Surrendering To The Lord
Surrender to the Lotus Feet of the Lord
You mean I am not in control!
That was may attitude in my more youthful days. Surrender meant death of an activity or an idea that I wanted to pursue. I am a Leo, and if you know the nature of a Leo surrender means defeat and that word is extremely cacophonous to the ears.
From very early in my up bringing I realized that challenges were just a part of life. All human beings have four challenges that they will have to face regardless of status in life, nationality, religion, education, gender etc. The challenges of birth, disease, old age and death are guaranteed for all. Sorry to be the bearer of facts that are not so pleasant, but some people really do believe that the above stated does not apply to them. Ok, I have to admit I use to be one of those people. So if you were like me it is time to wake up.
There are many other challenges in the world, however, I consider these the most important to deal with because most of our activities will be geared to trying to solve one of these issues, either on a physical, mental, or spiritual level.
I was blessed early in life growing up as a Christian Scientist, a religion founded by Mary Baker Eddy. She learned from her teachers that God is omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent and we are all children of God. I will add that means we have the same qualities of God because we are created in God's image, however, we do not have the same quantity of the attributes and potency of God. We also learn that God is in control of everything.
Ok now the fun begins. Honestly, I wanted to learn to be Godly and go back to heaven, I thought this was the goal of life. Then somehow due to the influence of material nature, glamour and glitz, I changed and became more interested in money and sense enjoyment. This line of thinking caused me complications in life, which, actually became the catalyst for reverting to my spiritual path. In other words, I got in big trouble when I was younger. Now as I look back on the entire situation from a more advanced viewpoint, I have to come to the conclusion that I deserved what happened, and "bad" things happen to "good" people because they need to learn a lesson to advance spiritually. I never considered my self a bad person, I just did not think through my actions to a conclusion. In addition, I had lost my guide when I was younger due to separation from Aunt (she was my first guardian).
Like most people I know, (though some may not like to admit it), I like to be in control of myself and my sphere of influence. This does not mean that I try to control others, this means that I try to have perpetual peaceful being, and dwell only in peaceful and happy environments. Now comes the reality.
Every day there is a struggle with material nature. Sometimes people will be a disturbance, sometimes the natural elements, and yes, sometime we are just disturbed in our own mind. Oh yeah, when I was a child I wanted to control nature and make the weather what I considered good,that is warm and sunny most of the time. People who like to ski would not appreciate me much, so as you could see it is better God is in control and not me.
Life's experience and time has made me realize that it would be best to return back to the original idea of trying to please God/Krsna. This is why the who idea of surrender is important. If you truly want to please some one then it is best to learn what their preferences are and serve them to the best of your capacity with love and devotion for their happiness, not just to gratify your senses. The common example is if a child wants to please the parent, they would listen to the parent and find out what their parent prefers.
My friends and associates who have been so kind and merciful have shown me that to surrender to the Lord is the best path. This process however, requires a level of faith, courage and love where you really have to be more tolerant than a tree, because the results are not in your control.
The main point is awakening to the fact that we are conditioned living beings with the ability to choose our actions, however, the results of our actions is out of our control. Once we give up the idea or trying to be Lord or Lady of the world, then life will be easier to understand and even more blissful.
I have been most fortunate to have taken initiation, surrendering to my spiritual guide His Divine Grace Bir Krishna Goswami, a person who amazes me by his practice, knowledge, enthusiasm, patience, understanding (I could go on).
I would like to thank my spiritual guide His Divine Grace Bir Krishna Goswami for his accepting me as his disciple, as I endeavor to move closer to God/Krishna by engaging in loving service to the Lord and to all other living entities.
I will you all the best, may you find peace and happiness eternally.
Dhira Krishna Das