow.Do not give up before the miracle. Let God in so he can show you what he has for you. Just ask Jesus into your heart, repent of sins and confess with your mouth he is Lord and you will have a ticket to Heaven. If you did this you are; 'Born Again', 'Saved', and a 'Child of God.' Seek someone who knows Christ and hook up. You will be led. They will be so happy for you. The Angels sing for you. Christ is pleased you came to HIM. It is not always easy as I just shared being a believer but we are not alone. I may feel lonely at times but I know where to go. The bar is not the answer. God is the answer. Thats why we are children always learning and growing in Christ. It is a ride you do not want to miss. SO get on aboard if you are not. Do not perish. God has plans for your life.

I get home with my worn out dogs. They crash out on the floor. I sit on the porch and go through my pictures. What? This is not for reels. Yes, it is for reels I was there. The picture above is what I took. It is like God was showing me HIS Glory and shining it on me. It is no wonder I had this tremendous peace. The clouds, well coming home I took another picture, the clouds were so captivating. I did not notice the heart. God is full of surprises. He is amazing and wonderful and glorious. He knows what we need and when. He is everywhere. The heart of love, that would be God. He designed them. He owns it all. He gives us his heart. He lives in our Hearts when we ask HIM..He is alive.I get tears of joy.I am so grateful. What a Glorious day.

The following Day. I have an appointment to visit with David.I pray to be on time. You can not be one minute late for check in. I feel gratitude. I really did not think I would go visit again.The first time, I was all tears. It was hard to face. I was not alone. I realize It could be me behind the cubby hole where I sit and someone comes to visit with me. But for the grace of GOD, go I. I know that God is working on Davids healing and for 'HIS Glory'. David says he is into the Word of God, most of the time. He writes in his journal allot. He tells me writing has helped him look at his issues and cycles. I smile and tel him I know about the journal writing. I have had a bit of practice at it..God is so cool.HM I know David is in the hands of God. God has David covered all is Good.

David told me many were facing time of 15 to 35 years. He said it broke his heart.SO many are 17 or 18 years old.. He said most he had spoke with had no idea of God, nor did they want any idea of God. He said it was a real 'awakening' to what the enemy is trying to do. SO, Children of God this is the time for us to be bold in sharing Christ. Babies are in jails for many years. God so needs HIS children to speak up for Him. May Christ help the lost and open hearts and eyes. Sweet Jesus, I pray many are touched with your love and come to know you.

If you would like to read my stories, "Never Never Give Up' part 1 and part 11, I share the journey that led to the jali. The good news is God is faithful,. "Christ can turn ALL things for the Good for those that love Him" More will be revealed to me. I look forward to a future with Christ. There is no greater joy that I have discovered. It took many years to get here. I am so grateful to be here and not six feet under, to share my path with you. If one can be helped through this story, thank you God. I give him ALL the Glory.I am made righteous in His eyes, I am HIS CHILD. Many that read this belong to the Father. We have an awesome Father. Try Him if you do no tknow Him. You will be Blessed, I promise. Thank you for being here. May the Love of the Father make HIS face to SHINE on you and Bless You, always.

One day I will peek at the journal. I like the 'exercise' It is all good. I plan to do much more 'journal' writing. I thank my brother Quill.

I left you all an awesome 'tune' I believe you will be Blessed.So listen up. I love you.

Jesus Loves you.

Skye

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skye2day 3 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

lastheart God Bless you my dear friend for your warm and loving support. You are awesome. A gem in the chest of Gods treasures, indeed. I too look forward to meeting you in eternity. I wrote this so very long ago. Nothing new under the sun. Problems come and go. What is so awesome is Gods promises are the same and never change. Glory to Glory in Christ Jesus. Love and Peace. Your sister, Skye


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Lastheart 3 years ago from Borikén the great land of the valiant and noble Lord

Thanks for sharing your sweet and honest heart. You are in my list of cybernetics being that I want to personally meet.


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skye2day 5 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

hyph love ya sister


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

Praise God in His majesty and grace. The prayers of a faithful wife are never without power.


