Just A Little Sign Lord?

So I want the truth, direction, I want to center. I want to do God’s will.

Now most of you kind folks just make a quiet note to come back and read this some other time. It's okay. It's okay if you get busy and forget too (wink wink). This is too long. You might be able to just glance at key words and get the spirit or the gist of it all. It's just a boring birthday wish story, and I will drag it out unmercifully. So, feel free to skip to the bottom and just give me a "thanks for sharing or just hit a couple buttons or just "make a note to come back". Thank you.


     I am told by the greatest teachers that I should worship. So I am the least of any least. I want to obey a benevolent God. The road is so steep. It’s rutted out. It’s slippery. It’s continuous.



I wanted to do well. I wanted to excel.

It's not my will.

What can I do for You Lord?


So I haven’t proven myself worthy of a small breeze from God.

I have made some bad choices, it seems. It stays hazy all the time. I can hardly see through some of the muck. There’s a lot of fog on this road.



God’s will is not for me to be stronger.

I’m supposed to be weaker now.

But could I get a small sign for a little "direction" Lord?



I arose after 4 AM.

I heard from my bedroom, a small rattling noise.

In the Kitchen was a tiny mouse caught in a “humane” trap I had actually put some peanut butter in back in the winter.



So I ask for a small sign.

I guess a small mouse could be a small sign.

I have no idea what You could mean, so I'll look some more for a small sign.

Thank you Lord!



I thought I had found a good combination for a great bike ride. It seemed to work weeks ago. I rest up really well the day and night before the ride. I get up easily at 4 AM or so. I take one hydrocodone. It’s prescribed. But this isn’t to get an unfair edge. This is to keep me from popping out of a group ride from a headache, a pain in my neck, and pain through my right shoulder. But the whole right side is a mess, blah, blah.

I smear a "theralgesic" balm on a bunch of rough places. Two layers.

But the real deal I’m speaking of is that I thought I had a good formula. Take one hydrocodone at 4:30. Eat a little yogurt. Take another at 6:30. Eat a little more yogurt. Ride at 8 AM for about 10 miles to the start of the ride.


The ride didn't go as painless as I had hoped. I felt it was disastrous. My pain was terrible and I was popped out. I just turned around and limped home.

The hydrocodone didn't work except my head would feel “mushy” for the rest of the day ?!



     And it seemed a shame. I thought I had my pain covered with “my” system. I was determined that if I held that pain off that would go with all my heart and try to win the Mebane city limit sign sprint.


This wasn't for anything but a "sign".

By all means I would not want to have people think I’m a fast person. I only pretend. I have to use trickery in the sprint because most of these guys are really what we’d say “stronger” than me. But if I could stay fresh with these fellows and use their draft at the right time I might be able to take a city-limit sign. Of course millions of other cyclists will be absent that day. But this wouldn't be a holy grail or something.

Silly really. Wanting a sign.



I thought, maybe, I could do a little something for You Lord. Maybe with God’s blessing and this numbing medicine could make me think for a moment I was a little better person. I did want to see what I could do.

But the real deal is I just don't care for my role here and I'm ready for a new existence. And, whatever this body can do or whatever I can do, is for God. You can say it would hopefully shine good on the world.

Fact is though, it's unimportant. If I have to I will sell my bikes and go to Belize or another tropical spot and distance myself from giving a flip.

Next year would be my 31st year of the Assault on Mount Mitchell. I think I should quit now and allow Nick Dolby catch me. Nick has 29 years of Assaulting Mount Mitchell. Then the following year Nick could pass me. He could hold the record of Mitchell Assaults with 31.

I could keep doing Mitchell for at least another decade or more depending on how things went, but free is what I want to be.

I think I'll free myself of as much bondage as possible.

Maybe world traveler on a budget is what I need to be.

Maybe somewhere just walk into a sunset.



I thought I was making a sacrifice or I thought I was suffering and enduring and I wanted to see something special whether it was cycling or something else, anything else. I wanted to see God. Maybe I was wanting to see God more on my demand (somehow) than I should have been. But I’m okay with it all. I’m certainly not hung-up on wanting to succeed at something so frivolous.



     But I am in a position to see through this veil of falseness that permeates our lives. I want to retire. I want to dis-involve myself. I don’t want discord. I don’t want to spend time revealing the truth to anyone.



     So, I guess I want to shirk what seems to be God’s will for me.



God has an amazing sense of humor.



      I could be sorry for not being able to laugh at kismet, fate, to laugh with God.

      Always looking up and obedient and only seeing a light vapor in outer space.

      But maybe this is an illusion that God will allow us.



But I intensely wanted to see God recently.

I really thought I needed new direction.

I wanted new direction.

I wanted to get shed of the onus of spewing the truth, uncontrollably.



