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I Will Remember You Sunny

Updated on March 24, 2014

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Sweet Sunny.  Rescued in 2008...Left us July 6, 2011
Sweet Sunny. Rescued in 2008...Left us July 6, 2011

Left Behind; So many have gone to the Rainbow Bridge


In Memory of my sweet Sunny July 6, 2011

“Sunny one so true, baby I love you.”

My friend Al has a song lyric for just about all of our beloved kitties. In this case, the line comes from the 1966 original song “Sunny,“ by Bobby Hebb. Whenever he approaches one or the other of our feline family, he sings his greeting. It’s amazing, how easily he relates lyrics to cat names. Al always sang, “Sunny one so true, baby, I love you!“ to our dearly departed, sweet, gentle cat,


I’m holding you in my arms so tight

Before you drift into the endless night

Gazing into your eyes as you slip away

Whispering all the things I used to say

Cradling you ever so close,

For a moment, believing I can ward off the


As if I can save you;

And always keep you near

A wish, a desire; but I fear

I'm loosing you.

The news is not good, my sweet boy

This news is not good at all.

I so hoped it would not come to this

I prayed you would not hear the call

To leave this world of hurt and pain

I’ll never hold you in my arms, again.

The time is set; it’s to be at three

But now is noon; and I must be

With you, sweet Sunny, these last hours of life

To hold you in my arms

To soften your strife.

These last few days are like a dream

You were so sick and then, it seemed

You had taken a turn for the better

And we rejoiced, we felt such relief

A moment of escape from searing grief.

A second of hope; however brief.

You have such Beautiful eyes,

Limpid, soulful, beautiful eyes.

I’ll never look into these eyes, again..

As I hug your withered body

And stroke your beautiful fur

Though in the throes of your

Last hours

You softly, quietly purr,

Your little paws gently knead my knee

Your beautiful eyes look up at me

And my tears flow shamelessly.

For, you deserve no less.

This moment I’ve known too many times

When one of you have to leave;

This time we share Is not enough….

It’s never enough

And so, I grieve

Left behind, with only my memory of you

And no reprieve


I imagine you in happier times.

I don’t want to let you go

I refuse to say goodbye

And I pray that my faith might reassure

That I will see you by and by.

My mind races, searches, asks for an answer

A way to make this stop

A way to make this not happen

A way to go back in time

To awaken from this bad dream

Beautiful eyes…soulful and deep

I’ve never seen eyes like yours Sunny

Such an innocent, tender little one

So soon taken away.

Sunny, how can it be?

That you are

Leaving me?

Yes, I got that call, the one no one should hear…I was commenting on another’s hub; and my cell rang. We thought we had beat this illness. He responded to the dual medications we’d been giving him for 2 weeks but, there was a gnawing, uncertain feeling; he was not quite right. He was still failing; eating so very little. And weakening. I made another appointment to see our wonderful Veterinarian who ordered a third set up of follow up tests which indicated that his levels were down sliding, again, after what seemed like a miraculous upswing. Ultra sound and an outside consultant confirmed my worse fears; that Sunny had an advanced case of lymphoma which had invaded his little body through his lymph nodes and there was no cure.

I called Al and he came home early from work; that’s what we do; we love our rescued animals so much; they are our family and deserve our all.

Sunny was young. Probably just about 4 years old. He is a Kansas rescue who showed up out of nowhere out in the country at our farm. We are completely isolated; our nearest neighbor is a mile away. We never know where all the desperate animals come from; they just show up. He was quite young; it was obvious.

Al always said about Sunny; “He’s such a good cat! Just a good cat.” He was. My ‘mild mannered reporter.’ Never a problem, always subtle, sweet and so easy to love.

Sunny was among the first kitties I planned to take home.

Rest in Peace, little Sunny. “I’ll see you in another lifetime, baby; I’ll see you in my dreams, and when I reach across the Galaxy, I will miss your company. “ Rikki Lee Jones


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      Kathy 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Thank you Victoria....yes, already a year has's amazing, sometimes; how so much time and so many events fly by before we notice it. So good to see you and thank you for giving "life" to my little Sunny; through memory.

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      Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

      Hi, Lucky Cats, glad I found this hub. What a beautiful little beauty! I know it's been a year, but I'm sure you still remember the specialness of this cat and the pain of loss. I love what you do!

