The Greatest Battles and Looking in the Mirror

Awakening

The greatest battles I face are my own. They lie within me. I could not seem to put hub #35 together. I always pray for an inspiration by way of the Holy Spirit before I write. Since my last 'writing' I have started ten. I felt I was missing 'it' over the last couple of weeks. I completed three or four hubs and none sat right with in me. They have gone to the pile of unpublished hubs. I look at those writings as practice. Nothing is by mistake in 'Gods' world. Writing has been an awakening into my soul through the loving power of Christ Jesus. Much has been revealed to me since I started my journey on hub pages. There was no mistake I was to be here. I know it was a God send. The passion I have to share his truth in written words has compelled me to work harder. God is God 'He' knows what he does. The seed to write has grown into a dream. The dream into a vision. The desire of my heart I believe God will bring to fruition in 'His' time.To him I give the Glory. Amen I know his plans are far greater then my finite mind can muster up. He says 'know that 'I am God'. He has the plans and design in his loving hands. The outcome is in his hands. He knows our hearts and no heart is hidden.

Every rescue has a story. It is by his works and grace that today I can share my experiences, strength, and hope with others so that they too might be helped as I am. I give all the Glory to God. Jesus is the river of life. He calls his children to share the good news of the Gospel. Not watered down, not changed. He is the same God yesterday, today and tomorrow. When I am not self serving, conformed by my own abilities and attitudes Christ can use me for his Kingdom. I too was rescued, let me not forget and be humbled.

I have been similar to a large, beautiful, black stallion.The one that stands on his hind legs and flares up his front legs. I needed to be broken of my ideas and shaped into what Christ would have me to be. Like the stallion needs to be saddle broke, I too needed to be broke. It is not the spirit that gets broke on the stallion but the will to do it his way. It is the same with me. God needed to show me a couple of 'things' because he loves, he disciplines. I did not recognize the blinders I was wearing. Christ has nudged and pulled on me in his a gentle, loving Heavenly Father manor but I did not see. Like the stallion until I am broke, I will probably stay where I am at. I will remain the same. When my will is conformed to he that trains me I can move ahead to much better things. When 'I am weak he is strong.' How can I give away what I do not have? Who can sit on the wild stallion? When he is broken his beauty will shine, his fear will be tamed. Others will be drawn to him. He will be touchable. He will intuitively know trust. Not because he did it but his trainer worked with him. Christ worked with me. I needed to see my part. I can be wild and stubborn. I may think I know, but how little do I know? When my way is broke down, I am actually free. In my nature, I am blinded. The God of rescue, grace, and mercy will come to any that call. He is the heart fixer. He is the healer. He is provision. He goes for the lost. He is the Heavenly Father. If there is a weight on my shoulder I can not move very well. He says in James 5:1, 'you have not because you ask not.' God is patient. Sometimes it takes years of pain or suffering to subject our short comings to the King of Kings. He created no two alike. When we go to the Father and repent he wipes our plate clean, as pure white snow. Christ died for us so we would not perish, but have eternal life with him. In Paradise. Thank you Lord Jesus.

Many that read know my husband David went into an alcohol rehab for 90 days. I thank God he answered many prayers. It was a long, hard road but he carried me. he carried David. I kept my faith in Christ. In my pain I was brought to my knees and laid it at the alter. My prayer was answered in Gods way, not my way. God does know what he is doing. I have seen a man with a changed heart. A love more deep for the Lord. A man humbled. It has been beautiful. David looks fantastic, he has gained a much needed 24 lbs. I see victory through Christ in him. I see the man of God I saw in David when we met, only better. He got off track but in him was Christ. Because of his Grace David was spared from hurting someone by drinking and driving.

I was working at the Salon Saturday when David called. He had a 12 hour pass. We had plans for Saturday eve. He sounded 'loaded' to me. All too familiar. He knows how to play the game. You can not fool an 'olé' fool. He goes back in in a few hours and blows a zero. He gets away with it. He was getting a 'buzz' in before I got home. I told him I deplored him because he was drinking. I said a few more choice words. He denied, I hung up on him. David knows I write this story. His hope is someone may hear that needs to hear. I did not go home. I went visiting, shopping, errands. I came home 4 hours later with food. He did not eat. I said little. He laid down because of a headache. Yeah I thought. I did think more but will not write that one down. I gave David a ride much later. I wanted to make sure he blew a zero. He was not coming back here. He told me he thought he should stay and not take a pass next weekend because he needed to work on himself. He knew I was upset and angry. He denied the truth many times. I let it go.