Which way now Lord?

I don’t have a map.

I don’t have a GPS for this.

I’m at the fork in the road, Lord.

Please Lord?

A voice Lord?

A nudge Lord?

A sweet smell?

A stiff wind Lord?

Just a small breeze?

Just a small sign Lord?


So I was sent a mouse?


I was more frustrated.

What is the interpretation?

I felt a little hurt that God didn’t seem to want to help me help Him but He didn’t mind seeing me getting my but kicked around on an eternal basis.


So I was sent a mouse?


So after a day of bike riding and suffering as much pain as I could stand, I just limped

on back home.

So, Lord?

Is that your answer?

Will you please Lord?

Please Lord?

Give me a tiny sign Lord?



So I wander around Micky Deeville and there sauntering under the couch was a roach.

Sauntering, staggering- he just wasn’t scurrying.

So I commit a “mercy” killing. Mercy on me though. I just have to lift the couch over after dragging it out and tilting it over.

But- the roach is dead.

Hadn't seen a roach in the house, ever before or since.


So, Lord? Is this another "small sign" of yours?

Cause you know Lord, I love funny stuff.


I'm trying to see the humor from Your perspective though.

That's got to be hilarious from Your point of view.

Good one Sir.

But Lord?

I just wanted a small sign to say to me, "Micky, I'm the Lord, Your God. I will never leave you."

That's all I was asking.


I want to believe in You Lord.

But sometimes I think I know the way and somebody's tossing banana peels in the path.


I want to have faith Lord.

You know, I tried to walk on water that time.

Yes Sir. We know how that came out.

My attempts at flying were cut way short of what I was hoping.


I didn't mean to cause any trouble, confusion, disappointment, or displeasure.

I just wanted a little sign. That's all.



Thank you Lord.

I'll take this as some small sign, Lord.

I appreciate it too.



     I still don’t know which way to go.

     But You know Lord?

     You needn’t bother with anymore signs.

     Thank you though.

     God bless you God!



The other mice and roaches better get the word to stay out of my house and there won't be any trouble.



I’m fine Lord. I’m still watching my step and trying to watch Your sense of humor, because You are funny Sir!




So my day gets off to a great start for the following day.

First thing I have to tell some folks that their history is non-existent.

God, You have appointed me "history teacher".

I never asked to be the corrector of past and current events.



Now- You even have me predicting the future!

But a drunken fool can do that!

There's a huge herd of elephants jack-knifed on top of train-wreck of jack-asses.

Anybody can see this!




God! Lord?

God, if I tell these folks that carrots are good for their eyesight, they will poke my eyes out with a carrot!

They will poke my eyes out with a carrot, Lord!



What's that Lord?

You say it's best that I don't "see" what's coming next!

Yes Sir! That's real funny Lord.

Yes Sir. My right side, particularly, is splitting. Yes Sir!



I live alone.A hermit!

Almost no visitors.

I have a bit of agoraphobia.


What's that Lord?

Yes Sir! My poverty does help with my agoraphobia. And I do appreciate not being able to afford to leave the house. Thank you Sir.

Poverty keeps me close to your people, I'm not sure they recognize me as one of yours though.



I always doubt that I am the "messenger" needed here.

I am compelled to “set the record straight”.

Like people are going to change because of my WalMart greeter ways!


Yes Sir, I know you don't care much for sarcasm.

Sir? Right! It's "my" sarcasm You don't care for.


But You see Sir! I never know when You're kidding.

I'll take this to be one of those times You're not kidding.



So Lord, you send me onto the hubs with my fatal curiosity but also this duty of "doing unto others as I would have them do unto you".

I go by Freya Cesare's hub. She has a video about a young man from Greenville, SC.

He spent time searching for God in Christianity.

He’s now a man finding God in Islam.

He found the same intricacies that showed discrepancies, that I have found in teachings.



      I watch a video for an hour and 20 minutes.

      I can’t find an argument with this man.

      I have seen the same vision in another way.


Now I miss my appointment for physical therapy for my shoulder.

I feel bad about missing the appointment. I forgot. And the day should have been remembered. It's the day before my birthday.

I drive to apologize. I apologize to the receptionist.

She’s very kind. They were too busy and had some walk-ins. One therapist was out.

They were over loaded. Everything is fine.



I go by Whole Foods.

As I’m leaving, a “man of faith” walks straight toward me and is very near,

and looking straight in my face. I nod and make a small smile/grin. He has a white collar. He’s Catholic? He’s Episcopalian? He’s definitely not “free-wheel Baptists”.

He continues to look directly into my eyes but never acknowledges me.


So. I guess God has given me my answer.

God gave me "an" answer.

Even if it was small.



Thank You Lord.