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skye2day 5 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Hphenbird Sister I just re read the story myself. It seems like so long ago then like yesterday. It has been just over a year David got home.Our lives have grown in Christ together today and it is truly a miracle. David is a new creature in Christ. He is on FIRE for the Lord. I am so grateful I stood my ground and fought and never stopped with the prayers that God would rescue my husband from the ravages of addiction. God is faithful and just to hear. I have tears of joy one because I have a new sister in Christ, Angel Hyph, JK NOT and two because God is so amazing. The heart has healed. It took time but I allowed God to do as He needed so I could care for me when David got home. I pray you and yours are in peace my friend. Love ya, In Christ 'sista'

Sending a hug.


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

Oh skye2day. My heart is so full after reading this. Satan is such a liar and deceives people into falling for his schemes and snares. Even a strong and mature Christian can have one weak moment that leads to devastation. How is David doing now? Your support and love must be a blessing beyond measure for him. He will also be a blessing and bring the Word of God to many who have never heard it. I am feeling this strongly as a prophecy for him. As he serves time for his offense, he gains time in the Kingdom and serves God in that way.

Joy to you in your life and journaling. Hyph


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skye2day 5 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

jjmiles Thank You so much for a touching comment. I know David is delivered. My prayer is HE receives it. I bind the enemy from Him many times. It is Davids choice. I know GOD has made him free from the muddy mire of the hurricane illness that wipes out whatever it can in the path. David may have to choose. Is he ready? I pray IN the name of Jesus he is ready. I don't want to do this again.I think the trust will take time. I hope it is there real soon but we will see. There is no time to mess around. It is late in the game. I am about my fathers Business. DO you understand what I mean? God took it I know it but David has to not be deceived. Like sometimes I will want a smoke. God took it but if and rarely the urge comes I have to rebuke it and claim deliverance and not fall under the devils lie. Just one. I thank GOD and GIVE him all the GLORY You are so precious my brother in Christ. I am so grateful for your prayers and support I really am. Hugs Galore


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jjmyles 5 years ago from Pacific Northwest

Skye my friend, You have shared your deepest pain and you wonderful victory. In doing so you have shared your faith. I have faith that your husband will be delivered from the course of alcoholism. For it is a curse that is visited down to the 3d and 4th generations.God has the amazing power to deliver us from all our destructions.

If in fact, We believe that we have indeed, been redeemed from the curse of the law by the Blood of Jesus, in order that we might be partakers of the 'blessing' of Abraham; which is righteousness, through the indwelling Holy Spirit. This is actually what qualifies us for answered prayer... And it is through faith alone in the redemptive work of Jesus Christ at Calvary That we are delivered from the curse of the law. That includes alcoholism and any other bondage or addiction, sickness, poverty and the second death. Rejoice for our Redemption is here.


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fred allen 6 years ago from Myrtle Beach SC

The fact that you shared so many personal facts says much about who's glory you are interested in. I pray for all who were and are affected by Davids actions. Most of all I pray that you will stay the course as will he when he is released. I pray that because our enemy knows our weakness. I pray that because God loves you dearly. You have been an inspiration to me and I am fervently praying for your strength. God heal the deep wounds that have pierced the heart of this dear one of yours. Let her voice be a light to others who walk in darkness. Let her have the peace that surpasses understanding. I stand with her in the battle. In Jesus' name. Amen


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

heart4theword hello sister You are a shining light in my path. You are exuberant in the love you share. I am so thankful for your heartfelt love sister. You are precious. Christ has used you to help hold me up God is so cool. I love you. Hugs Galore. ALL GLORY TO GOD heart!!


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heart4theword 6 years ago from hub

Skye, you are so awesome! What strength God gives you:) I pray your day of welcoming David home, is quite the celebration...that many blessings would be bestowed upon you and your love. Appreciate your heartfelt words and the true transparency you share. Hang in there, not much longer till your day is here, your time of loneliness will be restored! To God Be The Glory, Sister:)


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Unchained Grace Amen Brother. So nice to hear from you. You are right as Paul says keep pressing on towards the mark.. Many Blessings unchained. Love, your 'sista' in Christ (mekenzies nuggets) 'Preach it bro'

Tamarajo, Walks are awesome, In the still I can hear. I pray your son calls on the Lord. How wonderful that you can be a light that shines on his path. Praise God. I do lift your son in prayer.