I woke Sunday to allot of snow. I passed on Church. It was freezing and blowing. I turned on the TV to tune into a Christian Broadcast. I heard a Pastor on TV share, 'we have all done things we wish we could take back and sometimes our words were vicious and cruel' He said, 'it is not just stabbing or wounds or beating up people that hurt but words we have said or even things we have failed to do'. His words moved on my heart. At that moment I realized that although I say I have forgiven David my actions and words have spoke loud and clear. They have spoke that I am better because I have not lost jobs or got a DUI. No, but it was by the Grace of God. I would not have a license for years on end had I been stopped while drinking and driving, those many occasions. If Christ was not covering me I could have taken a life. I thought because David had a slip and was in a heap, I was all that. I have judged. I have said cruel things. I do not throw rocks at a hurt dog do I? No I do not. How much more are we to our Savior?

God came for all sinners, that does include Skye. He came for drunks, addicts, prostitutes, over eaters, non-eaters, cutters, abusers, abused, sex addicts, liars, cheats, robbers, gamblers, the corrupt, the scandals, the greed busters, all sinners. No matter the color white, black, yellow, red, blue, or green. No matter the profession or not the Doctor, Teacher, Hairstylist, Lawyer, Homemaker, Electrician, Writer, Homeless, Politician, President, Jew or Gentile he came for us. Would I go treat my friends or daughters with cruel words if they made a mistake? Do they treat me with cruel words or actions when I blow it. No, they do not. God keeps me covered. He has provided. What am I, all that? Does our Lord show compassion for the suffering? Yes he does. I am part of the suffering. He loves his children. If we come to him we are his kids. If we are born of the Father we belong to him. Fathers love their children. I trusted Christ for everything except Davids redemption. David openly loves the Lord. His name is in the Lamb's book of life, along with mine and all God's children.

I hit my knees. I know that I know a good conclusion is brought to a difficult situation with Christ. 'God can turn all things for good to those that love him' (Philippians) My attitude can make or break it for someone. I am not without sin. I am forgiven. Is David exempt from forgiveness. Is God not shaping and molding him for his Kingdom? Does he not give David favor? Is David a worse sinner then I? I asked forgiveness. I was humbled. I could feel the warmth of Jesus covering me. In a whisper I heard ' now you see.' I had an awakening. I am so grateful. I am writing with a big elephant tear in each eye. My writers block has come to pass. I had to be free from that which hindered me to move forward in Christ Jesus. I am free. I am made pure as snow. He has wiped the slate clean. I have made amends. I have a deliverer, his name is Jesus. God makes winners, not looses.

Precious child of God. You are loved by the Savior. Opportunity and doors will open for you, that will be dynamic. Lay down at the alter that which blocks you. God is the God of intervention. He will care for those we love. He will meet you where you are at. Thank-you friend for coming by to visit. I am the Lords hands and feet. He is training me up for very good things to come. Forgive your mistakes and know 'he will give you the desires of your heart'. (Psalm 37:4) God is amazing. Praise to Jesus.

Written In Love.

ENJOY 'Sorry'. This song will put a tear in the eye. Amen. Love You.


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Support Med. 6 years ago from Michigan

All of us must be broken from something. But once broken, God heals,(he came to heal the brokenhearted)then we can follow, because His yoke is easy and his burden is light' (and we no longer fight against His leading). Be blessed.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Hidrpastor Love you sweet one. You pour with love for Christ. I am honored to know you. Shine on girlfriend. Blessings and more blessings Your sis in Christ. I will be over soon for a read. Hugs


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drpastorcarlotta 6 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

OUTSTANDING INSPIRATIONAL HUB!!!!!!! You go skye2day! You know I LOVE YOU SISTER and have missed you too!! Come visit me when you get a chance!! Blessings!!!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

h_kahleranderson Prayers are always a good thing, thank you. 'All is well'. Growing pains are called just that for a reason. May you be Blessed on your hub journey. I am grateful to have a gifted new friend at the hubs. I look forward to a lasting friendship. Hugs + + +


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v_kahleranderson 6 years ago from San Jose, California

Hello, Skye2day, all I can say here is to tell you I will lift you in my prayers. And it is wonderful to see all these Hubbers supporting you.

Stay strong in the Lord, and may God continue to guide you.

Love in Christ Jesus,

VKA


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Rebecca You are precious. Thank You.


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Rebecca E. 6 years ago from Canada

You have some unmatched writing done here, this is powerful and passionate and I can relate. Thanks for writing this. It is beautiful. Bookmarked, and rated up and Stumbled Upon.


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Mekenzie 6 years ago from Michigan

skye, precious woman that you are... your heart is so transparent and loving. Isn't it awesome how God pursues us and breaks our wild side? How great is the love of the Father that we should be called the children of God.