Whatever You give me is fine and I thank You Lord!

I ask for a sign. I see failure as always.

I ask for a small sign. You send me a small rodent.

I ask for a small sign. You send me a roach.

Thank You Lord!


Well Lord, the scriptures I've read are true.

Ask and you shall receive.


It's just that...ouch!

Very funny Lord!

A Mosquito?

You know I had malaria.

You know I hate Mosquitoes!

I hate the bite, the blood, the constant buzzing...

Thanks anyway Lord.



Small signs eh Lord?

A mouse. A roach. A mosquito.


You know Lord, I love and worship You, but just forget it.

I'm just a little frustrated with comedy right now.


I may as well have some of this "illy" gourmet coffee.

I've never had any.

Today's my birthday and I just want to do a little something to change my mind and treat myself.


It's pretty plain You don't care to give me a little clear sign to let me know that I matter.


Frankly God- I was really hoping for just a little more of a sign. Something a little more pleasurably exciting than a "holy man" who is stuck up, a bad painful bike ride with yucky drugs, a mouse, a roach, and a mosquito. But THANKS ANYWAY LORD!

Gee! You ask for a little sign!

Well I'll open this fresh can of this wonderful coffee and at least the rest of the day will be fine!

A pull tab!


Ah! This is so fresh...POW!



Oh- very, very funny Lord!

Finally an ACT of God!


There's a huge pile of exploded coffee everywhere- but this was dramatic.

That was loud!

Actually scared me too Lord.

Good one! Thumbs up Sir!!!

You got me good! I'm sorry I ever doubted You. Now-that was funny!


Pow! Coffee everywhere! I'd high five You if I could Sir!


Sir?

You didn't do that? Read the can? Yes Sir!


No. 1-STOP! SSSSS

No. 2-Lift the ring slowly to let the gas out.


I see!

No sir, I don't need to see the rest of the instructions.

Yer Sir. It's written in several languages. Yes Sir. Even Chinese.


Well what about the Mouse?

Right. Mice come in periodically. You're right Lord.

Lazy cats next door. Probably liberals!


The roach?

Came in from a bag in storage?


Even the mosquito Lord? Just chance?

You say You want to keep me guessing?


Amazingly wonderful sense of humor!

As always- thank You Lord!




It's still a little amusing.

Maybe twistedly so.

It almost leaves one with sense that You did "stop" by.


Regardless- I'll try to do what I think would be in Your Will.



Well my birthday ride occurs and I just float through it and I'm surprised that the hill that usually bothers me came and went without a thought because I was thinking of these "mind tricks" or God tricks. And it occurs to me that maybe this too is God working in mysterious ways. I get home, but I don't want to stop. I feel good. Do I go downtown and eat outside at a local cafe? Maybe. I ride and a black man who trims hedges or mows or something was very delightful. We wave and he is smiling as I ride my bicycle by him. Yes.- this is worth the extra few blocks.

I'll check out the local cafe and if the service is fast and nice I'll eat. So I sit. The two gentlemen look directly at me and ignore me even though I speak to them. A passer by does the same thing. A little time has gone by. No menu. No waitress.

So long!

It's a beautiful and great day so far!

The sun is shining and my bike is rolling fine.


American Tobacco Company

An evening of music and great food is ahead. My buddy Dave of 30 years still likes me. He talks me out of the house.

North Carolina Public Radio is in the old American and "new" American Tobacco Company.

Tonight there is "live" out-door music.

Bring a folding chair. Have a beer. Or not.  A hat seems to help.

Don't let Lucky Strike you!

I hope I remember the name of the Singer before I publish this.

Guess not huh?


Can I buy you a Margarita Senorita?


The Cuban Revolution! Great food! Great company!


The Miami Mafia make a resurgence! Look- there's Micky Dork...oops Dee!

On the left is Irley. She is David's love and life.

On the right is David. David has been my friend for 30 years.

I can depend on Dave to be my friend!

Isn't that pretty darn cool?

Dave treated me tonight. I expected as much.

He's just that way!

I locked my keys up in my truck the other day while I was shopping..

Dave brought me a set that he keeps for me.

I know I'm going to screw up.

I can depend on Dave if I have a booboo!


I had Corn and Shrimp Chowder. I like trying different corn chowders.


It was a pretty large night! There was no dancing though!


Eating out-doors. Very much like it was thousands of years ago.

Except furniture is much lighter now.

There are many shops and restaurants in the American Tobacco Company.


And a peaceful time was had by all!


So, what have I learned from my signs?

I've learned that if I ask God for a sign that signs will fall out of the sky.

I have learned I will be sent in four directions.

I have learned that I need to adhere to the Golden Rule and look to no other religion or man for leadership.


I have learned that a new wind is blowing and this wind will blow me off the bicycle.

