You have been struggling with your own image, you have stopped respecting yourself the way you know you should. Someone from the not too distant past continues to effect your life and drag you down, time to say no more, time to move on. You know what you have to do, you need to be more pro-active, establish your independence. In financial matters, things are not great right now, but you have the ability to move forward in all aspects of your life. Start moving foreward and start moving in the right direction.