The Determined believer in hell part 1

In a Universalist's point of view

The Holy Book of the living God suffers more from its exponents today than from its opponents. -Leonard Ravenhill

I have believed in the doctrine of the Universal salvation of all mankind now for about close to three years. Just before my wife and I became believers of this beautiful heresy (as some call it), I was a firm believer in hell. I have been a Christian now for about four years, and when I believed in hell, I lived in utter fear. I feared for my sons and my family and most of all, for myself as I knew I wasn't good at being a Christian. My wife, who is the most Godly person I know came across a testimony called a Revelation of hell by a woman called Mary K Baxter. When she finished the book, she was in tears and in fear for her mother who passed away a number of years ago from cancer. She read a part where there was an older woman burning in a small pit for not knowing Christ and it reminded my wife of her late mother as she really knew little about our saviour before she passed away. I felt absolutely helpless and there was nothing I could say or do to comfort my wife. For the first time as a Christian, I actually cursed my heavenly Father for creating me and all the rest of us. At the risk of going to hell, I was angry at God. Can you believe it. I believed in hell, but I acted like I didn't. How strange is that? I stopped going to church, and my pastor was phoning me and asking why I wasn't at church? My wife got upset with me as I stressed how I could not in good faith go to church. I was in torment. Then I felt in my heart that I was being lead to go this path, and I felt it was my Father leading me. So I asked Him if this is the path that He wants me to follow, please put it in my wife's heart too. He did! My wife stopped going to our church and things started to change for us in wisdom and knowledge of scripture. My anger for God eased and then it was reveled to me by a web site verse 1Tim 4:9-11.

" ⁹ This is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance.¹⁰ That is why we labor and strive, because we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all people, and especially of those who believe.

¹¹ Command and teach these things."

It hit me with a feeling I have never felt before. I looked into it some more. The web site is called Bible Truths by L Ray Smith. Ray taught me how to understand scripture for what it is. A blessing of knowledge to what the true nature of God really is. Another web site that helped me out was Tentmaker.com by Gary Amirault. I kept digging and reading and my love and compassion for my Father and beloved Brother Christ grew immensely. My love for all mankind regardless of what religion, creed, or whatever also grew. The fear of hell had no longer a hold on me. I was free to worship and love God without that bondage. I was free from religion and its institutionalized brainwashing system. My wife and I still seek fellowship, but not at a place with four walls and a cross. I came to understand what the gospel really meant, and discarded the belief that it was only good news to some. In my joy, and newfound freedom, I told my old church friends and strangers who are Christians of this great news, but to my surprise. I was accused of being a heretic and a son of the devil and that I should stop twisting scripture to make the message in the bible suite my desires. I tried showing them 1Tim 4:9-11, but what I noticed is that they refused to accept this and they did not command and teach this. I even had a good friend ask me "What about all those child molesters and killers?". I cannot begin to say how that question hurt. After all, are we not to love, bless and forgive our enemies. Recently here in Canada, a known child killer was given a life sentence, and as many found happiness in this sentence, others wished the death penalty be implemented in our penal system. I felt sad for the child who was taken away from her grief stricken family, But I couldn't help but feel great pity for the young man who committed this horrendous crim. I can just imagine his loneliness. I believe those who need love the most are the ones who deserve it the least as written by John Harrigan.It has become evident that many Christians do have a hidden thirst for vengeance, or at least do not want sinners to be saved if they do not repent and Christ hinted this in a parable of the prodigal son known as the older brother, who refused to join in the celebration for his younger brother's homecoming. How is this possible? With time, I became friends with many Christians who call themselves Universalists. We embarked on a journey to spread the good news among our fellow Christians, and many came to the same beliefs as ours. But many still refused to believe in the Good news. They would not allow themselves the possibility that their belief is wrong. Even more sad was that they showed no interest in the reason why we believe in what we believe. I find the more one loves his neighbor, the more he will open his mind and heart to this gospel. I have also learned that many of these determined hell believers put full trust in their church teachers without checking the spirit of truth of these teachings threw scripture. I found that many of them believe that if they don't believe in hell, they will end up in hell. Some reminded me of myself when the thought of hell motivated me to go to church. Many of them when they read scripture read it with their carnal eyes, and have a literal understanding of scripture and rob themselves of the blessings of knowing God's true nature. Some of them when they read scripture have a pharasitical spirit in them, that self-righteous pride in them that holds the spirit of truth at bay. One who knows our Father for what He truly is can only feel sorrow and pity for such people, just as Christ felt pity for Jerusalem before it's destruction. A Universalist feels blessed when one learns of the true love of a faithful heavenly Father. He does not boast about it, he or she goes around sharing this blessing to those who thirst for it. We are ministers who teach the ministry of reconciliation of all things to our Father through Christ His Son (2 Cor 5:11-21). My jaw drops when I read someone's blog on how he or she refutes universal salvation. How can you refute the will of God? How can you refute the desires of God? There can be only one conclusion as to why a hell believer can be so determined to believe that God will allow most of mankind roast for an eternity for being a sinner for a short span of history. The truth is not ready for them yet, and it is right so. Just as the Pharisees refused to believe that a sinner could be saved, so is it for them who believe in hell. We can only feel pity for them and pray for them, just as Christ did for the Pharisees, for they know not what they believe in just as the Pharisees knew not what they did. If they believe that Christ will cast sinners into an eternal oven, so much for Him turning the other cheek.