I have learned that I'm not needed in "this" cycling anymore.

The pain in my neck and shoulder is strong and pretty continuous.


I hate "giving up".

I didn't give up.


God has grabbed me by the neck and shoulder and has said "that's all folks".


I remember the day. I rubbed a pain relieving balm all over the shoulder.

I took two hydrocodones.


Hydrocodones didn't work at all.

The balm didn't work at all.


I remember the moment of another excruciating pain permeating my upper body.


I remember moving left, out of the pace-line,

and knowing without doubt- "this is it".


"Group riding" ain't going to be what it was!

There will be more solo rides.

I have learned that a change is coming.

I have only reinforced what I knew already.



Ride a bike! Ride a bike! Ride a bike!




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Unchained Grace 6 years ago from Baltimore, MD

Micky, I actually did read the entire Hub. Why? You took the time and effort to produce it. For the longest time, the Israelites continued to look for some sort of sign. When none was forthcoming, they began to produce and worship their own idols. They all, as you know, resulted in being false. Sometimes, when we desperately seek signs, we grossly misinterpret incidents which are normal. The mouse. The roach. The different incidents which might seem innocuous to others become a talisman to others. To some, they become the brass ring we desperately try to snatch up.

You've seen your victories. You've seen your failures. It is what it is. Do you handle your failures differently now? How are you in the press? Is the Micky Dee of today different than the one punching it out in the Nam? Of course he is. The real question is what would you do with the sign if you actually saw it? Without the spiritual vision of the Holy Ghost, satan can and will play the big deceiver and provide a sign to the one so desperately seeking one and without the spiritual vision, how would you really know where it came from until it was too late?

Mick, the problem is, many don't know. One man may look for a sign that he will one day be financially prosperous. Satan knows he wants that. He wants it and needs it badly. He also knows you're not necessarily watching God 24/7 so if he slips you a sign to go left instead of right and wraps it up in a holy wrapping, are you really gonna stop to discern the spirit if the promise is what you been waiting on?


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always exploring 6 years ago from Southern Illinois

Micky, I laughed all the way. Your visitors were hysterical, only you would think this up. You, without a doubt, are funny. I hope you are not in that much pain. I hope it is just a joke.

Love and Peace

PS I did read the whole thing, haha


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo UG. I just consider me to be God's. I thought I'd try to erase some pain and play hard. I just see that I'm out of tricks. God may want me off the bike. God may want me in Belize or another place. My body is wearing out and there is no need to continue in a pain fest. So I speak to God. I laugh at God's seemingly indifference and I laugh at my silly and mundane requests that are just half-hearted. All of me- is God's.

But yes Sir! If you want signs, you'll see signs.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Always Exploring!!! If I lift my arms to extremes, I have really bad pain often. But the pain I care about is on the bike and it's debilitating. I can still ride but I don't want to ride with groups anymore. I'm popped out with this shoulder and neck pain. Maybe it's solo biking time. No big deal. Maybe winter a year from now will tell me more and maybe I'll be heading south where the weather suits my clothes. Thank you Ma'am.


Jane 6 years ago

I read it all and am so sorry I missed your birthday... was thinking of you on your birthday, though... just got the date wrong. Anyway, I haven't had time to read your stuff lately and I apologize. It is wonderful as usual - I love your writing and your thoughts - I love YOU. Always will. Take care... hope to talk to you soon.


MarianG 6 years ago

I love it! I think that we are all looking for signs from God and sometimes all that we have to do is look and there they are!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

No problem Jane. God bless you!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

God works in mysterious ways. I wish I knew what they were! Thank you for dropping by Marian!


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prasetio30 6 years ago from malang-indonesia

Beautiful, my brother. God will know your kindness to write this hub. I always impress me with your pictures. That's why I always miss you all the time wait your hub. Keep on up date. Thank you very much. My pray, my love always for you. ~ Prasetio


SilverGenes 6 years ago

First, a belated happy birthday and I'm sorry I missed it! "Signs, signs, everywhere there's signs, Blockin' up the scenery, breakin' my mind...So I got me a pen and a paper and I made up my own f***** sign. I said, "Thank you Lord for thinking 'bout me, I'm alive and doing fine"

I read every word :) I'm sorry the pain is getting in the way of the group rides now and maybe wheeling around Belize is not a bad idea. Incredible hub, sir.


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Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

You express yourself so completely, flaws and all!

I left you a birthday present! go find it! Happy Birthday Michael! ~aloha nui loa~


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zzron 6 years ago from Houston, TX.

