So Burn Me, I'm A Witch

Dressing up to go out on the town ~ old school style :)
Dressing up to go out on the town ~ old school style :) | Source

I am who I was meant to be

Instead of the old saying "So why don't you just shoot me", I find it more fitting to say "So why don't you just burn me then?"

I've been practicing my religion for over 17 years. I'm not some troubled teen or attention seeking nut who follows the biggest "in" thing. I chose my religion very carefully.

I believe because I believe. Not because I am told I have to. Not because I was raised that way. Not because everyone else is doing it. My religion is the only one I believe, it's a little thing called Faith. Faith that the path I choose is the right one for me. It doesn't have to be for everyone. No one else need believe in it or agree with it for it to remain the right choice for me. My faith is not contingent upon others.

So what is my religion anyway? Well, I'm a witch. I'm a solitary practitioner who follows no sect, no group, no coven, and no one teaching. The belief system which most encompasses my religion is that of Wicca, however I do not subscribe to any particular teaching on the matter.

I have read, researched, and experienced things for myself; drawing my own conclusions, taking bits from here and bits from there to create my own brand of belief that works best for me. My hesitance in calling myself Wiccan is that the term of this religion is a newer term. What I believe dates back far past the "new age" names and teachings, back to when it was common place and strange not to believe in it.

Rockin' my dragon robe
Rockin' my dragon robe | Source

Finding My Way

Ever since I was a little girl I remember feeling different somehow. I didn't look at the world the way everyone else did. I didn't even see it the way other children did. I felt out of place somehow as if something just wasn't "right".

I was raised a Christian. To this day I'm the only "non-Christian" in my extended family. This does not stop me from believing what I know to be true in my heart. The answers to the questions I had weren't there. I tried asking the pastor, the youth pastor, the confirmation pastor; all to no avail. They seemed angry that I asked such things. How dare I question the word of God and not follow like a good little sheep! I was constantly reminded that Jesus was the Shepard and "we" were his flock. Well, I didn't want to be part of the flock. I didn't want to put my head down and do what I was told when no one could tell me why.

I researched and studied, the old way, before the internet. I found books on other religions and what their beliefs were. I searched for those answers to the questions I had until I came upon a book about Wicca. It was like the dark clouds had parted and light shone down on me for the first time. There they were, all of the answers to the questions that had burned within me for my entire life up to that point.

I didn't just announce myself to be Wiccan after finishing that one book. I studied and studied for over 2 years before I finally started telling my family that I was Wiccan. Being that I was the only person I knew who wasn't a Christian, everything I knew or practiced was as a solitary witch. The change which took place over those two years was amazing! My spirit never felt so good. I belonged! Not to a coven, not to a congregation. I finally, for the first time in my life knew and felt that I belonged here, on Earth. I felt the connection to the energies around me, to nature, the plants, the animals, the rocks and trees. I knew and could feel that I was a part of every living thing just as it was a part of me.

Fear

Even today there is a certain amount of fear that goes with my choice. There are so many who attack what I believe because it is different from what they believe. I don't like being attacked any more than the next person. It doesn't feel very good. I know I'm strong enough to take it, but why should I have to? Why should anyone have to?

While others would parade their religious beliefs with pride, I would keep mine to myself. Sharing only when asked and even then, only offering small amounts at a time unless the person kept wanting more information. See, I can't stand pushy people. I really have issue with those who try to force their beliefs on others. I don't try to force mine on anyone; all I'm asking for is the same respect in return. If you love your religion, great! Guess what? I love mine too. Hey, look at that, we have something in common after all. We both love what we believe in.

Me & my youngest
Me & my youngest | Source

My Hesitation

For a long while I considered not coming out of the broom closet to my readers. I was afraid that if I made it public that I'm a witch, they wouldn't like me anymore or take my other advice and articles seriously. I was afraid of being shunned for my personal religious choice.

Well, I'm not ashamed of who I am or what I believe. If some people want to stop following me, or disregard my knowledge on other subjects just because I have a different religion than they do, it's their loss. I can't keep hiding such a big part of who I am. It isn't right. No one should have to hide a part of themselves because they fear persecution.

I just need to trust that those who have read my other works and who have appreciated the knowledge I've shared can accept me just the way I truly am.

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ithabise 4 years ago from Winston-Salem, NC

"Coming out of the broom closet." Now that's well-put!

Mom Kat, I appreciate your candor here. I'm not sure why any person should attack you for your personal beliefs, even if they do not agree with theirs. I say this as a devout Christian. And why would any person unfollow you here for it? We must be willing to sit down and dialogue and share with one another and set aside our religious texts.

Your road to discovery is intriguing. Thank you for sharing it.


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

I appreciate that ithabise, thank you! And might I just say you have a wicked awesome sense of humor & I am looking forward to reading your works as well.

I have been "burned" before when letting people know what my beliefs are, so I guess I tend to tread on the side of caution (maybe a little too much).


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ithabise 4 years ago from Winston-Salem, NC

Hey, you were right about being able to do justice to this topic--and that we weren't thinking the same thing! Btw, enjoyed the photos; and creative title, too.


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

Awww well aren't you just the sweetest thing! Thank you so much.

