An Apology To Those Who Are Not Christians

I would like to share my story about the mistakes I made when I first became a Christian. Because of my behavior, I feel I drove unbelievers away from ever wanting to get saved. For this, I am truly sorry, from my heart.

Quite some time ago, I visited a Christian bookstore in search of a particular paperback. Gospel music blasted from speakers which I surmised was for the purpose of uplifting the customer. To be honest, it was so loud that I found it to be annoying.

Since I could not locate the book, I asked the clerk if she would order it for me.

"We need the money up front," she curtly replied.

I gave her my last $5.00.

"Will you call me when it arrives?" I asked.

"We'll send a card."

I left the store turned off by the negative atmosphere displayed at the checkout counter. A week later I received in the mail a ripped postcard taped together. I read, "Your book is in, we'll hold it for thirty days."

When I went to pick up the book a different clerk was at the counter. She did not smile, radiated an "I hate my job" atmosphere and acted like I was an inconvenience. I told her to have a great day, and I left.

Maybe that girl was having a bad day or suffering from personal problems. Yet, the fact remains if employees of Christian bookstores can't be civil, they should turn off the flowery music because it's a bad example for those who are browsing at happy stickers that read, "Smile, God loves you." It makes Christians look like hypocrites. Also, if I was not a Christian I doubt I'd have made the decision to share Heaven with that lady, and I may have remained unsaved.

However, I AM a Christian, and that experience caused me to do some serious thinking.

When I first got saved, I did not have a true relationship with Jesus Christ. I had a relationship with religion. I plunged into every church activity imaginable in order to serve God and to impress other Christians. I worked very hard for my salvation. I was told by others to "Study to show thyself approved unto God, a WORKMAN that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." (II Timothy 2:15)

I was cautioned to be "separate" from sinners - those who were not US. I thought I had to be a testimony. Some testimony! I became so heavenly minded that I was no earthly good. The more spiritual I tried to be, the more ridiculous I behaved.

I finally started attending a Bible study group. The wife of the leader said to our group one night, "Pretend you are a glass of water. The glass is a The water inside the glass is the Holy Spirit living through you. You are NOT a human DOING, you are a human BEING."

The LIGHT came on. I learned I do NOT have to push salvation on others. I do not have to ACT like a Christian. All I have to do is to BE who I am and let Christ LIVE through me.

There are Christians who are missionaries, evangelists, and pastors. There are those who sing and stand on street corners passing out tracts. I am none of those. Why? Because it is not my gift. My witness is through writing and public speaking. And just being me, Sparklea. PERIOD.

I am not the person I was many years ago. It is here, at this moment, that I have to say this to those of you who are not Christians: I owe you an apology. I ask your forgiveness in the event I've been a negative testimony and have made God look like a sanctimonious, unfriendly, judgmental Being. I misunderstood how I thought I should live.

I am not trying to win you over. I totally understand if others besides me have turned you off. Over the years I've heard MANY say that the atmosphere in their church is terrible. People look indifferent and miserable. I myself have been to services where the people looked like a bunch of mannequins in the church pews.

That being said, I do have to say to you that BEING a Christian, giving every second of my life to God and His Son, Jesus Christ, ALONE, has been the best decision of my life. This happened when I stopped listening to those who were judgmental. I know I have Someone to turn to, always, about everything. There is no greater feeling than that.

Also, there are many, many Christians who are genuine and sincere. You will know them by their fruits. These are wonderful people who are praying for you and for peace in the world.

Finally, my greatest prayer, every night before I go to sleep, is for God to soften my heart and the hearts of everyone on this planet...and for the salvation of all mankind.

I know that's a big request, God. But thank You for loving me, as well as, all Your creation.

Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Skarlet 4 years ago from California

Nice hub.

Voted up! I think that so many, not thanks to the anti christian movement, view Christians as being self righteous, and judgmental. Of course, in most cases, this is entirely untrue. I am not a christian, but I respect Christians and believe that the finest people in my life are Christian.

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teaches12345 4 years ago

I think most of us Christians have growing pains that affect those around us. We can be over zealous in sharing our beliefs or judgemental. I probably need to apologize to people as well. Voted up.