Happy Birthday, awesome signs, God bless ya brother :)


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

My brother prasetio! You are always in my corner! You are always the picture man with beautiful words! I am in your corner too, God bless you Bro!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Hey there SilverGenes! I tried to hide the fact of the BD actually. I took the date off FB. I don't celebrate the BD much. Dave knew how to talk me out of the house. No cake or that kind of stuff.

I'm seriously thinking the unthinkable. My neck and shoulder pain are too much. It's a sign. God bless you Girl!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Sa'ge, Sa'ge!

You are a rage.

And such a sage!

I wish I could turn another page.

Act my age. S

ome day we'll be freed from our cage.

The fight against injustice, we will wage! My Sa'ge!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo yo zzron!God bless zzron!


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aguasilver 6 years ago from Malaga, Spain

Micky, your hub brought back to me another birthday I had nearly 20 years ago, my fortieth, which I thought should be 'important' but was 'celebrated' alone, no friend to take me out (of myself)no money, no phone, no dope, no booze, not even any smokes... no cards, no congrats.. anyhow I went into the olive grove outside my house, looked up and shouted "IF YOU EXIST, YOU'D BETTER MAKE YOURSELF KNOWN TO ME"

It took 18 months before I could recognise that He was trying to communicate, and that I was learning to hear from Him.

Christ is not in the microwave religion business, He is more of a 'slow cookpot' - unless the situation is dire, when He may pull out the stops a bit.

Now for your birthday present....

DHEA

Dehydroepiandrosterone (DHEA) is a hormone produced by the adrenal glands. One well-studied application of DHEA is its role in reducing pain and inflammation in people with Systemic Lupus Erythematosis (SLE).(22)

DHEA seems to be helpful in a number of other chronic inflammatory diseases as well, including Crohns disease,(23) rheumatoid arthritis and inflammatory arthritis.(24) This adrenal steroid seems to improve the patients subjective measure of disease activity such as pain and fatigue. How it does this is still not clear, but it appears that DHEA is involved in directly reducing inflammatory cytokines, independent of the COX pathway. There is even a recent report in the literature where DHEA administration has prevented the development of osteoarthritis in animals.(25)

DHEA is typical of many dietary supplements, in that it provides a broad range of beneficial effects with few, if any, adverse effectsin contrast to pharmaceuticals with narrow ranges of benefits and long lists of side effects.

In addition to its profound anti-inflammatory properties, clinical trials with DHEA indicate that it may also be an effective treatment for osteoporosis in both men and women.(26,27) Dosages in the clinical trials have varied from a low of 25 mg to a high of 100 mg. Women should be aware that if they take too much DHEA they may grow a few facial hairs, or experience an episode of acne. However, these side effects are easily and rapidly reversed once the dosage is lowered.

Nice to see that it may make you hairier!

Also found this page, don't know anything about the company or their claim that using sub lingually would enhance the product, but sub lingual is the best way to get anything into your body (including alcohol!)

Take a look...

http://www.breakthroughhealthproducts.com/DHEA.htm...

Happy Birthday Micky,

I hope you get your comms working quickly, and thanks for the great hub, and yes I DID read all of it!

John


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo Brother John! "Christ is not in the microwave religion business, He is more of a 'slow cookpot' - unless the situation is dire, when He may pull out the stops a bit." You're right of course. And "this" isn't the Micky Dee Show. It's the "God Save Our World Show.

I do take the DHEA. I take anti-oxidants, anti-inflammatories, green foods, etc. This is God's body. He can do what He wants with it. I'll follow that link too. Thank you Brother John!


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50 Caliber 6 years ago from Arizona

Yo,Mic, got no words except I know the end of the road feeling, it talks to me and tells me do something different, cuz your out of this young mans game, so I slowly have to come to terms with the "I used to" thing

Much Peace and Love, Dusty


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo Brother Man! We know. I've exhausted all of man's "healing" elixirs, potions, spells. I've had the cortisone shot. I've taken it all. God grabs me and says this is it. We'll see. I don't speak for God. I speak His word. It's come in such a way that it's acceptable. Thanks Bud!


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poetvix 6 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

After reading this in its entirity I have only a few things to say. First, it's a really good Hub as you poured yourself upon the page here. Second, I think we all look for signs from God at times. Third, I wonder if we have the wisdom to recognize the signs he sends. You saw a mouse, roach and mesquito (sp) and took them as signs and maybe they were. You also saw kind people, yourself overcome pain and reach a goal you had set for yourself. You saw another anniversary of your birth come and go surrounded by people who care for you. You saw beautiful landscapes that you were able to manuver through at will with sunshine upon you and breezes wraping you. I could never say what are your signs and what are not... I can wonder though at how we all take for granted so many, many things that are gifts every day. I know I do.

