Jumping off the Self-discovery Cliff

Are you your own devil?

Many of us have read through countless books on how to recover from any monsters that have devoured you. We have stacked our homes with books, overloaded our Tablets with endless titles on self-esteem, law of attraction and the many titles that flag us down, claiming that they can help us. I have also walked this jungle path to self-discovery, and fell off the cliff. Trying to find myself, through so many different methods, only invited the gales of wind that finally caused me to lose my footing.

The fall from the cliff

The wind sneaked up behind me and gave a boisterous shove, causing me to lose my footing in the world that I always perceived as against me. My self-identity was corroded and my own coding of all the shoulds within me short circuited. Falling from the cliff, pieces of my warped identity began to fall from me, leaving only one perspicacity. I am! It is up to me to add another word after that or not. My reality is what I am choosing. My self- worth is what I am claiming. My beliefs are what I am choosing. As I continued to fall from the cliff, all that was attached to my own I am fell off me. When I landed, all that I knew was I am.

Landing on solid ground

As you fall from this cliff of false identities, you are position into your I AM. It is what you add to that upon landing that you become. The I Am only knows to follow your dictates. The solid ground is a blank slate. This slate is given to you each morning when you awaken from your dreaming time. What words do you add to your I Am? This is well worth paying attention too, because it is your thoughts that will direct your day and days. You though are welcome to jump from that cliff and begin a clean slate at any moment, for your life is not govern by time principles, unless you believe they are. You can shift your mind, and wipe out the slate you are creating as fast as it takes to bat your eyelashes.

I am stopping this creation

Your creation is in your hands. The key is being attentive to the words you align with your I am. For the majority of us, stopping our own creation is an alien thought. We look outside ourselves for someone or something to pull us out of our nightmare. Years go by with false starts of a new creation, because someone or something lets go of our hand. Something is not holding us up any more, and our I Am speaks in tones of helpless, wounded, no -good and this list is infinite. How many times have you attempted to set your savior in a person, place or thing? With each attempt how often did you crash head-on?

I am my own savior

Our I Am is equal to how we perceive ourselves. The notion of being alert to your inner chattering of descriptive words does work well when we decide to rescue ourselves. How can a person expect to be their own savior, when their I Am is always in accusatory mode of others and themselves? This mode will only create more upheaval in the daily life. Will you permit your being to live in drama daily? If your life is chaotic, it is because you are not your own savior. You have become your own devil.

The illusion of self-identity

We are! Whatever you wish to believe your self-identity is, it is responsibly put in your hand by the I Am. It cannot do differently. It follows your direction, which is those constant emotional thoughts that you give it. You are feeding your I Am. Your self-identity could be an illusion.

My fall

I Am is powerful. It took me a full year to grasp how powerful these two words are. In any given day, I am cleaning my slate off, to start over. This can occur often just within one day. It is worth it for me, because only I can save me. It takes a lot of focus energy to accomplish this, and often halting my train of thoughts missed the mark. I just become persistent in choosing words for my I Am. I dress, feed, maintain, house, create, play and love daily, in the manner of expression I want to experience. This all materialized through my own declaration of what I decided my I Am to be. I am the parent of my I Am. I am a wonderfully creative and protective parent of me. I am protective in not permitting others or myself to degrade me, bully me or any other expressions that pings me.

My year of putting all my effort of creating a happier I Am is soon coming to a close. As I look back the road to here was well worth my creating it. As I created a happier space for my I Am, my world changed to match. I am permitting myself to live in my ideal, not someone else’s concept of how I should be. I have learned that by following someone else’s’ belief of what I Am to be will clog my own self-expression of the I Am. I Am currently enjoying brighter, creative, joyful and spontaneous days. I Am awake with awe and wonder.

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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

Hooray for you! This is so important...amazingly, many people are too busy to enjoy a journey of self-discovery. It was crucial for me.


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Renee Abbott 3 years ago from Arizona Author

Oh me too Billy. I find each day is a new day with a new slate. Thank you for taking the time to read my hub, and commenting.


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Pamela-anne 3 years ago from Kitchener, Ontario

I believe we must learn to work on ourselves inside and out. Making ourselves responsible for our own actions not blaming others or making excuses and learning from our mistakes and thus moving forward in a positive light. It is so important to be ourselves not what others want us to be because that is not the real "us"; we must accept ourselves for who we really are. If we make changes it should be because we personally want to make them not because someone else wants us to. Thanks for sharing this great hub I am voting it up awesome!


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Renee Abbott 3 years ago from Arizona Author

Pamela-anne, thank you. I am so happy that people are starting to understand this, and I know it can be a slow progress, but the rewards of self-identity is beyond what I ever could imagine.


Sharon Tenney 3 years ago

Yes, that is a tricky one! I like your metaphorical writing style. Keep up the good work! :)


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Renee Abbott 3 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you Sharon.

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