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Skarlet: Thank you so much for your comments. And thank you for taking time to read this Hub. Yes, you are right, many do view Christians in a negative way. teaches 12345 said in perfectly in her comments, that many Christians have growing pains that affect those around us. THANK YOU AGAIN. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

teaches12345 I can't thank you enough for your taking time to read this hub and for your comments. You are such a loyal follower, and I am so grateful for that. You said it so perfectly, that we DO have growing pains, and we can be over zealous in sharing our beliefs or judgemental. I SO appreciate you! Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Mekenzie 4 years ago from Michigan

Oh Sparklea, I can relate. I came to know Jesus personally at 15 years old. Everything in my life changed. I was filled, for the first time, with hope and purpose and KNEW I was loved.

I thought everyone else would want to know too. How wrong I was. I was way too pushy in my approach. Not intentionally because I had a passion to let everybody know that God is real and His Son died to save us.

Through the years I have learned, as you, to just BE. Jesus lives in me ... I just need to let Him do His work through me. He does a much better job!! LOL

Your prayer for God to soften your heart is certainly being answered as it is evident that your heart is full of compassion and kindness.

Thanks for a great hub! Voted up and beautiful.



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Ugly Honest 4 years ago from Within the New York/DC Megalopolis

Sparklea, You are singing my song ... If only more felt as you ... Thank You .... Godspeed

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Mekenzie: THANK YOU SO MUCH for understanding this hub! I made such a fool of myself with my being pushy also. Yes, He just wants us to BE and ALLOW HIM to live through us. LOL...YES HE does a much better job! THank you also for your positive comments. You are SO appreciated! Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Ugly Honest: Thank you so much for your following me and your fan mail! THANK YOU! Also, thank you for your taking time to read this hub and for your positive feedback. GODSPEED to you, too! Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

Sparklea, I am getting caught up, and this is such a very special hub. You are so very special. I, too, can remember getting caught up in "religious" things, and trying to impress people at various churches, and when all it boils down to is loving God, loving others truly, and having that truly intimate relationship with Him, which produces that true heart change. You have a beautiful heart, and I am blessed to know you via hubpages. Your Sister in Christ, Faith Reaper

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

THANK YOU Faith Reaper! So glad you understand my points in this hub...many of us have done the same thing, so glad to know I'm not alone in this. PRAYERS,LOVE, BLESSINGS to you, especially tomorrow! Sparklea Thank you for taking time to read this! :)

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bockshiner 4 years ago from Dallas, TX

I know what you mean Sparklea. When I think back when I first became a Christian I cringe at how I treated some people. I like your post. I wish more Christians had your attitude.

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

bockshiner: THANK YOU so much for your encouraging words. I was a little hesitant to write this hub, but I did write it from my heart, and I am so grateful for any response I receive. Great to know I am not the only one who has been a "bulldozer" Christian, trying to push others into what I believe. It is a journey of wisdom for me...and alot of stumbling along the way. BLESSINGS, Sparklea :) Thanks again :)

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CM Sullivan 4 years ago from California

This is a very good hub Sparklea. I am not a Christian. I was as a child but as I grew I just ended up thinking differently about everything.

As I grew up any time I answered a question about my beliefs with the confession that I don't believe, I was met with derision at the very least, naked hatred at worst. Especially by other kids. I became jaded and cynical toward Christians. I have been physically assaulted by Christians. I still find myself "going off" on some christians once in a while, when they are being pushy or self-righteous.

You are what all Christians should aim to be. You live your life the way you want, you believe what you want, and go on treating everyone with respect and love no matter who or what they are. You have my respect and love. CM

Up and awesome!

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

CJ, I am humbled and almost tearful reading your genuine comments on this hub. I am speechless. I am so sorry for the way you have been treated by Christians. I totally understand. I so appreciate your taking the time to read this hub and for your feedback. BLESSINGS ALWAYS, and THANK YOU FROM MY HEART. Sparklea :)

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Powerful Pierre 4 years ago from Abbotsford BC

WELL written and thought out GBU AMEN !! my sister in the Lord

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Powerful Pierre: THANK YOU SO MUCH for your positive feedback and for taking time to read this. Your comments mean alot to me. GBU too! My Brother in the Lord. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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k2jade31 4 years ago from Idaho

Wow, well done. You have described many people including me at one misguided time. Thank you for sharing your story, in such a beautiful way. God Bless you.

