Intuit contest to promote me, my business as a CPA, advocate, blogger and personal courage

Emily in Intuit contest

Hi, I am a regular here on hubpages and I wish to share a little highlight in my life which is that based on my entry in the Intuit promote your self and your website/business I was selected to advance the second round and my recent entries are now entered for possible selection to the third round but I must rely on your support so I may have a chance.

This will help me greatly since I am struggling with severe depression, face possible foreclosure on our house which would result in our very real possibility of facing homelessness. I recently got very sick and had an emotional collapse due to the many stresses in my life.

I have always felt I should step up and advocate for my son and now that I am out of work and recently approved for disability I now have this precious opportunity to do so.

I wound up in the hospital on 4 separate occasions due to severe depression and thoughts of suicide. I really have hit bottom and I am trying to get back on my feet and depression and my transgender issues and my inability to help my son and my financial burdens really have taken a toll on me and I really felt like checking out.

I have to be strong because I know the pain of losing both my parents to depression which completely devastated me. My mom lost her will at age 49 as she succumbed to her depression and passed away due to her loss of wanting to live. She pulled her feeding tubes out constantly and wound up dying of starvation. We were all struggling with her passing and a part of my dad died that day.

I lost my dad to suicide on April 16, 2009 when he decided he had enough and my sisters and I had no clue that he had reached this breaking point and when we learned he had leaned into the path of a speeding train it just tore me apart. I am extremely depressed but I have to be strong because I would never want to devastate my son or my family. I have to have hope, support, acceptance and love. I also have to advocate for my son and continue to write and make youtube videos and be active on social media site to share my story because it is worth telling as I wish to heal, help my son and maybe make a difference for someone struggling. That is my purpose and I feel I need to be an advocate and be truthful and write and speak from my heart.

I am a good person and it took me 48 years to realize this when I finally embraced my transgender identity and came to accept myself and rid myself of the shame I lived with all through out my life.

I will continue to write here and on my blog and do heartfelt videos for youtube as I feel my life has meaning and despite all my pain and suffering maybe I can turn the bad into something that will help me heal, allow me to help my son and to contribute as an advocate. That is what my life needs to be about now. I just have to be patient and take it slowly and focus on my son and write as I feel it is ok to.

I am so happy to be a part of the Hubpages community for allowing me the opportunity to share my story and my thoughts in words and video depiction.

Thank you.

Emily

Emily's video on youtube

Matty and me
Matty and me
Matty posing at Montauk point lighthouse in distance
Matty posing at Montauk point lighthouse in distance
Matty, mom and me at Montauk point
Matty, mom and me at Montauk point
Matty as a young child
Matty as a young child
Matty with that beautiful smile
Matty with that beautiful smile

Emily's photos

Emily in her spring dress
Emily in her spring dress
Emily in her pretty blue dress
Emily in her pretty blue dress
Emily trying to look like a girl but the boyish looks and short hair don't help
Emily trying to look like a girl but the boyish looks and short hair don't help
Emily now looking more like a girl
Emily now looking more like a girl
Emily posing in the mirror
Emily posing in the mirror
Emily in a pretty black dress with floral patterns
Emily in a pretty black dress with floral patterns
Ed (Pre-Emily)
Ed (Pre-Emily)
Emily in her pretty purple dress
Emily in her pretty purple dress
Emily dressed in her pretty dress and matching top
Emily dressed in her pretty dress and matching top
Emily poses in her pretty dress and shades
Emily poses in her pretty dress and shades
Matty and me
Matty and me

Emily speaking on her transition

Emily speaks about her story

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