Thank you Micky for making me stop for a moment and examine the "signs" in my own life. Perhaps for some your Hubs are a sign as you not only give us the gift of tiny glimpses of you but further the gift of inspiring us to pause and examine ourselves.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Poetvix! You are so cool. Sometimes it's hard to see the signs for the signs.


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OpinionDuck 6 years ago

Micky Dee

Very clever and entertaining, I really liked the selection of signs.

Maybe there are no signs, but expecting to see one, we make anything or everything a sign.

If one if by land, and two if by sea, what is the signal if no one is really coming?

~:}


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo Opinion Duck Sir! The Peace Sign is the only sign! The password is, "there is no password"!


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Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

hey MD, it's them dang it sigh posts that stand out more then the signs at times! ha ha


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Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

hey hey you there, good morning! :D


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Good morning my Dear Sa'ge! Of course it's after 3 here so it's 9:20 there. Rode a little today. Pain City. Beautiful day here. Even now the chirds are burbing!


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Mekenzie 6 years ago from Michigan

What a read .. I read all the way too Micky .. cuz you are worth the whole read. Only wish I had more time to read my favorite hub buddies. :0) I could relate to the yearning for a sign .. sometimes it feels like I'm in a fog and I want a sign too .. any sign. I like what you said earlier .. hard to see the signs for the signs. Ha! What a good word picture. Keep seeking dear Micky Dee .. He will never give up on thee. You are LOVED!

Oh, and God Bless your buddy David for taking you out to celebrate your birthday!

Mekenzie


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you McKenzie. It's a long road. I've seen Burma Shave signs that would be simple for me to read. But I don't need a sign for my actions. I'll keep the eye on the Golden Rule. I'll try to treat people with more love than I get. But this is real life with no dress rehearsals. Thank you for dropping by. I hope all is going well for you and yours.


Dave 6 years ago

Dear Always Exploring, Michael is not making up about the pain. There are many physical correlates in addition to the psychic ones. I agree with one thing Unchained Grace said, "It is what it is". Not something I would expect from a seeker of the supernatural but something easily understood by a secular humanist such as myself.


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akirchner 6 years ago from Central Oregon

Happy Birthday as well - and great signs!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Ma'am!


ralwus 6 years ago

Happy belated B-Day Micky. I follow me. Loved all those signs you put up. Funny stuff.


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prettydarkhorse 6 years ago from US

Hi Mick, Oh, I read through it, YAY, I hope you feel better and with all those pains, you are still asking what you can do for the LORD! My goodness you have been assaulting that Mount Mitchell for the past thirty years, huh....Thats a great achievement...Do you still take hydrocodone today?

I hope it is not too late, Happy Birthday! (I hope you will be happier and best for you!)

I am just happy to be back reading your hubs again, Yes I missed it, Take care there, Maita


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo Ralwus! You follow you! I'm not smart and I refuse to follow me. I will lead me down a dark hole. I can't trust me. God's funnier than I am too. It's just that I'm told to worship by the greatest teacher, so I do. Thanks Bud!

Hey Maita! I did take a hydrocodone today. I was going to take two. I forgot to take a second. I'm glad. I didn't really need it. I rode a little over 50 today and didn't have a lot of pain. I don't like to take them. Thank you Dear.


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sameerk 6 years ago from India

wow awesome hub


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you sameerk! I enjoy your work too.


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febriedethan 6 years ago from Indonesia

I can't help but laugh, those pictures are so funny! Happy Birthday Micky Dee! Long life and lucky all the way!


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

Yes, Micky that was a very long hub but l have to read it all ,I'm always afraid I'll miss something if I skip through your work. Sorry you have so much pain. Maybe you could ask God about treatment, He obviously answers you one way or another;He IS there and listening!!!!!!One day the world will be right.Meanwhile we have hubfriends to keep us laughing' This was brilliant' Thank you and love the shirt x


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epigramman 6 years ago

best hub of all time!!!!!!! but of course I said that about your last hub - but this hub is so epic in every way - I spend 40 days and 40 nights here - and abstained from sex, alcohol and late night TV - just to spend time here - you operate in an entirely different universe from everyone else because you are such a supremely wonderful human being - and we are just happy to be part of it!

Thanks for this one - and of course all that you do - not just for me but the HUMAN RACE!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thank you Epigramman. I love your work. You know I do. Thanks for the kind words. You are so nice to me and everyone you visit. And your poetry is divine!


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Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

Hey Micky!!!!!! HOW COME Epigramman gets a reply and l got nothing? Zilch, Nada,,,..????????


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Oh my God you've cracked me up!!! I must have scrolled down too far.

Oh my- you know I love you Dim!!! I have physical therapy coming up this week. But yes, Ma'am, I continue to ask God to put one of my feet before the other. But I just know what God's will is. I just need to keep one ear to the sky and the other to on the ground. Thank you Dear!

You are so wonderful!


