The "Gift" of Psychic Abilities or "Knowing"

Childhood - "knowing things"

As a child, very early on, I "knew things." That’s a pretty broad and nebulous statement but it was what I called it – about the time I started to school. I finally told my Granny about it and her advice at the time was "don’t worry about it; everybody knows things. Just keep it to yourself" Believing every word she said, and although nothing changed, I just kept "knowing things" but assuming everyone else knew things, too (and heeding Granny’s advice) I kept quiet about it.

In high school I was involved in a car accident of some magnitude. We all escaped with minor injuries and my first thought was to call Granny and let her know I’d be late getting home and we were okay. When she answered the telephone her first words were: "Are you hurt?" To say I was stunned is an understatement. I was 30 miles away and back then there was no way anyone could have told her (there were no cell phones, etc.).

When I got home I questioned her intensely about how she knew I’d been in a car wreck. Her explanation was that she "knew things" too and had all her life. Being old enough to pursue the conversation; I refused to drop the subject and she was forced to share her experiences with me. It seemed she’d had some sort of "psychic abilities" since childhood. Her first experience pertained to her mother who died in 1903 when she was six years old.

She said she always knew her mother would die and leave her orphaned from her earliest memories. She apparently attempted to discuss her fears, early on, not only with her mother but other female relatives, and her apprehensions were ignored as a child’s strong imagination. Her relatives also chose to ignore her premonition after the fact and she was left alone to wonder how she had known.

She married and had four children. The oldest was 13 and the youngest was four when she had a second traumatic experience which proved to be accurate and tragic. Her husband, my maternal grandfather, worked at the cotton gin in the little town (200 people) where they lived. They ginned at night during the heat of the summer as the machinery ran better. She said she was sleeping soundly and was suddenly awakened, somewhere around midnight, by a premonition of danger to her husband. I asked if she’d had a dream or nightmare and she emphatically said "no!"

She arose and got completely dressed – not knowing why – and went outside to sit on her front porch. She said the old gin had a certain cadence that could be heard all over town -- with which she was familiar. She sat on the porch in silence until the cadence changed. She stood up, went out the front gate and began walking to the gin (about 4 city blocks away). She said she knew, without doubt, her husband had been critically injured. Before she was halfway to the gin she met the men carrying him home on a makeshift stretcher. He died three days later and she was left to raise her children alone and never remarried.

She advised me I obviously had her "unfortunate skill of premonition" – although she refused to elaborate on it – and said I’d have to make some decisions as to how I would handle it. She suggested that if I chose to make the ability known it could bring unpleasant consequences. Again, I took her advice and although nothing changed I just accepted it as the way things were and let it go.

Having been raised in the church – in fact, every time the doors opened – Granny and I were there -- I continued to study the bible, attended Sunday school and church and pretty well had my Christian values established at an early age. Within that period of time I came to one conclusion as to my "knowing things." Some of us have more "knowing things" talent than others but we all have it. I had more than my share and decided it was definitely a spiritual oddity that was best ignored.

I most certainly did not view it as a "gift" and avoided any discussions on the subject. I found, however, that some people took great pleasure in touting their "psychic gifts" -- some real but most imagined -- and I'd just listen. I always knew the difference immediately but remained quiet on the subject. In all these years I've only met one person, other than my grandmother, that produced a truthful witness in my spirit.

Stepping Out In Faith

Years passed, I married and my husband was transferred to a small Texas town by his employer. We’d lived there perhaps a year when a child (an 11-year-old-girl) disappeared – without a trace – and the town was going crazy trying to find her. As I’d done everything I could to "quit knowing" it bothered me greatly when I realized I knew where the child was and that she was dead. After much prayer and soul searching I went to the police. I told them the child had been beaten, left in an open field to die and after death had been moved to a site where fresh dirt was mounded. I knew she had head injuries and her left arm was broken in two places.

The local police obviously thought I was mad as the proverbial hatter but having expended all other hope they followed up on what I told them – and found the little girl two days later. She was about three miles south of town where road construction was going on, buried under a mound of piled up dirt and her injuries were as I described them. An autopsy proved the remainder of my premonition, including she’d been moved, after death, from the place of the murder to the construction site.

Thankfully, the police kept my part in her discovery quiet due to the ongoing investigation but to say what followed was a nightmare is a true understatement. They first considered that I must have had some part in the child’s death because I knew too much. They gave that line of questioning up when I proved I’d been in Las Vegas, Nevada for a two week period (a week before and a week after the child’s death) working and had not returned home during that time. Also, I’d never laid eyes on the little girl although I had met her parents socially.

