Hi EdG., You can't go deeper in the things of the Lord until you have a personal relationship with Him. Even with your comment, I want you to know there is nothing you can say about the Lord or do that He will not accept you. The beauty of the Lord is that He desires a personal relationship with you and that isn't dirty. But no matter how dirty you get, you can never get too dirty that the Lord Jesus will stop loving you. He loves you with the love that you have never had before. He loves you more than you could ever hope for. He wants to help you in every area of your life. He wants to turn your sorrows into joy, your defeats into victory. He is reaching out to you asking you to come to Him and let Him help you to be the wonderful person He created you to be. He has a purpose and a plan for your life. Answer the call; you won't be disappointed. Be Blessed.