My Thoughts II, A Church

 

 

            I am thankful for the many gorgeous days I have experienced in my life. Mornings are especially important for me because it is the beginning of a new day; new opportunities, choices and things to experience arise.

            It is on such a beautiful, bright July morning that I found myself walking through the side-streets of Paris on my way to a museum. I always enjoyed the peacefulness which exists in big cities at ten o’clock in the morning. That is the time when most people have made it to the office, school or wherever they need to be. The people generally left on the streets are those who are retired and those who work on the streets, be they taxi drivers, cleaners, construction workers and such.

            As I turned a corner and was heading down a sidewalk of a major street, I saw a church to my left. I like old churches because they are works of art. Especially in France, where they are hundreds and hundreds of years old, they are quite a site to see. This church which caught my attention was nothing spectacular in comparison to what Paris and France in general has to offer in terms of its architectural aspect. Yet, it called me.

            I walked-up to the front doors and they were locked but after checking a few more doors, I found one to the side which was unlocked. It weighted a ton. I got it open without disturbing the gods and stepped inside. I suddenly felt as if I entered a time capsule. There was not a sound. Nothing but my footsteps and then, the floor squeaked. Or it might have been an earthquake … sounded very similar.

            What a strange experience. There was a lady sitting all the way up in the front row, a little to my left. I took a right off the aisle and sat down in the middle of the wooden bench. I placed my camera beside me. Took off my back-pack and sat it to my right.

            I can only meditate in churches and forests. How odd … a non-believer in the house of God. The ground should open up and eat me. It will not. It’s stubborn just like I am. The lady left. I only heard her. My eyes were closed and my head down.

            Alone. I only like churches for what they bring in their artistic architectural form and for the peacefulness I experience when I am alone inside. I am not fond of rituals. I dislike the plate for collection. The Great Spirit asks for no money.

            In fact, I cannot hear the spirits when there are people around me. Hence, I often need and like to be alone. “I was born alone and I will die alone,” I remember who said that. Or, “we will die and see.” I remember who said that too. Many things, I don’t remember … it bothers me.

            The Christian institution is an obstacle in the search for knowledge, for me. I want it dismantled like a Lego toy. Let’s build a new one! One that works; one that respects Life and chases no profit!

            The peace I experienced in that church was older than time. It allowed me to see myself. I could have been dead maybe. I walked into nothingness and everything at once; into a place with no borders or languages. That was the infinite land of spirits.

            I will remember that day.

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Darlene Sabella 5 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

Oh how I feel the same way, I need to be alone to hear the spirits and Gods whispering in my ear. I love silence and hear the Earth turn, birds sing, tress russling outside, the wind, the sound of the world. Yes, and the forest...what a fantastic hub, I love it...rate up love & peace darski


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Wesman Todd Shaw 5 years ago from Kaufman, Texas

What a lovely building!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

This piece speaks to me. I could see you in that church. Brilliantly written from the soul. I will read this again. Thank you for such a serene, honest blessing. I conjure sitting on the bank of a quiet brook. Peace to you


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Petra Vlah 5 years ago from Los Angeles

People have very different ways of making a personal connection with God. I don’t necessarily believe in what the bible attributes to Jesus; “wherever two people will pray I will be the third” so I do understand that for some meditation and solitude brings them closer to that state of elevation needed for a spiritual connection .

What does it for me is a small and rather dark church where the only light is that of real wax candles with their specific smell and smoke. None of the cathedrals I ever visited made me feel anything special, except great admiration for their architecture and art work, so I do not even consider them as being places of worship, but just great museums.


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Neil Sperling 5 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

That was a beautiful hub. Approaching the great abyss in silence, be it in a church or wilderness.

Thanks for the chance to share in your experience.


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Mr. Happy 5 years ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Mrs. Darlene, I know you even though we never met - how strange. I appreciate You, thank you.

Mr. Wesman, I love architecture in general and France was just the place to be for that. I loved it!

Mrs. Amy, from the soul it came indeed. For a piece like this I have no notes, no plans. It wanted to come out so, I let it out. I am thankful some people enjoyed it.

Mrs. Petra (and I cannot stop the Mrs. - not in public anyway, it seems inapropriate although I know you have asked me to refrain from using the Mrs.), I agree with you in that churches could very well be museums. For me they do a little bit more though when I am inside one alone.

Put in the choir, the priests, people and the magic somehow goes away ... very strange. As if it gets polluted and then, it dissappears. Thank you so much for stopping by.

Mr. Neil, thank you for your time!


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fucsia 5 years ago

Thank you for sharing your experience of peace.


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Mr. Happy 5 years ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment Mr./Mrs. Fucsia. Cheers!


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

I agree with your sentiments Mr. Happy. I'm not sure "whom" the church serves. The "church" will have to dedicate itself to God and not a political party that pretends to favor God. I am so un-trusting of institutions and especially those who will not separate themselves from the government. We will only get a partial message. God bless!


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Freeway Flyer 5 years ago

It's refreshing to read something from someone who is balanced. You apparently don't believe in the basic Christian doctrines, and yet you do not feel bitterness toward churches and what they symbolize for most people. There is something to be said for sacred places, whatever the particular faith they might be associated with. Personally, I don't feel much of a need for religious buildings or rituals any more. I experience the sacred more in nature, through music, or when in the middle of a really good game of racquetball.

At the risk of sounding like an evangelist, you might find some kindred spirits in the Unitarian Universalist Church. Here is a little hub describing how I find my way there:

http://hubpages.com/religion-philosophy/Unitarian-


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Mr. Happy 5 years ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Mr. Mickey, the church as an institution has gotten greedy over the years. It's all about profit now. The Vatican is drowning in gold and corruption.

Yet, the church as it stands alone is something I respect. I loved the experience I had in the church in my story. Thank you for your comment.

Mr. Freeway Flyer, we are on the same page I think. I also experience the sacred in Nature best. I am not religious but I feel the spirits nonetheless. I respect them and I pray for guidance often to the Great Spirit. Thank you for taking the time to comment.


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Spirit Whisperer 5 years ago from Isle of Man

Mr Wolfman Jack, this is a beautiful piece and comes from a still place that resides in the eye of the hurricane you call your life.

We have more in common than you imagine! I too remember a similar experience when I was at University and in my first year. It was coming up to exam time and I was feeling overwhelmed probably because I was then a bit of a perfectionist. I was in the city and the noise of the traffic with everyone heading home and I noticed a church beside a bus stop. Well it was a door with a cross over it and it said the name of the church over the door. I entered into a silent place with a bluish hue everywhere perhaps due to the stain glass. I walked down a flight of stairs and found myself in one of the smallest church I have ever been in and like you I sat and something inside me made me remember the stillness that resides within and I was no longer overwhelmed.

Like you I have nothing to do with organised religion but I have often sat in an empty church and found my inner strength and stillness again whenever I have lost it.

Thank you so much for directing me to this hub.


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reikieffect 4 years ago

Mr. Happy I respect your serenity and views. Being religious is not the same to being spiritual. You are very connected to the Divine and very spiritual. What you write comes from your heart and it shows. Thanks for sharing a little bit of yourself on your hubs.


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Mr. Happy 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Greetings Mrs. Reikieffect,

I sincerely would like to thank You for your kind words. May Wakan Tanka walk with You. All the very best!

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