Are you religious? or do you feel like you have a personal relationship with God? Religion has rules and rituals. Relationships have value. Religion is like a job-you feel like you have to do or it makes you feel like you should. Relationships you have them because you want to. Everyone has a different relationship with God. We are all at different places in our spiritual walk. It is sort of like a Father with several children, every relationship is different. Some children will think that some are being favored. Some will think they are being ignored. Although, we are not ignored. God loves everyone regardless of how you live or what you do.
The bible is a love letter waiting for you to find a relationship with him. It wasn't written by God himself, but through the Holy Spirit God used some men to write it. The Holy Spirit is a part of God, like a Father can be a man and a Father. Like any relationship we have with humans, we sometimes don't understand everything about that person, maybe we are just getting to know them and their ways. We might even say to ourselves later.."Oh, that's why they did that". Don't let people interpret the bible for you, especially when you could read it and find out how the Spirit wants to speak to your heart. I suggest to start in the book of John. It is full of life. If you like history then you could start in Genesis. God is omnipotent and limitless. I like to share my thoughts in the form of writing and of how the spirit speaks to my heart. Jesus was always rebuked the pharisees who were guess what?....religious.