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Nikkij504gurl 6 years ago from Louisiana

I read it and all of it lol it wasnt so unmercifully carried on, in fact I can get what you are saying about God and his signs. But really having faith is not needing any signs to believe that he is there and helping us out. We may not always see it or know it but he is there. and even little things like a mouse or a roach could be him, whether his sense of humor or his way of telling us something. Just pay attention and appreciate the little things in life. and know God has a hand and an eye over us.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Nikkij504gurl!! You've got it! God bless!


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pintails7886 6 years ago from Memphis TN

Micky I can tell you from expericne, and I havent even been alive 30 years yet, much less long enought to have a friend for that long, but Hydrocodone wont help any pain. The best cream they make is bengay and no pill kills the pain. A heating pad works wonders for most pain. IF the heating pad doesnt get the job done I move to the tense unit, that usualy knocks out the worst of any pain, and I try to reserve it just for that. The hydro just makes the pain worse, your body aches more just so you will take it. then it aches more so you will take more. It is proven fact that your brain invents pain to get a fix of opiates, just check the studies. It works for short term great, but really it is not for long term unless you are using ever increasingly more powerful opiates, and you dont want to go down that road trust me. I havent taken opates in almost 2 years now, the only time I take anything for pain is when it is way beyond controllable. anyother time its heating pads and tense units or bengay I love yougurt too but for someone who knows cronic pain the best regimine si with no pills at all. Unless you feel you will die without it.

As for God, the best thing to do is understnad that we are on his time. and we will only see the signs when our hearts are open our eyes have nothing to do with it. Its like that movies Bruice Almighty before he wrecks on the bridge that is the best annalogy I have ever seen for Gods signs. Again in my short 27 years I have cursed God more than once and begged him to stay out of my life. But I always come crawling back. But we have to remember that every one of Gods prophest did the same thing at some point or another even Jesus, why do you think they took out the books of his teenage years? Becase he was human too, and he didnt always have an easy life. And he too wondered if God had forsaken him. Sometimes it seems that way, and maybe tomorrow isnt brighter, maybe the next is worse, but one day our eyes will open, and those signes we missed will be right infront of our faces, God willing anyways. I for one see signs of God everywhere, no they dont always tell me what to do or what to think or where to go, but they remind me God is there and he is watching no matter how bad it may seem. Thanks for your interesting post. Yes I read the whole thing.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo pintails! Great post! Thanks. I've tried about everything. I tried the hydrocodone a couple years ago. I saw that the pain just required more and more hydrocodone. It just didn't work. Once in a long while- yes it will work. I was hoping that if I put off using it for weeks that maybe "one" day, on my demand or request, it would work. But it's undependable.

I may still try to use it once in a long while. I have a neck that's screwed and a shoulder that's screwed. And other parts.

A friend of mine suggested that I stay positive. Well. I've ridden my bike right on almost every day that I can remember or went for a hike or something. My friend has missed the entire summer riding for allergies. I have allergies. I suggested a neddie pot. I suggested sat water, etc. I

I do okay with positive thoughts I think. If we're talking about riding a bicycle. I ride. I have a cyst on the knee and a cyst on the tibia that bother me a little. I have a "stretched tendon" right now that I hardly bother with because my back, hips, neck and shoulder hurt from injuries. To top it all off, my head can join in and really light my fires.

So- I'm not sure what "positive" thinking can do if I have been positive so far.

I've taken on a very strict diet with supplements to help with pain and inflammation. So, I've looked under every rock and will keep searching for an easing of the pain to keep being active.

But this shoulder is just becoming mechanically dysfunctional. Just the way it is. God has things the way He wants them.


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Freya Cesare 6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Maybe others found it is funny but I am not. I found it sad. Behind your humour there is great pain and sarcasm not really work for my silly mind :( (poor me! I know. :)).

Just take it easy, Micky. Sometimes God knock in the head in the time when we less expect it and suddenly you will see the path, if it is God's will for you to see it. You just need to keep humble in your heart and let your mind wide open.

May God bless you.

Happy belated birthday, King Micky.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Freya, you are a wise young woman! You are so smart. Always. Thank you my Dear Freya! You are always God's child!


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pintails7886 6 years ago from Memphis TN

Well Mickey, the fact that you can push through the pain says a lot about your character. A lot of us with chronic pain let it rule our lives and take away that which we love most.I was like that for a while, I guess 3 or 4 years. From the age 22 to 25, some of the best years of my youth were wasted in a daze of powerful narcotics. Fyntinl, and oxycotin and even just opium when I could find it. It makes a great tea that taste terrible and smokes fine, best of all it kills the pain and lets us do the things we want to do or so we think.