Thank you for your visit. It is always a pleasure to hear from you. Hugs Galore Tamarajo. Your sister in Christ. (-;


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Unchained Grace 6 years ago from Baltimore, MD

With all these tremendous comments of support and admiration, I have just this to add. The battle is short though the victory is long. Take it from the Pit to the palace and like Pastor C will tell ya, "You'll break out of that thing!" Praise the Lord!


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Tamarajo 6 years ago from Southern Minnesota

walks are wonderful aren't they? I can hear Him too and feel His presence more keenly when I walk.

Addiction is so ugly. It takes the nicest of people and distorts the image of God in them. I have a son who is sweet and thoughtful when not bowing to His addictions but it is polar opposite when it has taken over. And I guess I can think back to my own bondages in life and how they took over and made me into something else.

What a blessing to hang in there trusting the Lord with it all. He is faithful.

nice memoirs.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

cristina327 Hello sister. I am grateful you made it over for the read. You my friend are a precious sight in so many eyes. The LORD uses you in a mighty way. I am grateful to HIM for knowing you. You keep pressing on sister. You are a woman of valor. GLORY to GOD I love you


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Justcallmeleroy WOW thank your for sharing, ALL is good Brother. God has Blessed me in amazing ways and this is time for a much deeper walk with HIM I am grateful and content. God is SO GOOD He pulled David from the pits and has so much in store for HIM I am standing on the promises of Christ. HE has 3,000. There is no shortage. I will not let the enemy have his way he is doomed to HELL and knows it. THE SAVIOR defeated him fo US. Praise God.

Your story is a huge testimony of hope. I am so grateful we met. By the way you are 'featured' in my story 'celebrating the hubs' Yep you are in it, so go and click on the tune, kick back, read and enjoy. I love you broher in Christ. GLory BE!!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Lady_E sister hello. I love hearing form you hp angel!! You know what? I have the peace of God that surpasses all understanding. God has opened doors for me that are truly amazing. He has given me this time to walk deeper with him. David is going to come home a MIGHTY warrior for Christ. Today I can realate to Paul. 'I have learned to be content'. God is shining his Glory. My feelings change from moment to moment. I stand on his promises. He has 3,000. SO it is sad but it is ALL GOOD because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I love you lady_E. I will be over soon to see what shines on your hubs of love. Hugs Galore.


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Lady_E 6 years ago from London, UK

Sorry to hear about your Husband. May God's peace comfort you at this time. It's a dark time and I pray you both find the inner strength to get through it. Take Care, E.


Justcallmeleroy 6 years ago

Sky2day, I have spent a few nights in Jail for drinking and driving and drugs and driving. But I am thankful they were many many many years apart. The DUI was the most recent about 5 years ago. It was hard to come back but the Lord was there for me. You see I was walking in life knowing Him but not within His Will. I was doing my own thing thinking I was a kid again. Looking for something to make everything good but the only thing that could do that was to get back to Jesus. So So many times in my life He was there for me when I was not even paying attention to Him. But Praise be to God He did not give up on this no good for nothing man. He will keep you and when you smile or cry give thanks to Him. For like the Bible and the song says "All things work

together for my Good". You will be in my thoughts and prayers and just think about how many people will be praying for you. Listen I do not know your name but God Knows every hair on your head. Amen Sky keep your eyes on Him you have done good so far. Keep pressing toward that mark. As Paul spoke about. God Bless you and Keep you. Amen


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cristina327 6 years ago from Manila

Great hub. What a great testimony of faith and dependence on God. Skye2day I admire your faith in God. What a great faith you have. You are also a great wife to your husband David. I admire your faithfulness to him.Surely the Lord will bless you for your great faith in Him. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. Remain blessed always. Best regards.


skye 6 years ago

Dr. Cherie, Hello sister, I am Blessed you landed on my page. I do not think your message is an error. I was to hear. OH yes I have changed. When I asked the Lord into my heart many years ago it has been a new life. I am a new creature. It is not always easy but GOD promises his children he will never leave nor forsake us. He can turm all things for good for those that love HIM.