I am so happy for David and so happy that you are learning to love him and see him as Jesus does. May God build you both up in the Faith each and every day. I'm sure He has BIG plans for your life because He never wastes a trial. Blessings!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Dave Mathews Hi Bro, I am grateful my esperience helped you reach a place of freedom in Christ. He has an awesome life for you and yours planned. It 'aint' always easy but bro it is worth it. Knowning Christ is the only way. We are so blessed to know him. I pray for the lost. Love n Hugs

You are a sweetie be that to your wife. A reminder for my sassy flesh as well. ( -: In Joy + + +


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Ann Nonymous Thank You for visiting my hubs. I am very grateful. The Holy Spirit Moves in me when I write. I go with a plan and he has another. What a great Father we have. His works are far greater then my finite mind. I pray those that need touching will be touched through me by 'I Am' I must get by and read a writing of yours. I will do that Love N Hugs


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Hi Deborrah You are a love of loves. Thank you for your care and TLC. Your friend Amen SIster


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DeBorrah K. Ogans 6 years ago

Skye2Day, This is quite inspiring! Your openness is so touching. It is so transparent that it is as though one is right there with you! So glad to hear that David is continuing to work through His recovery! The journey continues; so glad that you have been able to see the David you married yet better... He may have a few rough spots but just continue to be firm ... Yes! "God is a God of intervention..."

As you say: "He loves his children. If we come to him we are his kids. If we are born of the Father we belong to him. Fathers love their children. I trusted Christ for everything except Davids redemption. David openly loves the Lord. His name is in the Lamb's book of life, along with mine and all God's children." God is able!

Thank you for sharing the warmth of your heart! Keep looking "UP" and raising your hands to the Lord in Praise! "The JOY of the Lord is your strength! Continue to be the HP angel you are and let His bright Light shine through you! In His love Peace & Blessings!


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Ann Nonymous 6 years ago from Virginia

Thank you for being so open and honest, Skye2day! very inspiring ending!


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Elana Hi my hp angel. I love hearing from you.

I know your writing little fingers have been very busy. You sweetie, are a vessel that touches many hearts and souls. 'It is well'. Amen girlfriend. I am soaring on Eagles wings today. I have a deeper understanding. Glory to the Father.He is truly amazing. It is an awesome walk in the park when we hold His hand. He has us covered. I love ya. I will be by very soon to catch up on a read. Hugs+ + +

heart4theword. Hello, I think your little widget is precious, as you are too. It is a Blessing to hear from you. I thank God we landed on each others path at hp. God is so cool. I am going to get caught up and read. I will be soon to visit. Love Ya+ + +


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heart4theword 6 years ago from hub

Always enjoy reading your hub-pages! It is so great, God gives a new day, like you said a clean slate:) Great Hub!


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Lady_E 6 years ago from London, UK

Hello...

Thanks for an inspirational, touching Hub. I'm glad David is doing well and I believe he will have complete recovery. Keep on encouraging him. (Iron Sharpeneth Iron).

No matter what you are passing through - "It is well".

God gave you David as a blessing. Remember the Shunamite woman who had no son, then Elisha? prayed for her and she gave birth to one. Well, that was a blessing. But, recall the child fell ill and died. She must have thought, he was a blessing, how come?

You know the story, she went back to the prophet, he prayed and her child came alive. Her blessing restored.

The enemy will not steal your joy. "It is Well".

Much Love,

Elena xx


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Hello Pamela99 God is the same yesterday today tommorrow. I do not understand God has never moved? He owns it all he never needed to move. The Holy Spirit moves in us, on us, through us to touch others, Glory to God. How is your hp journey coming along? I will stop in soon for a read. Thank you sister. Hugs Your friend + + +


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Pamela99 6 years ago from United States

Skye2day, That was a beautiful hub that was written from your heart. God has never moved. We are the ones that get off tract. He forgives all sins as we repent because He is a God of love, the alpha, the omega. I believe His love is incomprehensible to a human being but we have His word where we can find all the answers. We all have tough times and we all have times of repentance but God knows the ending. Be blessed with His great love and joy that is available to us all.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Quill My sweet friend. Hi. When I read your comment here came the elephant tears again. Joy tears. I know that I know Christ moves quickly when he has the reigns. Your very words were divine clarity. I started my outline for book. It flowed like the sweet river of living, fresh, running water Christ is. My fingers could not move fast enough. No mistake. God truly Blessed me with your friendship. I must come and read an update on your books. I can't wait. I will have to return. Hugs + + +


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Hi Ken. I love your writing. You are precious.'Mixed Bag'. Amen Brother. I look forward to a new read. I know Christ gets a chukle out of his ken. It is all good. Very Good. You are his design. I am grateful you crossed my path. God is awesome. Thank You for coming to visit.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

FROGGY213 Hello I have been meaning to hop over for a visit. I did not forget my message to you. I am very glad you are here. I need you to pls email your physical address. I love ya froggy. You and yours have been on my heart. In my prayers. I know Christ is going to care for you. I will hop over soon for a read. Hugs Brother+ + + skye2day@yahoo.com


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glorybeenow 6 years ago from Texas

Very few people can put their hearts into their posts. God bless you.


