Sinning Made Me Miserable

I accepted Christ on December 26, 2009 but up until today I didn't really feel born again. That's providing I am born again or did it right today. I just sincerely prayed to God today to make me born again. I said, "Dear Jesus, I repent of my sins. I believe you died on the cross for me. I know I deserve hell. Please wash me in your blood, and cleanse me from sin. Help me not to sin anymore." Something similar to that.

For the past five years I got better, but I kept sinning the same sins and that made me miserable. I don't want to offend God and I know I was hurting myself too by my destructive behavior. I guess sometimes it takes awhile.

I can only pray to God, that though his help, he will keep me from sin. I know I'll never be perfect, but I want to be. I want to be holy. And I want to be a light for others to shine and show them the way to Jesus who is the light of the world.

I agree with Skye2day that Jesus is the only way to true peace in this life and the next. Why would anyone choose satan over God? That's an important question to answer!

God is good. He has helped me in so many ways. Perhaps I WAS saved but now I feel like I'm saved even more. See, since December 26, 2009 my health has gotten much better. I used to have terrible mood swings and now I don't. I feel more peaceful and I have been able to live life more peacefully.

I thank God for helping me. I have been reading the bible for years now. I have been going to a group called celebrate recovery which is a bible based 12 step group and it's very good.

I know God will continue to help me and make me better because I truly want him to.


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jk maas 22 months ago

This is awesome! I agree with you that God helps us when we ask for it, and even when we don't know enough to ask. He is always with us. Sometimes I try to do things on my own and He reminds me to take everything to Him. I wish you continued blessings! Thank you for glorifying God in your writing!


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BlossomSB 22 months ago from Victoria, Australia

Thank you for sharing your experience, the only word for it is awesome! God bless you.


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schoolgirlforreal 22 months ago from USA Author

Thank you jk mass. I think it's a DAILY thing! So important to remember that! One day at a time :)

Good point, he does help us even when we don't know enough to ask. Yes, very true. He is always with us, yes! His presence is with us all the time! And angels too. :) Thank you. Same to you!


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schoolgirlforreal 22 months ago from USA Author

Oh, thank you Blossom! God bless you too! Dear sister!


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ologsinquito 22 months ago from USA

I know what you mean. We are miserable without God. That's a beautiful picture of Jesus.


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schoolgirlforreal 22 months ago from USA Author

Hi ologsinquito,

Thank you for reading my hub and commenting!

We are only human, but he will help us!

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