If this testimony can plant seeds or encourage one person to reach out to the Living God who is the way truth and life GLory to the Father. He has stirred my hert to share. God has an amazing delivery system. Cyberspace covers all the corners the world. GO is so amazing and cool. I am honored to share but for the Grace of God go I sister.

To meet a new sis in Christ is a Blessing Galore. HUGS to you. I will come over for a read, soon. Many Blessing Dr. Cherie.


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Dr. Cherie 6 years ago from Hamburg, NY

Dear skye

I am so honored that you shared your pain with us. My heart does go out to you and David. I do know that God steers us in the direction best for us on our spiritual paths, even when it hurts. One day you will look back and understand and be glad. I believe that our lessons in this life are commensurate with our spiritual evolution. In other words, your heart and belief are strong and this will be the best for you both. You already have changed by sharing your heart, belief and pain, with strangers. Many people will be helped by your experience. You will receive healing from the love and respect from others.

I send you blessings and prayers for peace in your mind and love in your hearts.

God bless you and keep His light around you. You are never alone. Jesus said we cannot get rid of the Father even if we tried.

Thank you for sharing. You are most generous.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

drpastorcarlotta Thanks sister for coming over, sharing your story and your prayers. You have come a long way baby. May the LORD continue to shine his face on you.

God is true and 'can turn all things for the GOOD for those that love him' Allelulia sister. You made a choice for Christ and to be obiedient to his desire for your life and HIS GLORY You are awesome You have great faith and courage and I know you give GOD the praise.

I pray David does come home a MIGHTY Warrior for Christ. I know it is in him. I pray I had peace about it. I guess I heard so many times and saw him so close to the Lord. THEN he fell. He spent 13 years in the AA rooms sober and shared the love of Jesus Christ in Bible studies he held.

God goes after his SHEEP, there is a reason David is with us and me and you. FOR the grace of GOD go I. Why some make it back and others do not I do not know.

I must be about my FATHERS business. THe enemy can stay out I wear the armor of GOD. SATAN IS already DEFEATED by our Jesus Christ. I stand on the LIVING word. THank you, thank you for your inspiration. I need your prayers sister.

Peace, love and victory in Christ. Keep 'preachin it sista' (as mekenzie would say) ( - ;

I LOVE U


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drpastorcarlotta 6 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

Sweetheart I feel you. Let me share something with you. I served time in prison for a crime I did not commit, but my life wasn't being an angel. I was drinking and druging like crazy! Jail was the whale that brought me back to my senses. God allowed that incidence to happen to me because He knew I would straighten out. He dealt with me one on one and I will tell anyone that going to prison saved my life! I took some sour lemons that was dealt to me and made lemon aide out of them! When I was released, I went on to become a Pastor/Dr. and I haven't looked back. Tell your husband to take this time to get closer to God and himself following up with some AA meetings when released and further help if needed. God is trying to reach Him. Much love and prayers to you and your husband.


tinamarie9884 6 years ago

It is a great feeling to know that we have GOD on our side. I know GOD will continue to be right where you want him.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

mekenzie Not to worry!!!! You are a woman of valor and faith. We are so Blessed we know the Christ he is the way truth and life. He will see us through. SO You child of God stand on his promises You can take your pick of 3,000 No stinkin thinkin tee hee Enjoy the rays of God soaking your body today Love and Hugs


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Mekenzie 6 years ago from Michigan

Skye, you are so stinkin' sweet .. ((wink)) There is not much shining on my pages of late .. no time to write .. life is keeping me very busy.. Most recent - Hubby's mom has had a mild heart attack - confusion and frustration are her lot. Trying to keep her out of level 3 .. not a happy place. :( God is helping me process and keep focused through the journaling.

I love you sister skye .. we will get through this with HIS unfailing love and strength! After the clouds and the storms comes the rainbow.

Thanks for your sweet words of encouragement .. I'm basking in them right now. :0)


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

mekenzie you 'keep preachin it sista' Your words still make my heart sing in joy. You are too funny.You are such a love of loves. It ain't always easy girlfriend but we do not need to act on feelings. Hey?? Journal writing is so helpful, I knew that for years yet this 'strong head' tried other ways of release. Oh silly me.