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Larry Wall 4 years ago


First, I apologize for not responding sooner. I thought I had. The experience you went through after finding Christ are not unusual. For some reasons, I never had doubts about Christ as my savior. Yet, I have known many who as adults have come to that same conclusion and they think they have all the answers. I doubt if you turned anybody away. People will accept and believe when they are ready. You just have to introduce them to the possibility. I think you do that in your daily life and even if you think you at one time, did not reach a person, it is most likely that he remembered what you said at some other moment in his life when he needed help and turned to God.

Do not ever doubt your ability to spread the word. You are indeed one of the special messengers.

Take care,


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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

k2jade31: THANK YOU for taking time to read this and for your positive feedback, so very much appreciated, and I am so glad you understand! It means alot, God bless you, Sincerely, Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Larry: You are SO kind, such a truly sincere and genuine person. THANK YOU for your terrific comments, so much appreciated! I think you are correct, right or wrong, the way I approached people, I am sure they would not forget! Blessings, always, and sorry I have been delinquent in responding...It has been hectic, but I SO love HubPages and always get to the site eventually. Sparklea :)

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Larry Wall 4 years ago


Do not ever doubt yourself. Your faith is a special gift from God. We have never met, but I know you are, kind, understanding and sincere. With qualities like that, you will never go wrong. I know you love God and God loves all of us. You will always be one of his true messengers.


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TripleAMom 4 years ago from Florida

Very well written hub, the very thing I would love for those who are not Christians to know about some Christians. Not all Christians are looking for "in your face" confrontations and it is so frustrating when a few give the whole a bad name. I am sure that we all when we were first came to know Jesus wanted everyone to know what we had found and were over zealous to say the least, but maturity in Christ is knowing that Jesus saves, we don't. I like your words about just BEing a Christian instead of DOing Christian. Glad you spoke from your heart. Up and following to read more :)

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mollymeadows 4 years ago from The Shire

Sparklea, I think many of us have done things like this and look back to see where we went wrong. It takes courage to admit mistakes. Thank you for a thought-provoking hub.

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

TripleAMom: THANK YOU for your positive response. It is so encouraging to get feedback from other Christians. I was hesitant to publish this Hub. However, the Spirit seemed to move me forward. I felt I HAD to let those who are not Christians know how easy it is for those of us who ARE Christians to give a wrong impression. I am thrilled you are following me~and I will certainly follow you! God bless you, and THANK YOU FROM MY HEART. Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

mollymeadows: THANK YOU for your comments...I just wrote in my comment to TripleAMom that I was hesitant to write this hub, but the Spirit kept on me about it...I decided to take a chance, as I feel this is an important issue. THANK YOU for following me! I will do the same. I have met so many wonderful writers on HubPages...what a blessing! God bless you, Sparklea :)

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CJ Sledgehammer 4 years ago

Simply a wonderful piece of work, Sparklea!!!

As you know, it's not easy being a Christian. I am sure we all have said things we wish we hadn't and I am sure we have all done some things we wish we could take back. This was true for Moses, and I know this is true for me.

I wonder how many people John the Baptist offended and turned off? I wonder how many people Peter, Paul, James and John lovingly offended and how many people Jesus, Himself, offended and turned off? Enough that they wanted Him dead.

The Word of God tells us that if the world loves us we are walking in spiritual darkness. And, if the world murdered our Master, do we think they will treat His servants any better? No, of course they won't.

Sparklea, the world will hate you because of the message you carry...and you won't even have to open your loving mouth to offend. Darkness hates the light and will do anything it can to extinquish that light.

Sometimes guilt trips and special thanks and kudos from the unsaved make us feel good about ourselves for not speaking up and speaking the truth, but are we actually confronting the issues with the sword of God's Word, or are we avoiding confrontation? I have to ask myself this question on a daily basis.

The issues of sin, repentance, death, and judgment must be dealt with, otherwise people die in their sins. Some people are called to this end, while others, like yourself, are called, to a great extent, to exhort and uplift the saints.

You are a gifted one, Sparklea, and you mean a great deal to me. Your prayers are as powerful as your character is strong.

