Oh I am so glad you asked!
I attempted suicide when I was about 25. I spent years in counseling with no relief. Life had no meaning to me. God was stirring in my heart. Seems every corner I turned there was someone placing a tract in my hand. I jokingly said "hmm, these people must see something (bad) in me that this keeps happening". But I felt compelled to read each and everyone of them. It wasn't until 5 years later that I went seeking a church. The very first visit I was ready for harvest and ready to surrender.
When Jesus came into my heart it was immediate change! Contentment! When I discovered all that God had to say to me personally in His powerful Word I was amazed! I could throw out that daisy...he loves me, he loves me not! HE LOVES EVEN ME! Doors began to open and I saw Jesus!
My eyes were opened! I chose (choose) my friends differently, my values changed, I no longer cared more for myself than for others. Those who are not my friends (including enemies) I see differently and as less of a personal threat. I grieve differently, I rejoice differently. I have found new friends that are like minded. I have more of desire to serve others rather than the expectation of being served. Things I used to see as "fun" are now a waste of time and energy. Things I used to cling to (personal possessions) no longer have any meaning.
My heart aches for those who cannot see or who have been so brainwashed by the world. In one breath I say, Come quickly Lord Jesus but in another breath I pray that the Lord not return until my loved ones surrender themselves and their will for His!
I have guidance, new wisdom, an abundance of love for others, with allowing God control over my life there is less stress of micro-controlling things and people in my surroundings. Oh how I love Jesus! Because he first loved me!
Yes, thank you for asking!