A part of me wishes I could have gone with you on this last part of your journey. I didn’t want you to have to go anywhere alone. I never wanted you to ever be lonely and scared without me. All the important things we have always done together. You were always here to comfort me whenever I was sad. You were my best friend and life partner. You were the one person I loved the most. You were my world. I am so sorry I couldn't make you well and take away your pain.
I will miss the way you greeted me when I came home from work.
I will miss the way you head-butted my hand to get me to pet you.
I will miss the way you would run around and jump off the wall.
I will miss the way you tentatively poked your paw in my face when you wanted me to wake up.
I will miss watching basketball games and the X-Files with you by my side.
I will miss reading to you.
I will miss the way you would get all up in my face when I was talking on the phone.
I will miss you snuggling up close to me on cold nights.
I will miss you on my long road trips to Gainesville and the way you always knew when we turned on our street.
I will even miss you scratching me when I try to clip your claws.
How can I ever say good-bye? You were the best cat. I am so blessed that you came into my life. Who else would have moved with me 9 times? Put up with me working so many hours? Helped me every single time someone broke my heart? If you don’t mine, I think I will still talk to you from time to time and tell you how it is going. I wouldn’t want you to worry that I wasn’t doing okay. Thank you for giving me so much love, joy, happiness, and hope. I will miss you every day. I will think of you often. In my heart, you will never be replaced as my number one baby girl. I hope you are no longer in pain and that you knew how much I loved you.
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