I Do Not Know How To Praise God

I don't know how to

Have you every gone to someone for ministry and come away feeling worse than when you went in? Well I have.

At this point in my life I had been a Christian for some years, but I was having problems with praise. I didn’t know how to praise, I would try as hard as I could, but I just wouldn’t know what to say.

I would watch as people around me in the worship time would raise their hands and worship. Praise seemingly would just effortlessly pour out of their mouths. How come they could just do this? Where did they get the words?

Every time the worship was really special and everyone would be seemly transported. I would be left behind, just feeling lost and not knowing what to do, or how to do it. And guess what, I didn’t like it one bit.

It used to get right up my nose, ( it used to upset me) that they could praise God and I couldn’t. If I’m honest with you, not only was I upset because I couldn’t, my pride was hurt because they could.

Just a little bit of Spiritual Pride

No doubt from this you can tell that I was also having a bit of a problem with spiritual pride as well. I thought I knew as much if not more than some of them. Yet here I was in the area of praise lacking in both understanding and ability.

How come these people, who didn’t seem to know as much as me could praise God and I couldn’t? I should have read the Good Book a bit more carefully. Then at least I would have known the reasons for some of my problems without going to the minister.

Psalms 12:3 The LORD shall cut off all flattering lips, and the tongue that speaketh proud things:

Time for Ministry

Well one day, it got to the point that I had really had enough of this. I wanted some answers so I went to see my minister.

I told her that I was having problems in the area of praise. I told her how I just couldn’t do it. Then one of the elders of the church arrived oh just perfect I thought. He had just dropped in for a coffee on his way back from a meeting. Well he joined us and I told him also what my problem was.

I felt like everybody was going to know my business soon, and my pride was beginning to show. The three of us began to pray and first one said that God had showed them that it wasn’t that I couldn’t but that I wouldn’t.

Then the other one said exactly the same. So now I had the problem of not being able to praise and on top of that problem I now had two people who didn't believe me. This was just getting better and better.

They both thought that I could but that I wouldn’t. So slowly and as gently as I could, I began all over again to explain to them both. In other words with more than a hint of sarcasm. I explained, that I really wanted to and that it wasn’t because I didn’t want to, it was because I couldn’t.

I felt Worse After Ministry than I did Before


Well I thought that would settle it, but I was wrong. They both kept telling me that God had shown them that it wasn’t because I couldn’t, but because I wouldn’t.

Well by now you just have to know that I was not happy little bunny at all. In fact I felt much worse than I did before I came.

After all when I came I only had the one problem, which was that I couldn’t praise, and now here I was with two problems. I still couldn’t praise and on top of that I couldn’t make myself understood by these two.

I was not a happy person. After a little more going to and fro from can’t to won’t I finally had enough.

"Thanks very much that’s been really helpful" I said with more than a little bad grace and just a hint of sarcasm.

They both, with much more grace bid me goodnight. At this time my husband was not a believer, and God was certainly not a topic of conversation in our home. So I had no one at home to talk to about this.

I returned home frustrated angry and upset. I let my husband go to bed and I stayed down stairs on my own. I wanted to cool down, I knew that I would never sleep feeling like this.

Don't You Understand I Can't

It is not that I won't, I can't, I can't why won't anyone listen....
It is not that I won't, I can't, I can't why won't anyone listen....

No one Understands me

After a while I began to pray. I felt like no one understood me, not even God.

I truly felt and believed that I could not praise and I felt it very unfair of them and God to say that I could.

Well with a stinking attitude, which at this time in my life I am sad to say I was more than familiar with, I began. I know I can already hear you saying this not a good start.

I began to thank God for being able to praise Him. I said this with much sarcasm and a hint of sneering. It went something like

"Oh thank you so much God that I can praise you" and "thank you so much that I have no problem praising you."

I continued in this vein "It is so wonderful that I can do it whenever I like, I am so glad, thank you very much."

It was clear that I was angry hurt and upset. On I went "Oh and thank you for your ministers who can see things so clearly, and know me better than I do."

I was Wrong

It was as I was going on talking to God in this vein that the weirdest thing began to happen. My sarcasm began to become real praise, I started somehow to mean the things I was saying.

My thanks and praise began to flow out of my mouth and my heart began to overflow. Those things that I began saying in sarcasm and which when I began I really didn’t believe, were true.

I now began to say them in earnest and to see them to be gloriously true.

So, guess what? God and the other two were right and I was wrong. I could praise.

I spent the next two or three hours just praising God, and the more I praised him, the more I found that I had to praise him for.

One of the consequences of this is that I have stopped judging other people. I have stopped having an opinion on their relationship with God.

After all I found that I wasn’t even right about my own condition, never mind anyone else’s.

God was so gracious that night in his treatment of me and so were his ministers. But then again that’s His way, and praise God He is at work in me to make it my way to.

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bayareagreatthing 7 years ago from Bay Area California

AWESOME! God is so kind to us. He is so patient. Even when we are suffering from being "human" he brings us around. I am happy for you that you made the connection with Him. Just awesome- i love to hear it when people meet God in such life giving ways. Thanks for an uplifting story dear sister in the Lord.


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

thanks bayareagreatthing for your kind words and encouragement.


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broussardleslie 7 years ago

How great is our God?! That's really cool that He worked that issue out so quickly. It really could have planted a seed of bitterness in you. He is so merciful and beautiful.

Thank you for this story that reminds all of us just how great our God is.

Blessings,

Leslie


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Leslie you are so right our God is really great, He is never overwhelmed by our problems and no matter how flaky and bad our behaviour His love for us stays unchanged it is always total and unconditional


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broussardleslie 7 years ago

There, see, you just praised Him ;)


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

you are so quick lol I have no problem now with this


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James A Watkins 7 years ago from Chicago

Thank you for this fine piece of work. I enjoyed it very much. Welcome to the Hub Pages Community!


