A Walk in the Dark (a brief memoir and reflection)

A memoir from a moment of trial in the early winter of 2008:

I decided to go for a walk this morning at 5:00 a.m. It was very dark, So dark that I couldn't see my feet nor the road that I was walking on. I couldn't even see my dogs that I brought with me for comfort. I could only hear the clinking of their collars. I was hoping they were relying on some other instincts besides sight so we wouldn't head off into the ditch. It was deeply reflective of how life has been feeling lately - darkness, random fear, and loneliness. Yet hopeful of moving forward.

Don't ask me why I was doing this. I'm still not quite sure myself. I'm sure my dogs were wondering the same thing. I was about to turn back because I was frightened. I'm not sure of what, maybe just the dark itself, but I decided to push through it and continue on my journey.

This quote was in an email I read upon my return home.

"Faith, walking in the dark with God, only prays Him to clasp its hand more closely." --Phillips Brooks

I felt it reflective of how at times in our lives there are seasons of darkness when things appear hopeless and downright frightening. Sometimes it is so dark we can't see the path that is set before us and we don't know what to do. Nothing seems very clear and all we want to do is go back. But we just have to keep moving forward, push through and know that He loves us, He cares, and is with us, maybe even holding our hand.

Nevertheless I am continually with You;
You hold me by my right hand.
You will guide me with Your counsel,
And afterward receive me to glory. ~ Psalm 73:23-24

Source

“When it rains, look for rainbows. When it’s dark, look for stars.” ~ unknown

Another thing I noticed was that I spent most of my time looking up at the stars because at this time of the day that it is the only light around. I note now that this is also true as we travel through dark places in life even through the valley of the shadow of death..when it looks as if things are dying...maybe hopes, maybe dreams, maybe people we love. When the darkness is so thick and impenetrable through our own reasoning or understanding of a way out, there really is only one place to look and that is up, to the one who created the stars to the one and only "light of the World"

I also took note of the Bright and Morning Star on my early morning journey. Upon my return I just so happened to listen to a sermon about it. It was told that the star known as the Bright and Morning Star (Venus) is the last star we see in the sky before the sun rises. It signals the dawning of a new day.

...and so as I walk through the dark I remind myself that He is holding my hand as I anxiously anticipate the dawning of a new day!

The people who walked in darkness Have seen a great light; Those who dwelt in the land of the shadow of death Upon them a light has shined. ~ Isaiah 9:2

*it is now 2011 and the Lord so graciously has fulfilled Isaiah 9:2 in my journey and it is light again. He held my hand and walked me through it. Hallelujah! All glory to The Lord God Almighty. The only Wise God who was and is and is to come. He is The All Sufficient One and my Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace and Best Friend. I am So eternally grateful for His mercy (chesed - covenant love) that endures forever to those who fear Him and Him alone.

© 2011 Tamarajo

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RTalloni 5 years ago from the short journey

God's Word has much to say to His people about fear and dependence on Him, words of life to we who trust Him, but your hub also reminded me of Proverbs 4: the path of the righteous grows brighter and brighter. How thankful I am that He is my Stronghold and I may have a peace that passes understanding even in the darkest hour.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

RTalloni, Yes His Word does have so much to say about fear. I leaned on His Word moment by moment through it.

He truly is our light and our salvation.

Thank you for sharing proverbs 4. I really liked it. This scripture and your comment are a great addition to the message of the hub.

Thanks for your visit.


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creativeone59 5 years ago from Gold Canyon, Arizona

Thank you Tamarajo, for great words of wisdom and we must always remember that we not only walk faith, but every word that preceed out the word of God. Whenever we walk , we're not alone. Godspeed. creativeone59


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James A Watkins 5 years ago from Chicago

Thank you for this very interesting Hub. I've not read anything else quite like it. It is quite moving.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hello Faye. Yes You are correct. Clinging to every Word that proceeded out of His mouth was what I lived for in those dark moments.

Thank you for your visit and insightful comment.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hello James,

This one is a bit different than the usual stuff I post. But the lessons I learned in those difficult moments were moving and thought maybe might be helpful to someone else going through a dark time and also to glorify the one who brings us through them.

Blessed by your visit and comment James.


tinamarie9884 5 years ago

Tamarajo,Wow, I am glad I have stopped by. There is never anything wrong with writing True feelings. Truly Spiritual. Blessings to you!!


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Thank you tinamarie, I am glad that you liked it. I usually like to do studies but wanted to share something a little different this time.

Blessings to you too. I appreciate you stopping by and commenting.


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einron 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario, CANADA

Tamarajo

Ps. 23:4

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Praying to God helps me a lot. I have many problems in writing my hubs, especially with technical problems. I pray to Him and affirm God is Almighty and will help me to overcome my problems. I keep praying until the problem is solved. God is more powerful than all our enemies and can overcome all.

Peace and blessings!


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cristina327 5 years ago from Manila

What a lovely hub it is. I find it very inspiring. Truly we are dependent upon God's mercy every moment of our lives. We can never walk away from His covenant love. Thank you for sharing this beautiful hub of encouragement. Blessings and best regards.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hello Einron, your quote from the 23rd psalm is a great addition to the hub as well as your personal testimony of how he helps you in troubles too.

Thank you for your visit and insightful comment.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hi cristina, I am glad that you liked the hub. I agree that leaning on him at all times and for everything even when it isn't dark is vital to our spiritual life and growth.

Blessed by your visit and comment.


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Faithful Daughter 5 years ago from Sunny Florida

Very insightful hub. I can relate. Thanks for sharing.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Thank you Faithful Daughter. Glad you could relate. Bless you for stopping by and commenting.


