Yes, I would call on God. I do not feel ready. I have prayed and meditated for 30 years and was before that living what I consider to be a decent life. Still, I am not ready. I have good days until I am pushed or feel that I am pushed and then I realise that I am not in the place i thought I was or wish to be.
"Dear Lord, Grant that I may be strong, intensify my faith in Thee, and may I live a much more purer life. Forgive me for my iniquities, and grant me the spirit of acceptance and a stronger heart. Help me to let go of this world, in order to hold on to your world, here and in the life to come. Amen."