They then decided that if I had known where the body was located I must have the ability to name her killer. No amount of explaining would convince them I didn’t know. It was the first time in my life I actually tried to come to "knowing" deliberately. I thought about it, prayed about it, and wept about it – but nothing. Obviously, I couldn’t "know" on demand. I even went to the road construction site, at the request of the police, as they believed it might help me "conjure up" (as they called it) something. At the site I only had an overwhelming sense of sadness and ultimate evil. I credited that to what I already knew.

From time-to-time the police would give me respite for a month or so but they were in pretty constant contact with me for about a year – off and on. I breathed a sigh of relief when my husband was again transferred and we left that town. To my knowledge they never found the person(s) who murdered the little girl and my heart grieves for her family to this day. I can not even begin to imagine the sorrow of losing a child; much less under those circumstances.

I did attend the child’s funeral as requested by the police. They hoped I would feel something about someone that would give them a clue. I stood in the back of the church and watched all the mourners file out after the brief memorial service. Nothing or no one rang any bells with my subconscious and I stepped outside to the church porch as we waited for the family to exit the church and go to the cemetery.

A friend waved and motioned me to join a little group standing close to the waiting family car. I left the porch and joined them just as the family came out. I’ve never had a feeling like that before or since. As they passed me I knew that I knew something – but had no idea what. It had nothing to do with any one family member or anyone surrounding them as they got in the car – it was all of them as a group. The detective that was standing a short distance from me quickly came to my side – I must have looked strange or something – and asked, "What?"

I assured him "nothing" and he again stepped back. I made my excuses to my friends as to not going to the cemetery, got in my car and went home. I was exhausted and totally, emotionally, drained. That day was the first time I had seen what I now know is an "aura." The whole family, getting in the car, glowed bright red – obviously in my eyes only. I knew nothing more than I had, no one stood out, and nothing came to me but the aura.

The Choice: To Know or Not to Know

I believe my early thoughts on "knowing" are valid. Our minds are wired as they are because we are neither intelligent enough nor strong enough, as human beings, to deal with some things. I know I’m not. Over these many years my prayers have been answered. Occasionally I’ll feel a twinge of "knowing" and immediately go into prayer dispelling the feeling. The Lord is good and answers me as it goes away. It’s now very rare and I’m thankful.

It’s difficult for me to understand how other "knowing" human beings use that mechanism for gain. Some make a living at it whether actually having the instinct or claiming it and becoming charlatans for the easily led. The late Edgar Cayce was perhaps the only person I’ve ever accepted as real and valid that was well known to the public. He only used his "talents" (if that’s what it is) for the good of mankind and peaceful purposes. It also took a terrible toll on him both mentally and physically.

Any one who subscribes to unusual mental capabilities in the field of the unknown, is far braver than I. The bible says the devil comes to lie, steal, kill and has supernatural powers. So, no matter what any one of us "knows" beyond the realm of reality on this earth; it’s always prudent to ask some very pertinent questions:

Who or what am I hearing from? Am I absolutely, beyond any doubt, positively sure what’s in my head is of the Lord and not the devil? To what purpose will my "knowledge" be used? Am I strong enough to stand up for what I "know" when ridiculed? I succumbed to "knowing" one time due to the death of a child – which to me, at that time, was worth whatever consequences came to bear. The only result of my "knowing" was a family got to bury their child; as to my knowledge the killer was never found. I was, therefore, only instrumental in confirming death and the accompanying sorrow it brought.

Since that time when my answer is "I don’t know" those words have a far deeper connotation to me than anyone realizes. The reality is "I do know -- just not enough."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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dahoglund 6 years ago from Wisconsin Rapids

I have always found such abilities interesting although I have no personal experience with them. I think they may be "natural" as opposed to "supernatural." There is a lot we don't know about such things. There have been test in psychology labs that show some people seem to have more of these abilities than others. Albert Payson Terhune, who was once a popular writer of dog stories, a dog breeder and a Theologian or at least a clergyman claimed that dogs had telepathic ability. There is a lot in this world we do not understand.


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Your points are well taken and appreciated. Whether natural or supernatural it's always been disquieting to me. Thanks for stopping by and your astute comments. Best, Sis


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Ghost Whisper 77 6 years ago from The U.S. Government protects Nazi War Criminals

Oh this was great reading and knowing of you! Thanks for sharing! I see so many people who possibly had a gift such as this and it went to greed-thus God leaves and the devil steps in..then who knows what lies they speak.