I am so thankful for you. I do pray you and yours are in a 'good place' God will provide. Stand on his words sista. Keep on because he has put you here for a reason. You are so loved by HIM and many others. Me included.

I love to hear from you. I must get over to see what glows on your pages sista. You give hope and share hope. God smiles on his mekenzie.


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Mekenzie 6 years ago from Michigan

Skye, love your transparent heart and love your true stories of your journey with Jesus. Your David is so blessed to have a faithful wife believing in him and the God who loves him more than anyone ever could. David is being used of God is he not? WOW!

I read Quill's Hub on journaling too skye and it rang so true that I began to practice it that very day. It helped get me 'unstuck' and I was STUCK! Isn't God GOOD!

Praying for you Sista' knowing that God is at work in your very beautiful heart.

Hugs and Lots of Love,

Mekenzie


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matt6v33 6 years ago from Bangkok, Thailand

"Ditto" My Help-meet, in Him!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

matt6v33 You are too funny. Yes you make my heart smile. Love it. God is so amazing he put you on this path and we met like this. He is cool. Keep on my friend as you touch so many hearts with the tender loving Spirit in you. You share wisdom and truth and it is a Blessing Indeed. Injoy this day the Lord has made. Love ya.

Hugs Galore.


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matt6v33 6 years ago from Bangkok, Thailand

young lady; u r killing me! :)

ref "complete. Without IAM nothing will complete us. I remember many years ago seeing the movie with Tom Cruise. He told his girl 'she' completed him. It made sense at the time but today I would have to say

Jesus completes me you are part of the story now are you going to marry me so two can be one. tee he. Kidding. It is true. I am off my rocker today:

Well guess what missy? i too must be off my rocker today, as well! view my profile (Marriage Status) on this site, hope u will be sitting down, when u view it! :)

Trying to make u smile! Hope it worked! :)


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bayoulady 6 years ago from Northern Louisiana,USA

Thank you, and you get some rest!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

bayoulady sister Hello. Blessings. It is so nice to hear from you. You are so precious in his sight. Mine too!!

You know I am led sweet one. A story from the heart is real. I pray others can relate and the ones that need to will be led here. I am humbled sister. It is not easy spilling out the heartache but it is for GOD. That makes it worth it. He is so good and Blesses me so Big. I am a walking miracle. This is the least I can do. You know it is easier writing then standing and sharing. I have shared my testimony for many years in AA but GOD is reaching millions through cyberspace. You know the profits at the end of the days. They lie on the street for 3 days and all the world will see. Then they are raised fromthe dead and lifted to heaven. God knew we would have technology so all would know and see the truth. I am tired tonight rambling. I so love ya sister. I have read some of your works and intend to read much more. You are a power house of truth and love. You inspire and encourage God has given you this beautiful gift. Many have a hard time with that. Hugs galore sista


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bayoulady 6 years ago from Northern Louisiana,USA

skye2day, Wonderful that you are sharing in your hubs this hard journey and WHO is holding you through it. I believe you are indeed encouraging others in the same situation to press on, and trust in His love and provision. God bless you!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Dave Mathews I like that brother. 'God has a way of massaging the aches and pains' Right on. He does have an amazing system. Thank you for coming over. You are so right with your wisdom bro. This is a special time of walking with Christ. He is so awesome. What a partner In Christ we have. I wrote a hub, 'celebrating the journey' You are featured in the story. Did you read?? If not go over click on the tune, kick up your heels, relax and read. Love you brother. Hugs to you and yours.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

matt6v33 Hello brother. Helpmeet. God is so cool. You inspire me to keep on and I am so grateful. I will Press on brother. There is much work to do for the Lord. He has Blessed me with this time to write for HIM. That is my hearts desire. So many are hurting bro, it makes me feel sad. I am so grateful because knowing Jesus is a walk that is joy complete. Without IAM nothing will complete us. I remember many years ago seeing the movie with Tom Cruise. He told his girl 'she' completed him. It made sense at the time but today I would have to say

