Based on the way you phrased this question, it sounds to me like you accept that these are two valid possibilities (perhaps the only two options in your mind). One being no afterlife at all and, the other, the Christian notion of Heaven and Hell. It is interesting to me that you obviously prefer and are resigned to accepting either eternal torment or being completely non-existent to the idea of eternal life in Heaven with God...because that is the other alternative that you left out. I guess there are some other options according to other religions as well, but, ultimately, the truth is that, whatever you do end up doing or being after you die, you have no control over at all. So, desire as you might to choose where you end up, ultimately it is completely beyond your control. Have you considered accepting this fact and realizing that the other option, eternal life, is far more appealing than the two you're trying to decide between? Going to Heaven would require that you acknowledge that God is who he says he is...have you looked into this possibility? God claims that he is all powerful, almighty, everywhere, perfectly holy, true and righteous. Is it possible that he really is all these things? The one that really got me was the Truth. If he is who he claims to be then he will be absolutely true. The problem is that we cannot understand what the truth is when our eyes are focused on ourselves. So look up... and, be willing to see something beyond yourself, and ask if, according to the truth, he really could meet every requirement of his own claim. By the way, the God of the Bible is the only God in all of history that lives up to these claims. Every other "god" falls short because they are modeled after humans and humans can't conceive of that which is perfection on their own.