Anyways I had 6 ruptured discs, a couple pinched nerves, central and fomonal spinal stonisis, and DJD. The key word there is HAD. I have an MRI from a year ago that looked very bleak and bad, I have an MRI from a couple months ago that make it look like I've never even had a back ache. So good in fact that my new doctor at the VA thought I was lying to her about it, until I showed her the MRI'S from the VA and 4 neurosurgeons in SC.

Now you may ask me, what happened? How did your back just heal like that? Or, was it ever really injured in the first place?

I assure you it was indeed in very bad shape. At age 22 some doctors couldnt wait to cut my neck open and start hacking away. Something inside of me told me, not to do it. So I didnt, I just kept getting high on opates for the pain taking more and more for less and less results. Yes I kept getting high, but it worked on the pain less and less. So I decided to quit taking the opates, not an easy choice or thing to do.

Anyways, back to my point. The pain was very real and my neck was extreemly damaged, it actaully caused me to have some pretty terrible head aches at the base of my head in the back.

Anyways, I stopped using the opiates and low and behold the pain startted to ebb and then it was mostly gone. I hadn't had a pain in a while. But knowing I had DJD I figured I better have another MRI to make sure my pain recepters in my neck wernt gone or so damaged they wouldnt work.

And that is when I got the good news. The great news. Well what happened? The only two major changes in my life at that time was, I stopped opiates and I rededicated my life to God. Call me crazy but there was no medical explination for what happened and I didnt try any alternative treatments. All I did was stop pain meds and find God again.

I honestly believe it was God that healed me. When we step away from God our bodies pay a price along with our sprits, and when we come back to God he heals that payment. Now I wont presume to know Gods will he does his thing in his time. And from your comments I know you believe in Gods power, but maybe your direction is wrong and pain is a way to tell us we are doing something we shouldnt. Anyways I wont presume anything about you either I just wanted to share my story about pain, and I admire your determination. And good luck with it all. Forgive my long windedness


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Yo pintails!!! You are always welcome to be as long winded as you like here in Micky Deeworld. I believe you are a sincere follower of the true God. I too follow the on true God. We get used to pain. We readjust pain. We're amazed when having a neck rub or massage we feel such a release. But I tried whatever would work. From what I hear these bodies will decompose in a short time. If God wants me better God will make me better. Right now God likes the way I limp. I believe God is guiding you. God bless!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Oh febriedethan! I think I missed you somehow way back up there! Thank you Dear!


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Coolmon2009 6 years ago from Texas, USA

Nice article, made me smile and shake my head at the same time. I like your selection of images too. Good hub!


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katiem2 6 years ago from I'm outta here

Great stuff oh I often wished I could express my inner most self as you do. I was most moved when you stated now is not the time to be strong it's the time to be weak, or rather he wants me to be weak. That's a HUGE statement... We go around trying to do everything and possibly control stuff when we should just let go and let life follow the easy breeze of PEACE :) That corn chowder looked good!

Thanks for sharing yourself. Peace :)


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Hi Coolmon! Don't shake your head too hard. Great hub you did on Abbey Lincoln! God bless Coolmon!


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Hey Katie! It's time for me to be old, broken, and weaker. I have to give more "stuff" up. That corn chowder was great! You would be great company with corn chowder I bet. God bless you and your folks Katie!


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Pollyannalana 6 years ago from US

How much bigger was that mouse than a mustard seed Micky?


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Faith as the mustard seed! I'm not sure as I make any decisions. I want to choose.There are no decisions to make. The ink of my future is dry I guess. I have my problems. I do what I can. Thnx P.


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Pollyannalana 6 years ago from US

Most of us here have problems Micky, you know that, it seems God has brought us altogether. You pray for someone else when you have problems. There is someone worse, pray for those.


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creativeone59 6 years ago from Gold Canyon, Arizona

Thank you Micky, for a funny and awesome hub, you're right about one thing it was very,very long. I truly hope your pain go away and Happy Belated Birthday, may God continue to bless you and yours. Much love. creativeone59


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

You're right Polly!

Hi Creativeone! It was too long! I told you to skip it! God bless you Creativeone!


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twentyfive 6 years ago

If all signs were like those, I would definitely read em LOL Those are funny Mik. When was your birthday? Belated happy birthday my good friend :) Pretty pics you had there. Chowder sounds yum yum.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

Thanks Twentyfive! Thank you for those warm wishes! I'm an August baby. God bless!


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pmccray 6 years ago from Utah

Hummm . . Belize . . oh wait your hub, that's why I'm here. God was giving you the signs all along my friend; good food, good friends, good times and waking up each morning in your right mind (sort of). Happy belated "B" day my friend.


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Micky Dee 6 years ago Author

You're all there and all right Pmccray! Hummm..Belize..right- thank you Dear!

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