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Hello, hello, 6 years ago from London, UK

A very inspiring hub. Thank you.


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Dave Mathews 6 years ago from NORTH YORK,ONTARIO,CANADA

skye2day, I was so deeply touched and moved by this one, you made me realize just how shameful I have been at many times to my wife, who I love. This Hub also teaches and

re-teaches the power of two simple words,"I'm Sorry"

God bless you for this one for it has pointed out at least to me, some of my sinfulness towards others, especially when I am wollowing in self-pity,or just being inconsiderate, or uncaring,or unsympathetic, or indifferent, or uncompassionate, which at times comes so easily, and without thought.

I needed this kick in the A$$ to awaken me once again.

Many thanks and God bless.

Brother Dave.


"Quill" 6 years ago

Catch the Hugs Sister as they are coming fast and furious right at you. I have only been around Hub Pages a short while and you were one of the first that God placed in my path.

I have watched you grow and grow even more and this hub shows the maturity and the fruit of that growth, God bless you for your faithfulness to the Father and to yourself in facing these struggles. You know you are never alone, He is always there for you as He is for each in your life.

Stay strong in your faith, I so love the way I have been witness to the what He has done in you.

I will be committed to prayer for more Lord...lots more.

Many Blessings and Love...


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Ken R. Abell 6 years ago from ON THE ROAD

Thanks for sharing from the bottom of your heart. Life is a mixed bag. Keep hubbing on & as Paul wrote his friends in Phillipi, keep pressing on. Peace & blessings.


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Froggy213 6 years ago from On A Mountain In Puerto Rico

Skye, you brought some tears to my eyes as I read hub #35--thank you for sharing and know that my prayers are with you.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Dear Saint. Thank You for your words of wisdom. Amen Brother. I am grateful for all the Christ followers at hp. Yes I share my story. It is not because it is all about me but it is all about Christ. I really am not brave. It is by Christ I have strength. I am his hands and feet. If one heart is encouraged then Praise God. I wish I could always write happy, but life is not always a walk in the park. The spirit moves in me to breathe hope to others. It is in the storms I grow. I can share with others that they to can get through the stormy seas with Christ. God is love, love is God. He wants the best for his kids. In joy I am a willing vessel. Christ is pruning us for better things to come.There is always a rainbow after a storm. I am grateful and Blessed. He is my provision. Saint you are a gem. I know Christ smiles on you. (-:


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Saintatlarge 6 years ago from Canada

Dear Sister, thank you for sharing life as it is. Many would not be so brave.

Roses don't grow without a little manure to strengthen the soil. Be strengthened in him who is your gardener and hold on tight. Stand firm in your conviction and present his word to him, reminding him of his love for Dave and his power to deliver. Grace is his greatest weapon of blessing for us and the cross can heal anything in anyones life, no matter what!!

"The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD delivers him out of them all." Ps.34.18-20

Believing with you... L.


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Hi Artin That was fast. Thank you brother. I am on fire for our Savior. I know his passionate love is ever so beautiful. Paradise will be unbelievabe. It is in his loving discipline I grow, He wants the best for his kids. He is the potter. I am the clay. He is the way, truth , life. I am eternaly grateful. I Praise God he is my all. He is everywhere. I am so thankful I know him. Many do not. We have much to do for our Creator. Keep writing my new friend.


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Artin2010 6 years ago from Northwestern Florida, Gulfcoast

Hello RevLady and Sky2day, thanks for being fans and reading me. Thanks also for comments, much appreciated. I pray that David's chosen path is kept with the Holy Spirit. May you be happy, inspired to write many more hubs and experience the fullness of that passionate love Christ Jesus has for each of us. Above all feel blessed at the start of each and everyday day, and let it continue onto the next! God Bless :smile:


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains Author

Rev Lady You are awesome. I do Love You. May the Peace of Christ fill your heart with JOY girlfriend Hugs + + +


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RevLady 6 years ago from Lantana, Florida

A very touching and human story skye2day, that is the story for many climbing high mountains of difficulties, trying to make heaven our home.

"God came for all sinners, that does include Skye. He came for drunks, addicts, prostitutes, over eaters, non-eaters, cutters, abusers, abused, sex addicts, liars, cheats, robbers, gamblers, the corrupt, the scandals, the greed busters, all sinners. No matter the color white, black, yellow, red, blue, or green. No matter the profession or not the Doctor, Teacher, Hairstylist, Lawyer, Homemaker, Electrician, Writer, Homeless, Politician, President, Jew or Gentile he came for us." AMEN, AMEN!

Not only do we repent of our transgressions and pray knowing that God has forgiven us, but that Jesus also prays for us as our advocate before the Father. "My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One." 1 John 2:1

All glory to God for He is good and His MERCIES endures forever!

Forever His,

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