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hi Lucydann! Just last night (Thurs pm- Friday am)I dreamed of Sunny for the first time that I can remember. He was walking up to me, tail high in the air and very he did before becoming ill. He looked wonderful and he gazed up at me with the most serene and sweet look in those beautiful eyes. I will always remember Sunny! And, for this matter, all the beloved animal companions in my life. Thank you so much, Lucy, for the kind and caring comment. Your friend, Kathy

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      lucydann 6 years ago

      Oh, Kathy...I'm getting tears now! Thanks for following me and for replying. Yes, I do love our wondrous felines..I have my own little outdoor kitty, who came to me kinda like Sunny came to you. Sunny's picture makes me wish I could pick him up and just snuggle..Bless you.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hello lucydann...yes, Sunny was a bright, shining star in my life..a gentle, sweet soul who will never be forgotten. I can see, by your kind comment, that you appreciate cats...which is a BIG plus in my world. Thank you so much. Kathy

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      lucydann 6 years ago

      How blessed you will always be to have had Sunny the Angel appear out of the blue, looking for love that you could not help but pour over him! His face says it all. What a wonderful boy. He lives forever.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Thank you dear jujubees. I know that you understand this love for animals from the beautiful and soulful words you've written. thank you so much. Kathy

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      jujubees 6 years ago from Rhode Island

      you have spoken for so many of us who have gone thru this journey of losing a beloved pet...your love for him was certainly something special..and i'm sure your Sunny new that...he is beautiful...thank you for sharing such a personal journey of love for your Sunny.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Oh, Pamela99, I'm sorry about your little calico. Please know, I definitely share your grief and sorrow. I hope you have more kitties in your feline family to help you fill the void. I cannot imagine my life; my home without my cats. Thank you for the visit and kind comment. Kathy

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      Pamela Oglesby 6 years ago from United States

      This brought tears to my eyes as I lost my beautiful little calico when she was too young to have died. I'm sorry for your loss.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Boy, Eman, I can just picture you and your white kitty strolling along the beach; Mister Gabriel in harness and proud as can be. What an I just love. I know your feline family is well loved and cared for without a need in the world...which is just how this life should be for all of us. You receive your 'sustenance' here on HP's and pass it it forward to all who are fortunate enough to have met you...and learned of your great depth and immense abilty to share and spread positive love. Bless you, my friend. Kathy

      Good morning Sharyn...thank you so much for the sweet comment and, specially, for total understanding. Knowing this is what helps me to keep on keepin' on. The last several weeks have been completely horrible when it comes to loosing loved ones and withstanding the extreme weather..we're dieing out here..literally, huge trees are succumbing to the heat w/no rain; no storms...everything..suffering in this insane environment. I'm trying to get home...but so much is not allowing it...I'm so frustrated...enough of this; I'd booked a flight one way to Ca. for TODAY but, had to cancel and book a later date because of all the turmoil and loss and extreme friend Al cannot do this alone and so, we're working feverishly (literally and figuratively) towards a solution.

      Enough venting (yeah! could use some freezing cold venting about now!)

      Thank you Sharyn, and I am hoping things are looking up for you and that you see the proverbial light.....!!!!!

      Love ya! Kathy

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      Sharon Smith 6 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

      Oh Kathy,

      I am so behind in my reading. This piece touched me deeply. The loss of a four-legged family member just hurts to the core. Sunny was SO blessed to have found you and Al. Thank God for people like you both.

      I've said this before, but when I read so many pieces you've written about your feline family, I always have to run and hold my girls tight.

      Big hugs to you Kathy, hang in there,


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      epigramman 6 years ago

      ...yes and I love my other cat equally as well, the ultimate charmer and ladies' man in the feline/human universe - the inimitable Mister Gabriel, my deaf white cat who wears his body harness proudly like a suit of armor when he goes out for a walk with me - and he has received a taste of the good life as he gets to stay out most of the day - while receiving room service (Tiffy too) from their big daddy

      lake erie time 6:19pm -it's so hot here today in Ontario that I must take refuge in the lake for the 3rd time today.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hi Eman. So good to see you here. I do understand that relationship...yours with Miss Tiffy.

      Do not ever feel alone, though. (I hope you don't, ever.) You have a big family many who care about you and love you. You've created, with your kind words and uplifting ways, a universe of your own; unlike any other. I do, also, understand the deep and endearing friendship and family feeling that you share with Miss Tiffy. My Little One (I was so much older then.....hub) is like that for me...of course, they all are but, the closeness I share with her is that extra step above.

      Thank you so much for your kind words. and, always, know that you will hold an extra special place in my hublife ... because of you, I've met so many wonderful people and am able to watch my dream of sharing ideas, philosophies, stories, tributes and more.. come true. And, that's enough for me.