And, as far as I see it - you don't owe anyone an apology for carrying the Word of God, His Holy Spirit, and for loving the world enough to risk offending them with the truth.

Crap happens and people take offense at the drop of a hat, but you and every one of us are trying to help the spiritually sick and infirmed to a glorious end. The task at hand is not fact it is a war.

In the end, I think the only Persona we need to apoligize to will be the Almighty and His Son for not taking more risks that potentially could offend our neighbors with His Gospel message.

Then again, perhaps we may need to apologize to our neighbors for not being a little more persistent and loving them enough to risk losing them as friends. I am sure many who are destined for the Lake will agree that they would have rather been offended in this life then to be damned in the next.

This is a call to action - not a call to irresponsible behavior and self-righteous expression.

May God bless the hearts that are true and may the seeds of truth fall on fertile ground irrespective of the course hands or the soft touch that planted them. To God be the glory!!!

With love and gratitude - C.J. Sledgehammer

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

CJ, FIRST, LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO YOU TOO! THANK YOU for your wonderful comments! Please know you are DAILY in my prayers. When things slow down, I'll send you an email...I have not been home, so many appointments and errands lately...way behind on emails and Hubs.

I think my greatest regret as a Christian is the loss of interest in God from my own children as a result of my ridiculous behavior. My son, daughter, my husband and myself were all baptized in water together as a family in the 70' was a wonderful children both accepted Christ at a young age. Now they want NOTHING to do with God...especially my son. Because of my ridiculous behavior, and that is my biggest regret.

It is breaking my heart to see that my grandchildren have no interest in God, do not even know God, because they have not been shown, taught or taken to church. My oldest granddaughter does not even like being in a church, it makes her uncomfortable. THIS is all because of my obsession with "religion" during the time my kids were growing up. My "zealous" behavior, marching around the house, ordering the devil away, marching around the car on vacation to keep demons away, and on and on...turned them off so completely that they now totally avoid God and church. I CAN talk about God and prayer to my daughter, but that's as far as it goes. I would not even dare approach it to my son, whom I see very little of.

It's too late now. At that time I was not allowing the Holy Spirit to live through me. I was DOING, not BEING while my kids were growing up.

I pray every day that God will restore to my son and daughter the years the locusts have eaten. I love them with my heart and soul, and it is because of me that my grandchildren have not been introduced to the love of Jesus Christ. I fear they will have no one to turn to as they become adults.

I hope this hub reveals to anyone who reads it that Christians need to allow Christ to manifest Himself through them and not badger non-Christions AND Christians with rules, and make Christ appear to be unattractive, as I did.

THANK YOU for taking the time to read this and for your wonderful advice. You are one of the greatest treasures I know. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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CJ Sledgehammer 4 years ago

Dear Sparklea:

I think you may be a little too hard on yourself and are assuming too much responsibility. :0)

Case in point: I know a person that annointed the walls of the guest bedroom with oil, when she was staying as a guest at the home of someone I worked with. I was told their "strange" guest did so to ward off demonic attacks.

After a short while, the host did not want her to stay anymore, because she was destroying his walls, hence they needed to be refinished.

Even though the strange house guest was viewed as being hyper-vigilant, the host was not turned off to God...only her strange antics.

The host and his wife later became Christians and interestingly enough, it was their strange guest and her strange antics that got them thinking about "things".

I saw the host a few years ago and both, he and his wife, had become born again Christians! This just goes to show that even a rogue seed can take root, even if delivered by coarse hands - if the ground itself is fertile.

Sparklea, I am not sure that you can save anyone, anymore than you can damn them. In both cases, it is their responsibility to ask, seek, and knock, but once the seed is planted, there is not much we can do.