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Allan McGregor 7 years ago from South Lanarkshire

Now you're talking! That was a great hub.

In John 4:21-22 (Jesus’ famous encounter with the Samaritan woman at the well) ‘Jesus said to her, “Woman, believe Me that an hour is coming when you will worship the Father neither in this mountain nor in Jerusalem. You worship what you do not know; we worship what we know, for salvation is of the Jews. But an hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth. For the Father also seeks such, the ones worshiping Him. God is a spirit, and the ones worshiping Him must worship in spirit and truth.”

‘The woman said to Him, “I know that Messiah is coming, the One called Christ. When that One comes, He will announce to us all things.”

‘Jesus said to her, “I AM! the One speaking to you.”

Then, in 2 Chronicles 20, when King Jehoshaphat faced three enemy nations coming against Judah, he addressed the people in verses 17-21:

“You shall not fight in this: station yourselves; stand and see the salvation of Jehovah with you, O Judah and Jerusalem; do not be terrified nor fear; tomorrow go out before them, and Yahweh shall be with you.” And Jehoshaphat bowed his nose to the earth, and all Judah and the ones living in Jerusalem fell down before Yahweh, to bow themselves to Yahweh. And the Levites, of the sons of the Kohathites, and of the sons of the Korahites, rose to give praise to Yahweh the God of Israel with a loud voice on high. And they rose early in the morning and went out to the wilderness of Tekoa; and as they went out Jehoshaphat stood and said, “Hear me, O Judah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem. Trust in Yahweh, stand firm; trust in His prophets and prosper.” And he consulted with the people, and appointed singers to Yahweh, and those giving praise to the glory of holiness, when going out before those armed, and said, “Give thanks to Yahweh, for his mercy endures forever.”

When they got there, Judah’s enemies had already destroyed one another. Why? Because when we focus on God rather than our problems, he is glorified and comes to our aid.

Whenever we express a good opinion of God, the Bible calls that giving him glory. When we glorify him we exercise faith. When we exercise faith we walk in the Spirit. And when we walk in the Spirit we please the Father.


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Allan McGregor 7 years ago from South Lanarkshire

P.S. - God inhabits the praises of his people.

(Psalm 22:3)


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anglnflt4ua 7 years ago from Bay Area, CA

Beautifully written and a "praise" to God in and of itself. "...the more I praised him, the more I found that I had to praise him for." So True!


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Thanks for your welcome to hubpages, it is such a friendly place and thanks for the encouraging comments they are much appreciated.


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Hi Allan thank you for your comments God certainly does inhabit the praises of His people.


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

hi anginflt4ua thanks so much for your kind comments they are a real encouragement


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Born Again 05 7 years ago from Honesdale

Whenever we are faced with a problem taking it to God in prayer is the only solution! Praise God for His faithfulness to those that love Him! This is a great testimony to how He works in the heart of the believer. Welcome to HP! I'm signing on as a fan. Hope you'll stop by sometime.


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berghianl 7 years ago from Bonham, Texas

thank you so much for being open about your experience!!!

what I have learned is that we humans are not only unable to praise God but also that God is the one who invites us and provides the basis for our praise!!!!

God BLess!!!!


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Born Again thanks for your kind comments I stopped by and became a fan


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

berghiani thank you so much for your kind comments and the blessing both are much apreciated


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marygarrison 7 years ago

Thank you for sharing your heart. I enjoyed reading about your experiences.


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Thank you for your kind comments I very much enjoyed my visit to your hubs also.


ralwus 7 years ago

With every giggle and smile, with every act of love and kindness is god's praise. Cheers now


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Thanks Ralwus for the loving kindness you show on hubpages comments and the forums


ralwus 7 years ago

Aww shucks, go on now. and on and on, LOL thanks hun.


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jesusmyjoy 7 years ago from Bucyrus Ohio

i love this thank you


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By Grace 7 7 years ago Author

Ralwus thanks again you are a real encourager and I appreciate that very much.

Jesusmyjoy thank you for your kind comment


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 6 years ago

By Grace 7,

Thank you for sharing so openly and honestly. I am sure many will be helped by this.

PRAISE is a very personal expression. It is important that it comes from within. Often poeple do what they feel others expect of them outwardly. As you discovered there are endlesss things to PRAISE God about!

It is your sincere PRAISE that He wants! The "true worshippers worship Him in Spirit and in TRUTH."

Again Thank You!

Blessings!


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By Grace 7 6 years ago Author

DeBorrah you are such an encourager, it does my heart good to see your name and your comments on my hubs, thank you so much I appreciate it very much.


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Enlydia Listener 6 years ago from trailer in the country

I loved the progression in how you told this story...Isn't is cool that even when you go to Him with your complaints, that He listens and helps us.


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By Grace 7 6 years ago Author

I think that everything He does is really cool, praise God I have never got what I deserved from God instead I have been touched by God's Grace all my life. It is wonderful to think that He still extends His Grace to me in spite of all the things I have done wrong.


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Mekenzie 6 years ago from Michigan

I am not surprised to read that you have been touched by God all of your life. It is clearly seen through your writings. I hope you start writing again By Grace .. You are gifted by God as a communicater!

Blessings!

Mekenzie


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By Grace 7 6 years ago Author

Thank you Mekenzie for your kind and encouraging words, I think that you are right I need to give this site a little more attention.

I think that I have let some of my pleasures have my time at the expense of sharing some of the ways that God has blessed me and I need to apply a little self discipline. Lol.. Good job that is one of the fruits of the Spirit or I would be really in trouble.

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