God owes us His love and He gives it gladly and unconditionally. For He is Love.
God has an infinite abundance of love.
Only by our turning away from Him and becoming separate, did we give up love. By separateness (ego), we came to see love only dimly and incompletely.
By being separate (ego), we lost our ability to take 100% responsibility, thus we were capable of becoming victims and capable of blaming others.
I have seen this love and this responsibility. And miracles were suddenly effortless. I felt the warm embrace of the Heavenly Father, but then I grew afraid and lost the connection. Ever since that afternoon 36 years ago, I have hungered for that love. And I have been working on a way to allow that love more completely so that I would never waver again.
Imagine His joy when we awaken as spiritual beings, losing our attachments to this ego and this body. Even if we still live as humans for a few years longer, He would be overjoyed at having one of His children back and awake.