Never underestimate the effectiveness of a "rogue" seed, if delivered with a loving heart. Even a seed of this nature can take root if the other conditions are right. :0)

May the joy of the Lord flood your soul and give you peace - C.J. Sledgehammer

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

CJ, THANK YOU SO MUCH for that great story! You are correct...I cannot save anyone. I love your suggestion to never underestimate the effectiveness of a "rogue" seed, if delivered with a loving heart. My sister always tells me, "It was all you knew at the time. When you know better you do better." I HAVE placed this situation totally into the hands of God. I guess I attended too many services where the preacher focused more on the devil than the joy of belonging to Christ. I was SO afraid of the devil back then. But now I know who I am in Christ, I am surrounded by His LIGHT and nothing can touch me unless God moves out of the way. My life is in His hands. I am so blessed to know you through HubPages. God bless you real good today and always, Sincerely, Sparklea :)

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CJ Sledgehammer 4 years ago

Believe me when I say, "The pleasure has been mine."

Sparklea, your sister is right. You did what you knew to do. You thought you were doing the right were being proactive and trying to do the Lord's will as you understood it.

Please understand that your family can recover from any odd or strange behavior you fact, I would not be surprised if you all laugh about it later.

Fortunately, you are not the only caster of seeds out there, and the Almighty has millions of ways to get one's attention, so the responsibility is never left to us alone.

As I was reading your story, you reminded me of a ball player who took on the full responsibility for losing the game because of commiting a few mistakes. Please keep in mind that on any given team there are a number of players, so victory or defeat is owned by the whole team...not an individual player.

The game is not over, Sparklea, and you are surrounded with other players that will also come in contact with your loved ones throughout their life time. And who knows, perhaps it will be you who ends up hitting the big homerun that is the difference in the game. All is not lost.

I will agree that knowing the enemy is important, but knowing the power of the Almighty and His Son is where we should spend most of our time. To understand a defeated adversary is smart, but to understand the ways of an undefeated King is priceless.

Satan and his minions remind me of a colony of troublesome ants, and I do not say this disrespectfully. Yes, it is good to know about them, but one does not need to fret too much when one holds the world's biggest and most lethal can of RAID in one's hands (Christ Jesus). :0)

Best wishes, behave, and be well - C.J. Sledgehammer

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

CJ, Oh how I LOVE the can of RAID concept! And the ants! THANK YOU so much! I also love you saying the game is not over, and that other players could come in contact with your loved ones! I never ever thought of that! Thank you for bringing that to my attention. I recently recommended a book I'm reading to one of the other hubbers, and I think you, too, would benefit from it. The title is "One Thousand Gifts," and you can find it on I HIGHLY recommend it to you and anyone else who might read this! One of the greatest books I have read.

I will stay in touch, and THANK YOU so much...You are a treasure. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

Sparklea this is a wonderful gift to give to other Christians. Some do try to push it down other's throats and it drives people away. Some of us still need to learn a lot, in order to help others. I don't want to push it down anyone's throat or drive them away.

God Bless you


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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thanks Michele, I am thrilled at the positive feedback I have received. VERY hesitant to write this but I meant it from my heart. By the way I LOVE your picture, it is awesome, your hair is lovely! Blessings and thank you so much, Sparklea :)

Martus 4 years ago

Sparklea,Your hunger for righteousness of God is being fully satisfied.

What an eye opening hub (and comments)! One can feel,see,and hear a sincere call out of hearts...

The way into the Family of God, is not beefing "scripturally" presented, and the search continues....

There is this hunger for God and godliness in every living soul. The questions are being ask , and a traditional ritualistic ("Christianity") is not providing adequate answers.

Solely the Word of God--the LVING WORD OF GOD L O G O S has the answer.

Let me tell you upfront: barely any of " Christians " requirements imposed by the "churches" organizations came directly from our Lord Jesus ,the Anointed Son of the Most High God-the God Himself. Let this be known, that God Almighty, the Creator and the Sustainer of all the Universe, is not a Christian, The Lord Jesus the Anointed One is not a "Christian"...

The "label" "christianity" has been promoted after translation of Greek orig. CHRISTIANOS (anointed ones) Acts 11:26-- [CHRISTOS,THE ANOINTED ONE, MESSIAH.]

In the NT "Christ"--the "Messiah" refers especially to the One who was expected to bring in God's kingdom -- to redeem the lost...

The God's kingdom is to do away with the"kingdom of the devil"(given to him by Adam.) as our Lord has stated :" But if I drive out demons by the Spirit of God, than the Kingdom of God has come upon you." Matt. 12:28

CHRISTIANOS ( unfortunately ) historically known as Christians is a description of the followers of CHRIST by n o n -- c h r I s t I a n s. Its chief usage is to define a CHRISTIANOS as a member of a particular group: " the disciples were first called .CHRISTIANOS ( Acts 11:26.)