Jesus completes me you are part of the story now are you going to marry me so two can be one. tee he. Kidding. It is true. I am off my rocker today. No I am good. I am free in Jesus. I know all is well. There is much to do for him. I am about my fathers business. Christ gave me this time to walk deeper with HIM in His knowledge. Alleluia my Friend and helpmeet too. I love ya Hugs to you. I am going to your blog today. I tried last night but was so tired the words were blurry. I think it was a message to shut them and slumber. ( - ; Your writing is moving!! GLory to God.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Tracy711 Sister Bless you my darling Friend in Christ for your works of tender care,compassion and wisdom. You have truly touched my heart. The Spirit moves in you and smiles on me. I am so grateful you came over for a visit. I needed to hear each word today. God is so cool. I love you and we both know God put us together for a reason. I wrote a hub celebrating the journey, you are featured in the story. I thought I left you a message. If not go over and read. Click on the tunes, kick back take 5 and read. Be in touch, me too. I pray this finds you 'all is well' Hugs Galore tracy711 You are priceless.


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Dave Mathews 6 years ago from NORTH YORK,ONTARIO,CANADA

skye2day: God has a special way of massaging away the aches and pains that we suffer through times like this, when loved ones are ripped away from us, to correct something that was not able to be corrected while you and your husband were together. God has work to do with both you and your husband, and sometimes he has to do it by seperating two as one. God I'm sure is working in both of you to build you both up to better serve Him through your marriage. God will never give up.

Brother Dave.


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Tracy711 6 years ago

Sky,,my dear friend..I don't know where to begin..I have lost many friends and family to this dreadful illness..so I know how it takes hold and doesn't let you go..but if you know God it does not stand a chance..I am so sorry that your husband is not with you at this time..but I think it's now that you will become stronger than you already are...you will have more time to focus on God and strengthen your relationship with him even more than you already have..you see you don't have to worry about your husband drinking any more and although he is in jail..he will be safe there from his illness..I think maybe God will strengthen both of you..I'm sure when he comes home he will need you to be the strong intelligent woman that you are already ..but with an even stronger grip on your relationship with God...this time is good for planning and reflecting on you and what you want to do for God..you don't have time to be lonely ..there is much to do and now you have the time you need..people need to hear you and you need to write..there are millions of people who don't even know God but through your writing they can experience his love..I guess he sent me to tell you that in the end it will all be for good..I know when I need to feel his spirit and I feel tired and weak I come to you and you always fill my heart with his love and for that I am very very thankful..your husband is in jail yes..and you will miss him ..but you are not the one who is locked up..you have work to do my sweet friend..and now more than ever God will be with you day and night to guide you and help you..so don't feel lonely because you are not alone..and also I am always here and will always be..I love you my dear sister..keep the faith ,stay strong for God and always keep smiling because if he lives in your heart ..there should be joy shining through in your smile..God bless you ..I'll be praying for you :o)


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Raymond Tremain 6 years ago from Metro Manila Philippines

Skye you are one of the most wonderful persons that I have ever come across. your words are full of love for God and there is no stopping you from being the person that you are.

You are truely blessed with the love of our Lord.

Yes there are many times when we feel lonely for our loved one.

But we know that our most wonderful friend that we have with Jesus he will never let us go astray he is always there to guide us back to his comforting arms.

Here is a prayer for you Skye,

"Lord, I worship you for all that you are, you are my Lord in the good times as well as the difficult, on the mountain top as well as in the valley, I praise you in times of great blessing as well as in times of great challenge, it is because of you that I can stand strong, even when I feel weak. For I know that when I am weakest, you show yourself strong, I am greatful for your salvation, delieverance,protection, goodness, and blessings in my life every day, I know that everything I have comes from you.Because of your great strength I go from glory to glory and strength to strength no matter what is happening in my life, Amen." Psalm 84:7

God loves you

Ramon xo


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Darlene Sabella 6 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

A very thought provoking hub, I to came from the same back ground, now I don't like to have this infuence in my life. Your writing has such a great flow, thank you for sharing...


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Judicastro 6 years ago from birmingham, Alabama

Skye after receiving your email about your upcoming hub of revelation I began watching for it. It moved me dear sister. Thanks for being so transparent in your sharing with us. You are precious and I look forward to getting to know you better.