That first one was taken at a Halloween party where I worked. We had an amateur photographer who wanted the practice :)

I always said it was my favorite holiday because it was the one day a year I could be myself & no one would be negative about it :)


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btrbell 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

Upp and beautiful! I love that you came out of the broom closet on National Coming Out Day! I am so tired of people judging other people for their beliefs. With our nation in the chaos it is right now, maybe they should concentrate their enegies elsewhere. Oops, I just remembered, organized religion was a big part of the election. Thank you for sharing. I find it very interesting and would like to know more if you are up to sharing. Thank you!


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

Thank you so much btrbell! I really appreciate your words of encouragement & support. Judgement is "over done", I agree. I say judging should be left for the guys (and gals) with the black robes & gavels in the courtroom :)

The election is very religious bases, I don't take offense to that. I know most of the country is Christian or similar.

I'll think about further hubs on it, but there are already some great ones made! Your curiosity & willingness to understand is awesome!


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kittythedreamer 4 years ago from the Ether

Wonderfully put. We have VERY similar experiences with coming to this path...asking questions that no one could answer and even angered people that we asked. Thanks for this encouraging hub.


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SpiritTalker 4 years ago from Spirit Town

Very interesting! Thanks for sharing.


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justateacher 4 years ago from Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Near Oz...

I do not belong to any organized religion, but I am a very Christian based person...I, too, have taken bits and pieces of several different groups and put them together to form what I believe and how I choose to worship...I know very little about being a witch and would never criticize you or not follow you because of your beliefs...that would suggest that only I know what is best for you and I don't even know enough about you to make that type of decision for you...voted up!


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moonlake 4 years ago from America

Here I thought you were talking about a witch costume for Halloween when I read your title and all you were talking about was Wiccan.

Believe what you want to believe, no ones business but yours. You sure have that right.


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Renee Abbott 4 years ago from Arizona

Merry Meet, Mom Kat

When we own who/what we are we will find those who do not accept us. Most people know I have been a practicing witch for about 40 years. Those who do judge me, also judge every other religion that is not theirs. I have learn to accept that, for in reality I am just fine with being me.

Blessed Be


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

Thank you all so very much! I mean that, truly.

@ Kitty ~ I felt empowered enough to write this hub because of your inspiring hubs!

@justateacher ~ I think when any religious belief is headed by a single individual telling who their interpretation it gets a little skewed. I'm so glad to hear you are eclectic in your own religion :) Bravo!

@Renee ~ That is so true. Those who are critical are critical of any unlike them. Being true to yourself really is the only way to go.

@Spirit Talker ~ Thanks for stopping by & commenting :)

@moonlake ~ Thank you. I believe we all have the right to find the path which is right for us :) I appreciate your comment.

Thanks again everyone! Have a blessed day!


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

I think the important thing is that you found what worked for you and stuck with it, researching and investigating. If it fits, and works, why not? I am no longer following the same spiritual beliefs that I was raised with either. I really did not come out and announce anything, nor did I consciously identify with a particular religion, but one day my youngest daughter (age 20 at the time) came home from one of her college classes and said, "mom, we were listening to a lecture on Buddhism and I thought-that's mom." I just smiled. My way of life was presenting itself in a recognizable form, although I do not affiliate myself, as you mentioned re: Wiccan, with Buddhism as a religion.

Thanks for sharing...very interesting that we know at a young age that we are called to follow a different path.


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

I think that's great that your daughter knew you so well :)

I agree that it's interesting about children knowing, feeling, or hearing a different call... I believe we are born with a sense of direction in the spiritual sense & that all too often it is trained, forced, or reasoned out of us (or most of us).

Being true to yourself & finding your own path is really the only way to go. Thank you for your comment Denise!


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Brandon Martin 4 years ago from Colorado, USA

I know how you feel as far as being different and not following a specific belief. Nice to know how connected you are to life. This could be an eye-opener for some people out there.


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

Thanks Brandon! I appreciate your comment.


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karthikkash 4 years ago from India

nice hub.. I am a non-religious person though I was born Hindu. In fact, at different stages of my life, I have been through different religious beliefs: from being ardently religious to an atheist, to an agnostic to a spiritual person and in between. I recently encountered Wicca as an interesting religion and started researching about it. Though I still believe in being non-religious, Wicca is something I have come to respect due to its belief systems. You never know, I may try my hand at being a witch some day :)


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

Thanks for commenting karthikkash, I truly hope you find the one that's just right for you. Having something to believe in has been proven to lengthen your life-span :)


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sobrienperuzzi 4 years ago

Wonderful! Your story could be mine as well. I, too, was raised Christian and questioned many things. I, too, identify more with Witch than with Wiccan. And I, too, always knew there was "something" else, and found this path to be just right. Bravo to your decision on coming out of the broom closet. It is a difficult decision at times, and in the end know whatever you decide is the right thing for you. Blessings.


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

It's funny how we all seem to have that feeling :) Thank you so much for your comment. Blessed Be sobrienperuzzi!


lilacsnowfire 4 years ago

It's funny, as I was reading your article, your history was similar to mine. I am actually in the process of being raised in a christian home, i'm only 11, but I have been studying about your type of religion, and I am in the process of creating my own. My parents are constantly criticizing my religion, so, in a way, I "feel your pain". I am now just beginning to realize that thinks that used to make me upset because I couldn't do it, or I didn't have the money to do it, are now made possible. I just wanted you to know.


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Mom Kat 4 years ago from USA Author

Thank you for sharing your story lilacsnowfire. I'm glad to hear that you are finding what works best for you. I appreciate your comment.

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