The Lord Jesus had His disciples-- incl. the twelve Apostles as the followers. (Every believer, follower, "one in Christ" IS a DISCIPLE. (Means much more tan just a " member" of a...)

The disciples were sent out ( please read Luke 10:1, 9, 17-21). To the DOSCIPLES of all ages including US-- the generation of ours -- US THE BELIEVERS, Jesus gave the authority, Mark 16: 15-18 .

To us is echoing :YOU ARE THE SALT OF THE EARTH,...YOU ARE THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD... We are children of the Most High :"Yet to all who received Him to those who believed in His name , He gave the right to become children of God-- children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but BORN OF GOD. John 1:12--13 .

We are a noble race 1.Pet. 2: 9 .

It isn't our fault what we have inherited by the tradition and ritualism;- kept mases the least to say "uninformed "

Today we do have the written Word . As children of God , we want to know and to do the Father's will.

On every occasion the Holy Spirit brings across my "mission" a person , my urge is: read the Gospel at firs, read a sentence or a vers at a time, reat it out loud for yourself while your TV, radioio or another hindrances are out, you wil hear something new, something powerful and precious, you'll start believing it and doing it " faith comes from the willingness to hear , and what is heard is the word which tells of Christ.(Rom. 10:17)

Most often, when our " lifestyle" light is shinning the people ask the questin: why are you so different? Then iis our chance to show to any hungry soul the Way of Truth, the way toward Life eternal, toward the peace of God. (Repent, confess, and accept the mercy).

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Martus, You made some excellent points, and THANK YOU SO MUCH for taking the time to read my hub and for your very enlightening comments! THANK YOU! Everything you wrote is DEFINITELY food for thought, that had never even crossed my mind. I can feel your love of God through what you wrote. I WILL take your advice ...I DO read the Bible, ALWAYS in SOLITUDE. Always. God bless you real good Martus. Sparklea :)

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Trish_M 4 years ago from The English Midlands

Hi :)

People are people ~ Christian or otherwise.

Of course, the unpleasant women who served you in that store were not good examples of Christian love, but, as you say, maybe they had problems.

I have experienced my fair share of Christian dogmatism and smugness, and I didn't like it.

I also have Christian friends, who radiate sunshine and love. They are great to be around.

But being a Christian is about believing, or not believing, the stories in the Bible and then deciding whether one wants to accept the beliefs system presented there.

I might be attracted to, or turned off, a certain church by the congregation, but they would not ~ or should not ~ affect my beliefs.

I used to be a Christian, probably because, when I was a child, it was more-or-less the norm ~ though my father was agnostic and very critical of organised religion.

Having studied the Bible, little or none of it sounds plausible. That is why I am no longer a Christian; not because of the unpleasant example shown by some members of the Church.

Your honesty is admirable though! Well done :)

Martus 4 years ago

Hi Sparklea.

What an Awsome God we serve! He is giving us the grace to know and to do His will.

The "comments" being exchanged on this page are for our each-athers support in the furthering His kingdom purposes.

Thank you for very kind respond to my writing. Praise the Lord! It has been the Holy Spirit's "urge" and inspiration of the words. Quite often many things given to me are newer heard before...All children of God ( we the believers, disciples, followers) are here to encourage and to support each other ; -- and the same time , let the REST OF THEM to know the directin of the r I g h t WAY.

Using the psalmist's words (Moses'), our cry is :"So teach us to number our days that we may get us a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90: 12 . Please read also Psalm 111:10. ( Thanks)

Our journey on this planet of Earth is to be presenting the will of our Heavenly Fater, so to live the standard of " nobles" ( Above any religious "christianism), so that N O N E would be discourage and kept out of the eternal Life....

The sinners are being drawn in by the believers into the believing relationship with the Lord Jesus our Redeemer who died and rose again to Winn lost humanity back to God...

The Holy Spirit will bring " them" in as we by the same Spirit do the "deeds of the Kingdom of God"

The hubpages are instrumental for us to keep " flasks of oil" along with us also with our lamps."