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lifegate 6 years ago from Pleasant Gap, PA

Skye, Thanks for the honesty, hope, and faith. A life lived for Christ speaks louder than words--and I heard you clearly. Thanks for sharing.


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breakfastpop 6 years ago

Sharing your painful story is a very brave thing to do. You are in my thoughts and prayers. My mother used to say, "This too shall pass". Words to help get you through the days.


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MartieCoetser 6 years ago from South Africa

Sky2day – you will never stop to amaze me. Your personal experience – the fact that you know by heart how it feels to replace drugs and alcohol with Christ – makes you a shining diamond with brilliant points, cut and polished by Life (God). I can’t ask God to bless you, because He is already doing it. I can but only thank him for showing me you – a perfect example of a woman blessed by Him. For blessing are not material stuff and heavenly situations; it is faith, love, hope and all those fruit of the Holy Spirit - mercifulness, kindness, humbleness, meekness, longsuffering, ability to forbear and to forgive... God truly shines in your beautiful blue eyes. (I like that picture of you!) It’s almost November. In the meantime, enjoy all the GODLY comforts meant for us who are single. Use all the hot water in the tank, eat whatever you like whenever you want, sleep whenever you want, don’t wash the dishes, hide it, visit your friends and family and forget about time... Love you! And yes, tell David I keep him in my prayers. He is, for sure, in a place none of us would like to be. My God keep him safe and sound.


His daughter 6 years ago

Sky2day: I admire you for sharing your heart. As I read your account, my thought went to how the Lord promises to use everything for good to those who love Him. The experience you and your husband are walking through right now can become your strengths and I'm sure many others walking this path can find strength and encouragement in what you are walking through. I thought of the song by Matt Redman...Oh no, You never let go through the storm. He promsies to be with us and never to leave or forsake us. I encourage you to cling closely to Him and allow this to be a real growing time in your relationship with your Father.

I pray that healing will come for you and your husband...emotionally and spiritually. I'm sure that you will find that healing as you share from your heart. I encourage you to be journaling during this time...your thoughts, promises you read in God's Word and what God is doing in the process.

Blessings to you and may you soon come out on the other side victorious!


coffeesnob 6 years ago

Skye

I love your heart and your strength. I know that God is working in and through you and will accomplish so much more than you ever hoped or imagined. You are indeed special and loved by the Father. Have you ever heard of the book by Louie Giglio called, "I Am Not, but I know I Am" It is an easy and inspiring read. I thought of this book a couple of times while reading your hub. Mostly because in his book he talks about how we tend to think of all this that we live as our story when in reality it is God's story. When we begin to see our lives and being lived out in God's story it changes out perspective. As I read I thought, "Skye is living God's story" Oh press on and keep doing this...

it shows that you know the great "I Am"

love you

CS


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Putz Ballard 6 years ago

Truly inspirational. God bless you.


"Quill" 6 years ago

Hi my dear and wonderful friend, do you have any idea how much the Father loves you and your heart. I so admire the way you simply lay it out so smoothly and effectively for us all to understand where you are speaking from.

The cost of addictions are high, they do rob, steal and destroy, the numbers are staggering and yet Christ is all that is needed.

My prayer is for David as well as the lady at his side, you are both blessed to have each other and Christ. The battle I fought to walk away from alcohol was a battle I fought alone as I knew of God but had no relationship. The things I saw the first few months no person should ever need to experience. It was only time which has allowed me to say I have been sober for 35 years now. God bless you for your sobriety.

What you write is what the Father wants spoken, as you write you are cleansed, as you write another will see the struggles and walk away from addictions. Write sister and write from the heart.

Your journals will someday provide you with much peace, much reference and yes much healing. Know that you are loved.

Blessings and Hugs


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Healing Touch 6 years ago from Minnetonka, MN

God is so amazing and always knows what we need and when. We all have our differen't struggles on this earth and I commend you for seeing Christ in your pain. I have found that it is those toughest times in my life(and there have been many) that I learn the most about myself and Christ. Christ always has a plan in mind we may not see, but as I look back after illness or suffering, I see what I needed to learn from it and how it has changed me for the better. My support and prayers are with you and your husband. I am sure after he gets out of jail that God has great plans for both of you. God bless you both.