I do believe that God installs this stonger in people such as yourself and you--good spirit--just understand that "knowing" can cause many problems if you are not balanced and blessed with God. God possibly didn't want you to know the killer of that child, you were to only reveal the child's whereabouts? It makes sense to me.

God gives many gifts to others but it is their choice on how to use them--and certainly not for money!! Funny when you say 'knowing' but not how. I can relate but it is much different. Do you ever meet people and they 'shine?' I call it shining because I don't know what it is. I do not see auras or what you see-but something makes them shine-stand out-and also dark stands out. Just curious if you know what I mean. I don't delve in it at all-It is what it is-I do pay attention to it though-I figure it is a gift from God and leave it at that!


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prasetio30 6 years ago from malang-indonesia

Thanks for share the real story from you. The big gift for me is have complete body. The psychic abilities is came for God. Always think positively. Nice hub.


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks, Ghost. No, I've only seen an aura that one time. I do experience a "witness" in my spirit as to people I meet but don't consider that outside the "normal" for Christians. I've remained at peace these many years by refusing to acknowledge anything further after the one incident with the child. In truth, I have no idea what prompted me to write about the incident as I've shared it with only closest family and a couple of friends -- and it was over 15 years ago. Hopefully, my experience doesn't encourage others to take such paths but is instead a warning of the dangers of such "insight." I appreciate your comments and thoughts and thank you for sharing. Best, Sis


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

prasetio30 - thanks for stopping by and your comments. I agree, good health is invaluable. Best, Sis


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Ghost Whisper 77 6 years ago from The U.S. Government protects Nazi War Criminals

Your experience does not encourage others to take any wrong paths--promise--in fact says just the opposite-it was a good sharing of a story about you-no worries! ;)


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks, sweet Ghost - I appreciate your opinion. Best, Sis


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Tammy Lochmann 6 years ago

Thanks for sharing. I knew there was something extra special about you. I enjoyed this story.

sincerely, Tammy


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

What a sweet thing to say and thank you. I've never come forward and offered information again! Appreciate you stopping by. Best, Sis


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Miss Belgravia 6 years ago from Fort Worth, Texas

Thank you for sharing your experiences, Sis. I have a friend with similar abilities, who finds them frightening and has had a very difficult time dealing with them. Her mother and daughter also have this "gift," and have dealt with it in their own ways. You have helped me understand their feelings, and I hope I can be a better friend to them now. Many of us envy you for having this ability, but now I understand what a burden it can be. Take care, and best wishes.


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Miss Belgravia -- my grandmother said there was some "family" or inherent capabilities involved with "knowing" -- but it's a mystery for sure. Perhaps each person deals with it in their own way -- thanks again for your comments and stoppng by. Best, Sis


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habee 6 years ago from Georgia

Sis, I've "known things" since I was about 12. My mother, grandmother, and great-grandmother did, too. I guess it runs in the family!


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks for stopping by, Habee. My Granny seemed to thought it was a "family" thing, too. However, it seems to have skipped a generation before me. Who knows? Best, Sis


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James A Watkins 6 years ago from Chicago

Thank God you were in Las Vegas when the murder occurred. My paternal grandmother knew things. I enjoyed your story. It is very well written and interesting.


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Angela Blair 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you, James. This particular incident was a huge eye-opener for me and yes, I thanked God I was in Las Vegas and could prove it. Appreciate you stopping by. Best, Sis


Jessica727 6 years ago

My friend, Mike (who we all affectionately called tweak), was also murdered at a construction site in Texas. He was beaten to death but there are no leads. He was traveling from Florida where we lived. I guess what I was wondering is if you feel you have any control over what you know. Is there a certain pattern or is it sometimes random without any connection?


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Angela Blair 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Hi Jessica727 -- sorry for the delay in answering -- been a bit hectic around my abode for several months -- but I'm back in the saddle now. To answer your question: I don't believe anyone has control over "knowing" other than to accept it and follow through or deny it although many claim that talent and make a fairly good living selling their "talent". I've chosen to deny it as life is as it is. If one seeks to know the future (or the reasons connected with the past) it's overwhelming. In this article I shared my shattering experience with willingly entering into the psychic -- and that's ultimately what it is. No, I have no control over what I "know" but I do have control over what I do with that knowledge and I choose not to acknowledge and follow through on it -- EVER AGAIN. It's painful, sad and often tragic. I suppose I will "know" all my life but have chosen to live a "normal" life rather than venture into the unknown and basically uncontrollable. I personally believe that all persons who have the ability to "know" must first decide who or what they are hearing from. As I don't consider myself intelligent enough to make that decision I just refuse the whole thing -- and life's been wonderful ever after.