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kittythedreamer 4 years ago from the Ether

Though I am not a Christian, I truly respect you for writing this hub. Beautifully put and I believe you are a brilliant soul. Thanks for writing this and being honest.

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Trish_M: THANK YOU for taking time to read this hub and to comment. I really appreciate your sincere and genuine feedback. I applaud your honesty, and I totally respect your viewpoint.

You are right that a Christian believes in what the Bible has to say.

Everyone is certainly entitled to his/her opinion.

Thank you again for writing me. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

kittythedreamer: THANK YOU so much for taking time to read this hub and for your positive feedback. It means so much to me. Blessings always, Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Martus: THANK YOU for more of your insight. Love your last sentence about the lamps. I read Psalm 111:10: "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, a good understanding have all those who do His commandments, His praise endures forever."

Proverbs talks alot about wisdom, very encouraging and motivating.

We have to remember that we are the Lights of the world, according to Matthew 5:14-16 and we are here to let our Lights shine.

That verse really ministers to me...I should be a LIGHT and not hound others. I share only with those whom I'm led to share from the Light within that, hopefully, manifests to others in a positive way.

God bless you real good, and thank you Martus. Sparklea :)

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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

You are a beautiful person. I could write a very long, detailed extension of that but in truth, Lea, I do not say that to very many people. I believe you to be a truly caring, loving and beautiful human being and as such I am honored to be your friend.

Blessings and peace to you and your love,


crackerjack 4 years ago

thank you for the hub . . . some commments don't fair well, bu the hub is divine

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Billybuc, THANK YOU for reading this hub and your lovely comment, SO much appreciated. I am honored you took time to read it, as I know how busy you are. I return blessings and peace to you also. Sparklea :)

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

crackerjack: THANK YOU for reading this hub and for your feedback. Very genuinely appreciated. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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blessed365 4 years ago from New England

I know I can think of some things that i wish I had done differently in my walk with the Lord. Thanks for sharing your heart.

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

blessed365: Thank you so much for your kind words. I totally understand your words because I've been there. So glad you took time to read this hub. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

Sparklea, may God bless your beautiful and kind heart. I also experienced those kind of people in bookstores, their face and manners saying "i hate my job..or i want to rest now." :)

I really like your hub, very honest.

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Unknown Spy, I love hearing from you and thank you for reading this hub and for your kind words! Yes, I wrote it from my heart. The important thing is the lessons we learn as we go along in life, and, hopefully we grow and help others as a result. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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SommerDalton 4 years ago

Voted up plus 4:), This is brilliant! I'm sharing, amazing hub!

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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

SommerDalton: WOW, THANK YOU for taking the time to read this hub, and for your extremely positive and kind words. I am almost moved to tears. I am so humbled you are sharing, and words cannot express how much your feedback means to me. Thank you, again, from my heart. :) I SO loved your hub about this topic, very, very, well written...everyone needs to read it. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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Larry Wall 4 years ago

Just re-read this. I will repeat part of what I wrote four months ago--"I know you love God and God loves all of us. You will always be one of his true messengers."

You add a tremendous quality to Hub Pages. There is too much talk about differences, distrust and other things like that and people who play word games with the scriptures. We need your sparkle--it is always uplifting.

Take care,


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Sparklea 4 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Larry, THANK YOU for re-visiting this hub, it means so very much1

By the way, I answered your email yesterday, and I hope you received it. It is quite long...I got on a roll, I guess :)

I consider it an honor when anyone takes the time to read what I have shared in writing. As I tell all my friends, we hubbers are "a writing community."

I am working on a is on the computer but needs editing and tweaking before I send it. I have a list of topics, and I am sure you do also.

God bless you, and thank you for your very kind words, means so very much. Thank you for mentioning my "Sparkle" Anne VosKamp writes, "I am a flame to light other flames..." her words, but I can so relate to them.

Sparklea :)

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shofarcall 3 years ago

Sparklea, hello dear sister. I have been to this hub of yours before and did not leave a comment because I had mixed feelings about it. So wanted to give it time. Now this morning I have returned after reading a hub by Planksandnails entitled 'Is Jesus a friend of sinners'

because it presents the other side so very clearly. It all depends what our calling is. But we are all called to spread the gospel when we are in Christ. As long as the message is given with kindness, love but not relinquishing steadfastness in Him whose name we represent, all is good. Much Godly love to you sister. Please take the time to read the hub by Planksandnails.