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lifegate 5 years ago from Pleasant Gap, PA

TJ,

Thanks for this reflection. I think it's something that most if not all can identify with. "Sometimes it is so dark we can't see the path that is set before us and we don't know what to do. Nothing seems very clear and all we want to do is go back. But we just have to keep moving forward, push through and know that He loves us, He cares, and is with us, maybe even holding our hand."

Beautiful!


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Lifegate thank you for your thoughtful comment and I am always blessed and encouraged by your visit


VOICE CIW 5 years ago

Sister Tamarajo, thank you for this delightful and encouraging hub. I needed it today, and God blessed me with your writing. Even prayer warriors experience that darkness sometimes, but now, after reading your " A Walk In The Dark " I now have joy. God Bless You! I love you in the Lord.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hello CIW yes it was that season of darkness that drew me into a deeper more consistant and obedient walk with Him. It was all for good

I always appreciate your encouraging comments

Bless you!


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Unleashed Victory 5 years ago

Tamarajo, I read this over yesterday and today and it's filled with encouragement that the sun will shine again. That was powerful about Venus and having been through trials, I think it's a wonderful thing to let someone else know that God will bring them through it. Thank you - this was really uplifting!


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Judah's Daughter 5 years ago from Roseville, CA

It might be a good exercise for each of us to take a walk in the dark now and again, to look up at the stars our Lord created, to talk to Him and feel His presence. I know what you're talking about ~ those 'dark' times in our lives when we feel we can't 'see' to know what to do. What I chose to do during that time was to look up, and I'm telling you, when the 'test' was completed the Light came flooding in and the path to take was clear. The thing is, though, is that God may not let us 'see' more than the first step, and then each step as we go. This has kept me walking in faith, rather than relying on sight. In this I find the joy of trusting my Shepherd of Ps 23. Beautiful hub ~ beautiful insight!! God bless you continually, sister.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Yes Judah's Daughter. I think the walk was a spirit led one. I think He was trying to show me something through the event and remind me of His presence in that moment when everything felt so unsure and unstable. The dawning of the new day was slow and progressive but He certainly did deliver me. Sometimes just breathing in and breathing out at that time required me to trust Him.

I also think that time was a good thing. I really did need that experience to move on and move forward.

Thank you for your, as always, thoughtful comment and visit.


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JeanieR 5 years ago from Sequoia National Forest, CA

Knowing in the dark, of the covenant love of God, is more sustaining than anything else imaginable...no matter how long the dark lasts. Thank you for this sharing this lovely and personal experience.


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Betty Johansen 5 years ago

A beautiful hub, Tamarajo! We all walk through darkness sometimes. This is an encouraging reminder that we don't have to walk through it alone.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hi JeanieR. It was in the dark that I really did have a revelation of His Mercy (chesed/covenant love). He also taught me that covenant love was reciprocal and required a response to it.

The whole miserable time was an invaluable lesson to me that I don't ever want to forget.

Thank you for visiting and commenting.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hi Betty, yes we all do hit those dark spots on the journey. Sometimes it involves external events and others it can be self created. Either way I learned that God is for us and not against us. And He will hold our hand and lead us through as we choose to make Him our number 1 focus and priority.

Thank you Betty for stopping by and your encouraging comment.


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drpastorcarlotta 5 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

Praise God! I love your statement, as you said: "And so as I walk through the dark I remind myself that He is holding my hand as I anxiously anticipate the dawning of a new day!" God and Be Blessed!!!!!! Voted-up!


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Thank you drpastorcarlotta for your vote, your visit and affirmation. I am grateful that dark time has passed and He certainly did hold my hand through it.

Bless you.


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ImChemist 5 years ago

Thanks for your great informative hub.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Thank you chemist for visiting and commentingt


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn.

Like most of us, I too have walked in darkness, not just once, but many times. My Father-in-Heaven, always brings me out of the dark and into the light. For this, I am so grateful. Thank you for your beautiful story. How well you tell it!


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Hello vocalcoach,

I have learned to be grateful for those dark times because I always realize my deep need for Him. I cling to Him always knowing He is the only one that can really help me and nothing comforts me more than His presence and Word of truth to me in those moments.

I thank you for stopping by and your encouraging comment.


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no body 5 years ago from Rochester, New York

When it is dark He will be our eyes. When it is light He will shade us from its harshness. When it is most dire, it will be when God is most faithful. This is also when the enemy is most afraid and tries to get us to join him in that fear. "You are all alone." he will say. "All have abandoned you." "Your sin has caused God to cast you out, He no longer loves you." Fiery darts of the wicked one. Another thing, I believe that dogs can see pretty good in the dark. I think I read that they register heat and sense the movement of heat in the blackness like nocturnal animals. Basically it is left over from their wolf/dog wild days before man tamed them. So God never left you and the dogs were there to protect you and to guide you as well. I think you are well cared for.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

no body I enjoyed your insight on this about the dogs and protection.

This particular moment in my life was was riddled with all the things you mentioned. I also recognize that it was a very necessary part of the process of spiritual growth. I couldn't go any further until I got through that. It was a season of discipline and purification for sure. I am actually grateful for it. I learned to draw near to Him in ways I did not know before.

He was faithful and loving through it all.

Blessed by your visit


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toknowinfo 5 years ago

I enjoyed this very different hub. I found it to be an inspiration and I want to thank you for sharing it. I look forward to reading more like this. It truly was beautiful.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota Author

Thank you toknowinfo. I am glad you enjoyed the hub and were inspired by it.

It is interesting how we can learn so much and benefit from those dark times and valleys. It was a blessed experience.

Thank you for visiting and your encouraging comment.

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