There is No Death
Early 4 AM my 6 month old daughter with happy delight was not at all sleepy. She played on the un-lit living room floor while I sat nearby half awake admiring her sweet play. This early morning play will be a memory I will never forget. I felt a light tickle at the crown of my head and a warmth in my whole body that can only be described as love and divine grace. With open eyes, the darkened room filled with a luminous nectar of golden amber rain between me and my daughter. In that moment I was open to this divine loving presence.
Later that same day mid-morning, I received a frantic call from my sister while I was at the bank. My sister informed me that my grandmother had passed. As I walked to the car pushing my daughter's stroller stunned with the sudden news the amazing awe of the early morning memory flooded my mind and heart. I have never experienced anything of this sort before but without a doubt that loving presence of grace I felt was my grandmother. My grandmother never did meet my daughter which I named after her. I felt the sadness and the amazement of the moment.
My grandmother was a very dynamic educator with a PhD in nursing. At age 75 she continued her education further to become a nurse practitioner because she did not know the word retirement. She gave me strength, love of education, strong work ethic, love of service, and enjoyment of life. Her strong love for life was filled with work and play. My grandmother worked to play, she would say. Her passing was unexpected.
At the funeral I remember her friends from her church run to my side while I was holding my daughter. They asked if they could help watch her while I ate the lovely meal the church prepared prior to the funeral. As I walked away I witnessed my grandmother's friends smiling with joy holding my daughter. I could see a golden lit arc like a crescent moon around them. I believe that glowing light or aura was my grandmother introducing her great-granddaughter who she has been bragging about for 6 months by pictures. The appearance warmed my heart. I began to realize the we are more than our body.
I did see her one last time about a week after her death. I was talking to my mother on the cell phone about my grandmother. We became quiet. I could feel her presence once again with healing warmth and gentle tears. Over my right shoulder the golden amber luminous glow formed into my grandmother's form. Oh. No words describe this peace. I told my mother what I saw and though she could not see anything she could feel the same warmth. I was also wearing my grandmother's watch, and the time stopped. The battery wore out at the exact time I saw my grandmother's light body.
I have never seen that light or aura again. Occasionally I will have a dream. One dream I laugh at was one with my grandmother telling me to take ascorbic acid. I was puzzled because I had never really heard that term before. I looked it up and learned it was Vitamin C. Of course my grandmother would be telling me to take my vitamins but in her own terminology.
I have always heard stories about people seeing apparitions. I have not really had an opinion either way, but I have had an attitude of open heart open mind. Yes our body will someday die, but for sometime after the death of our body it seems to continue. Perhaps we say our last good bye or let go the earthy attachments. Our spirit or essence lives in a way science cannot measure. I now believe there is no death.