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Sparklea 3 years ago from Upstate New York Author

shofarcall: I SO appreciate your feedback, especially your up front honesty. Thank you so much. I will look up the hub written by Planksandnails.

You make an excellent point about giving the message with kindness and love.

I am thankful to be on Hub Pages not only because of the variety of the hubs, but for the feedback ...which has been quite the learning experience for me. Thanks again from my heart, Sparklea :)

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skye2day 2 years ago from Rocky Mountains

sparklea what an awesome writing. Yes indeed I too relate. It breaks my heart that some people are so miserable they have become bitter, not better. We will know them by their fruits. All we can do for such as these is pray the Spirit of God move on them. And hold our tongue. It is not always easy. There are times I would like to voice my opinion or more to a another Christian or not but in that it is not what Jesus would do. Jesus did answer in certain times with amazing parables. I am reminded of how He did not answer Pilot when asked if the charges against Him were true. He stayed quiet and the govenor was amazed and marveled, Mark 15:5 Jesus could of had legions of angels come down and wipe out all against Him.-. Yet His love so deep He laid down His life for us. We may be an outnumbered lot but in Christ Jesus we are not outpowered, Amen.

You are so precious sparklea I can not imagine you coming unglued. And you did not. God tells us He will repay those that have taken from us. My husband was coming unglued yesterday over an employee. I reminded him of the power he was giving this young man. He disagreed but I know he gave it some thought. Not to judge or spill my hubbys stuff around. My intention was to help him. We can not change others but we can be lights for Christ. Sometimes it does mean zipping the lip or discerning what we say Better yet to ask the Holy Spirit to speak though us if it be His will. Amen. (-;

I love ya girl you are a precious child of God. You keep shining that light of yours. I have not seen you around much. I do hope to see anohter hub of love one day. I know you are busy for the Lord girl. Do stop in for a visit when you have a moment. My Love girl. I pray that the favor of God unfold on you more each day. Hugs Skye

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Sparklea 2 years ago from Upstate New York Author

skye2day: hello my dear friend from the Rocky Mountains! I have not meant to be elusive, it is that I let life get in the way...that being said I cherish every second of LIFE, a daily gift from God. I SO appreciate your stopping by to read this hub, and I sincerely meant every word. My son has totally turned from God because the way I behaved when he was growing up, something I will regret the rest of my life. We were all baptized as a family and he had accepted Christ, but he has totally turned away because I think that he associates God with my ridiculous behavior.

I will pray for your is SO hard today in the working world. I quit my job early on because I could not stand the mood swings and backstabbing that went on in the office where I was employed. I agree with you that we do, at times, give power to the other person...and I think, with your husband, when you work with someone 40 hours a day, it is like you live with that person, and there is NO escape. I remember I would sneak into the ladies room at work with my Bible and read scripture in one of the stalls to get me through the next minute because it got so bad!

I agree with you that we must depend on the Holy Spirit to speak through us...and, sometimes to listen and just say, "I understand."

I love you, too, Skye2day! You are a shining LIGHT on Hub Pages. SO MANY PEOPLE on the hubs, so little time! If I had my way I would read and write all day long!

God bless you real good, and thank you for your loyalty. You are a treasure, and thank you for your wonderful comments. Sparklea :)

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skye2day 2 years ago from Rocky Mountains

back at you dear girl. I pray for your son. Keep going mon. Our prayers will be heard. In due time God will bring your son around. Forgive you God does. Your son is in His hands. God will bring the right people to his life. I am praying for you.

Times are difficult but rejoice because our Lord cares for us Amen. He will noever leave nor forsake us. God Bless you precious child of God. Love, Skye

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Sparklea 2 years ago from Upstate New York Author

Thank you so much Skye! Thank you for your encouraging words, from my heart. If my son ever returned to God it would be like the parting of the red sea! A total miracle! And thank you for praying. I pray for your husband also! God bless...praying for you, too dear friend. Sparklea :)

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