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend Mike. Life and death take some strange turns and it's ultimately those of us left alive that have to deal with death's cruel irony. Bless you and may you find peace and comfort hereafter. Best, Sis


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Au fait 4 years ago from North Texas

A very interesting hub. I, too, have 'known' things, but it isn't something I can do on demand. It's been a long time since the last time. I agree with the questions you suggest at the end. One thing I have noted is that if I am angry or in a negative mood of any kind for any reason, I can't get a correct read, so to speak.

I think we all have this ability in varying degrees as you yourself stated, but I am suspicious of anyone who claims to be able to control it or 'know' things on demand. I'm especially suspicious of people making money from it, and question just how true most of what they come up with will turn out to be. I think when a person tries to force it, for any reason, but especially money, that is when the answer may be most likely to come from the wrong source, if you get what I mean.

A really interesting hub, Angela. Voting it up!


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Angela Blair 4 years ago from Central Texas Author

Au fait -- we're in total agreement -- and I do get what you mean. Thanks so much for commenting. Best/Sis


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mommytalks 4 years ago from Phoenix, AZ

Interesting hub! Your UFO hub lead me here ... and, yes. I have "known" things too, but only on a few occasions. I just "saw" the event/action in my head before it happened (and there was no way I would have known). My mom had what she called "six-second flashes", but then never really elaborated with me.

I was raised in parochial schools, but do not necessarily consider myself a Christian now. I have more of an Eastern/world-view. Regardless, I believe that everyone has the ability to do such things. It is just whether or not they are "open" to it.

My "skills" lean more towards "seeing" things/ghosts/spirits. Although I have seen "bad" ones, too, and am in no hurry to "develop" my "talents".


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Angela Blair 4 years ago from Central Texas Author

mommytalks -- glad you were led to this Hub by the UFO story -- strangely, I've never made any connection between the two nor consider then related. The "knowing" is something else entirely which I've never considered a "gift" and avoid as much as possible. Funny, if I had a choice I'd avoid another UFO sighting, too -- guess I'm not very good fodder for the unknown! Thanks for commenting. Best/Sis


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Chad Thiele 4 years ago from Hudson, Wisconsin

This is a very interesting hub. I believe that what you experienced is a form telepathy or ESP.

I think that your grandmother was right in that “everybody knows things.” And, currently it is best to not talk about it when it happens because people will tend to think that you are crazy.

It might be the case that traumatic experiences are easier to “know”. Or maybe they are just easier to identify when you receive them (if you “know something” that is more mundane, you could dismiss it as a memory of something that happened to you in the past.)

It is also good advice not to act on the things that “you know”, because as you point out, you don’t know the source of the message.

The mind is a strange thing that neuroscientists are just beginning to understand. They have already been able to find ways to use thoughts to move robotic arms and legs. There have also been reports that scientists have found ways to translate thoughts into words on a computer. (I plan to write a hub about this in the near future.)

I also believe that in the next two decades, with the rapid increase in technology, we are going to learn a lot about the way that our minds work. That might include proving, definitively, that ESP exists (or doesn’t).

Thanks for sharing this hub.


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Angela Blair 3 years ago from Central Texas Author

Hello Chad -- and my sincere apologies for not answering your comments -- truth is -- I thought I had (must have been daydreaming). Your points are very well taken and I find great logic in what you say. Thanks so very much for your astute comments and again, please accept my apology! Best/Sis


April 23 months ago

I have these feelings and they always pertain to me. Earlier this year I knew my car would get stolen exactly when it did but I could have prevented it. I knew to move blankets away from a sick friend but I didn't. I ended up with a crazy mess the next morning. Over the weekend a friend met a girl. He wanted to take her to my apartment. I knew she would rob me. Normally I would have let her come. I decided to start listening since I would be upset with myself if I got robbed. The worst thst could happen is that she turned out to be ok and I wasn't hospitable. He took her to his house and she robbed him. This led me here because I was curious about the experiences of others.


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Angela Blair 23 months ago from Central Texas Author

April -- thanks so very much for your comments -- and yes, "knowing" is a strange gift (so to speak). Some of us have it and some don't and often those who don't are very skeptical of those of us who do! Each individual must decide if they wish to recognize and utilize this ability or ignore it. I, personally have done some of both. Much luck to you - Best/Sis

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