Leave My Judas Alone !!!!
My Greatest Hurt
It is imperative that I begin by first saying "Thank You" to all of my family and friends here on Hubpages. Those of you who have enlightened and strengthened me by your writings. Those of you who have supported my writings, and have never failed to leave encouraging comments and opinions. And to those of you, who in my absence, have prayed for me, and called out my name in the presence of God, Thank You.
Many of you know that I have been AWOL from writing for quite some time, though I still drop in on occasion to read your hubs. The attacks of the enemy has been relentlessly and unceasingly forthcoming in my life to bring pain, confusion, disruption, and lack. The list goes on and on. For quite some time I have been made to wear Job's shoes, and like Job, as one messenger of evil news was reporting, another was standing at the door, commanding my undivided attention, so that he too could hit me where it hurt. I even heard my own wife say words to me that meant and sounded eerily similar to the advice Job's wife gave him after everything was gone, " Why Don't You Just Curse God, and Die."
Yet, as detrimental and hurtful as those words were, they were not the core of my pain. For I found, after weighing it all in the balance, that the heart of the whole matter, was being betrayed by one that I loved and cherished so deeply. It wasn't the wounds from the daggers that found their mark in my back, it wasn't from the exhaustion of dodging the enemies arrows, it wasn't the despair of insults and rejection, and it wasn't the gnawing of my spirit from being talked about or talked down. My greatest hurt, was a "Kiss of Betrayal" from a friend.
The Consequences of Betrayal
In my own way, I kind of understand how Jesus must have felt, after agonizing in Gethsemane's Garden, after His sweat had fallen to the ground like great drops of blood, after realizing that He was alone, when He most needed His friends, after enduring the greatest attack from the enemy, who knew that it would be His last opportunity to keep Jesus off the cross, only to lift up His heavy bowed down head, and see Judas coming with a host of soldiers, addressing Him as Rabbi, and extending to Him " The Kiss of Death."
Mark 14: 43-46,
And immediately, while he was still speaking, Judas, one of the twelve, with a great multitude with swords and clubs, came from the chief priests and the scribes and the elders. Now His betrayer had given them a signal, saying, " Whomever I kiss, He is the One; take Him and lead Him away safely." And as soon as he had come, immediately he went up to Him and said to Him, " Rabbi, Rabbi!" and kissed Him. Then they laid their hands on Him and took Him.
We can fathom betrayal from an enemy, or even from one who is in competition, but how do you deal with betrayal from a friend, a brother, a son. One who has heard your teachings, and know your way of life. One who has learned and grew from the words you imparted into their spirit. One whom you cared for, trusted, and nursed from your own breast.
I learned that Rejection opens a wound, but Betrayal pours in the salt. Failure may knock you off your feet, but Betrayal kicks you while you are down. Persecutions and Insults hurt your pride, but Betrayal breaks your heart.
Imagine being sold out, by one of your own, for the "Price of a Slave."
Leave My Judas Alone
As I pondered on the vast array of things that were coming against me, I began to rehearse and meditate on the Word of God. I wanted to know what God would say to me as I made my petition known unto Him. I knew that God was not in the dark concerning me, and He was aware of all that was going on. Here is a good place to interject, "I love the Lord. He heard my cry, and He pitied my every groan."
God showed me that even while Judas was listed as one of the twelve, and carried himself like a true disciple, Judas was a "Son of Perdition."
God made me to understand that Judas was needed and necessary in the grand scheme of things. Just as his brothers were needed to get Joseph into Egypt, Pharaoh was needed for Moses, the Prophets of Baal were needed for Elijah, Nebuchadnezzar was needed for Daniel and the Three Hebrew Boys, Judas was needed for Jesus, and my brother was needed for me.
So I must admonish everyone, Leave My Judas Alone!!!
I would not have learned to suffer, if it had not been for my Judas.
I would have continued evading death, if it had not been for my Judas.
I would have never experienced resurrection, if it had not been for my Judas.
I would never have gotten to my next level in God, if it had not been for my Judas.
It is good to walk among loyal brothers and friends, and I thank God for each and every one, yet I realize that all brothers, sons, or friends are not loyal nor are they true. I realize that we must deal with our Judas'. Our Judas' are needed and necessary to teach us to Love God more, trust God more, and above all, Know that He is God.
. Remember Jesus said, "Love the Sinner, Hate the Sin. I say in all sincerity and truth, after understanding things a little clearer, "Leave My Judas Alone!!!
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