Wealthmadehealthy 6 years ago

Psalms 29 and 30..........May you have a blessed day...everything will be a-ok....when God stands with you, noone can be against you.....puttin on my travelin shoes sis....God keep you safe til I get back....


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anonimuzz 6 years ago from There

A very long read, but a well written one. I like the way you describe several things at once, blending them nicely and not getting confusing. Throughout this hub, I was able to know how was the walk with the dogs around the canal (the oldest, having 16 years old, must be a tough dog, still capable of playing and running at that age), how much you hold on to your beliefs and like to share them, how you feel about the situation your husband David is going through, especially considering your own personal problems with the same addiction he has, how you use writing, which is for you a newly discovered talent, to free your mind of all the worries, how the other hubbers help you change your views on things and put you further away of the dark place your thoughts sometimes try to lead you to, and so on. I don't know you, and I can't relate to your problems as I would if you were a friend or a relative, but I do wish things get better for you. In the meantime, keep that positive mind set, because it's one of the few things no one can really take away from us. Oh, and keep petting your dogs, hehe, because they seem very nice and friendly.


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matt6v33 6 years ago from Bangkok, Thailand

My Cherish Friend, Sister In Christ!

Praying For You!

Hang in there! U R Wise, Very Wise, on those things, that really matter in this temp life, we've been blessed to experince. Remember my dear, we have been blessed with the Power to Choose our own thoughts by Him, Use that to your advantage, during your down times, place that kind gentle loving careing heart and thoughts, on the things above, during those times, for there as u well know my dear, u will gain a sense of inner peace, and inner comfort, along with additional knowledge and wisdom, for He says So! So i pray u will apply all of your knowledge and wisdom, for self preservation.

I've just completed a series on my blog site, on "Feelings" perhaps, u may gain from it, i pray so!

http://matt6v33-isthebiblefromgodormen.blogspot.co...

Thinking of u, praying for you, and too, asking these ppl here in this country,(South Korea) to add u to there prayers, have mentioned you, in my last sermons, to this part of the world, just so u know! Now There! Hang in there missy, hang in there, keep going, keep writing, u r making a difference in this World, to oh so many, I tell u for sure! Keep Going! Phil 4:13 & Matt6v 19-34!

My help-meet, during times, such as you've shared. "Off the Record"! :)

Love U!

Just Me!

jim


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Rev Lady My first reader I just finisnhed the hub. I love you sister. You are so precious. You lift and inspire. My tears now are joy. I am so grateful for all the bros and sista's God has Blessed me with. God is so cool. He pours out his signs of love all the time. We just need to look, they are everywhere. It seems more and more all the time. I think because I seek him more and more all the time. Hugs precious Child of God.


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RevLady 6 years ago from Lantana, Florida

skye2day,

Thank you for sharing what is on your heart and in your soul. As I read of your experience, I thought of suffering humanity. So many of our experiences are common and yet unique in feelings, response and degree of pain. I admire your determination and honesty and I sense your yearning for your husband for you are one. I care.

It must have been a deeply emotional experience to visit your husband in jail and yet, you did and got through it. "And God said, it is good."

"All I know know is God is Glory. He is the one and only way to freedom. If we get in pain, he will lift us up and out to healing. If we were never in pain we would not need to call on HIM. One day there will be no more pain, no Dur's, no jail cells, no tears, no illness, no starving. Today God will get us through. Just do no give up or give in. Get up and help God out. DO something for him. Anything. Sing to him, talk to him, smile at someone, give the guy on the corner a ten dollar bill. He will Bless you for trying.Plant seeds. Seeds grow." AMEN! AMEN! ALL GLORY TO GOD!!

Sometimes we fail to notice all the victories we experience on a daily basis. They are small victories, but victories nevertheless. When you are able to affirm love in the midst of your own suffering, that is a victory. Sometimes, it is when you have gotten off your knees from a fervent prayer KNOWING God has heard your cry; that is a victory.

I rejoice in your victory!

Love, peace and joy dear friend,

Forever His,

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