      Universal love, my friend,


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      epigramman 6 years ago

      ...well you and I were destined to meet in this life as we are kindred spirits - and the cat who see in my picture was my mum's cat and Little Miss Tiffy who has truly attained diva status is about 15 years old I would imagine - and once she passes on - it will be truly be the end of an era and the 'last' link to my family (I have no family left anywhere in this world) so you just know how much I 'feel' for you at this moment as I live for my cats; they are my life - and this life 'your' cats were blessed to have met someone as special as you!

      lake erie time 2:34pm

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Yes, said it. the special relationships we share with these animals...and some are so so close..honestly, closer than I've been w/most humans...are never forgotten and very tough to endure. I share your feelings...I can't wait to cross over, too...and I imagine myself laying down and all my kitties crawling over me...purring, rubbing and head butting. There are so many in my life right now..who need me and who no one else wants. This is how it is here in America's "heart"land...minus the 'heart.' Honestly, I will never be able to understand those who can see an animal in distress and just walk on by. I don't want to be alive the day I should ever become like far as I am concerned...I will no longer deserve a place here should I act like that. BTW, PPJohn, we bought a cap and my best friend, Al, plans to wear it proudly because he is just like you...we have given our lives over to this calling. Trying to work it all out but, so many years...we're still able to carry on.

      thank you my dear kind soul, Mr. Paw-Paw John. I am so glad you saw this hub and commented...just knowing that you and your dear wife are on this planet helps so spirit, hope and actuality! Your friend for the kitties of this world! Kathy

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      Paw-Paw John 6 years ago from Greenville, SC

      Indeed, the mission must go on, but I still have days where I miss the ones who have passed on. I especially miss my beloved Tigger, who from the time she was old enough to balance herself would ride on my shoulder all through the house. She would get on my shoulder in the morning and stay there while I brushed my hair and teeth and got groomed for work, then ride with me to the door. I would tap the counter and say "Down Tigger" and she would jump down so I could leave. But she would always be there waiting when I got home to jump up on my shoulder again. She died last year, a victim of FIP. I can't wait for the day when I will see her again, and she will ride on my shoulder as we cross over together into the new life awaiting. Knowing that I will see my beautiful cats again is one of the things that keeps me going on and keeps me able to rescue. You are in my thoughts and prayers. God bless you.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hi Mar! Yeah, this was a hard one...just this morning I was about to place his morning breakfast in the usual place and...then I caught myself and that swift, deep pang rose in my solar plexis for just an instant...then, I had to continue on w/the am feeding of all his friends who were waiting impatiently for me to get on with it! Nothing like having many who need you to soften the emptiness of the missing one. Much love, appreciate your comment and, you know you have my deepest and heartfelt sympathy for the loss of Ninny...whether recently or years later...these losses will always leave a little space empty in our lives. Kathy

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      Maria Jordan 6 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Oh Kathy,

      My eyes are heavy at the loss of your baby Sunny. Our Ninny was set to move with us and died months beforehand as well. She was much older but still so sad when you plan to take your buddy with you. Be gentle with yourself, as your little one skips across the Rainbow Bridge.

      We shall all have such a joyous reunion one day, mar.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Margit, thank you so much for the wonderfully wise and kind words. Coming from one who has experienced this type of loss...means so very much...that you have the faith and understanding about life after physical death is a reassurance and great support. Tivoli will come to you in dreams; I am certain. This has happened to me with other beloved kitties who have passed on and, it is such a relief; I recall waking with an absolute feeling of having held and caressed my little cat, Squeaker. It actually took a few seconds after awakening; to realize it was in dream state. Bless you and, again, you have my utmost sympathy and understanding and I know that you understand the depth of this kind of love and loss, too....Kathy

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      M Selvey, MSc 6 years ago from United Kingdom

      Dear Kathy,

      We are sisters in grief over our beloved felines. And, it doesn't matter that Sunny was young or that Tivoli was old, our time with them is timeless, measured only by the immeasurable love we shared with them. I am still waiting for Tivoli to come to me in my dreams. It will happen and I will know her energy and spirit is still with me as Sunny is still with you. True love never goes away, it just changes form.

      Blessings and love to you,


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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Sweet Dim, do you know how valued are your words? How wonderful it is to know you feel so deeply? This is so deeply appreciated..and it helps to lessen this loss because the love goes on. And now, with your visit here, another tender soul has met Sunny and will remember him..and his soul continues on in memory. Yes, it was so hard to go through this and the poem just came to me after we buried him in our sanctuary animal cemetary where so many whom we have loved and lost, rest their bodies while their spirits soar.

      Princess must have been loved and cared for like a Princess..she lived 17 years!! That is such a testament to your caring nature. She was such a lucky Cat!

      I am so happy that you stopped by and I am so pleased that you are just as you are! Thank you. Kathy

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      Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

      Oh bless you. I don´t know how you managed to write such beautiful verse under such circumstances.

      I can´t stop crying. It was so beautiful and I miss my 17yr old Princess so much. She found us when she was about 5 mnths old.

      I hope you have found some comfort and that you keep on rescuing animals that have no-one to love them.

      I am honestly sobbing now. You wrote so, so wonderfully well.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      My Cybersister, thank you so much and please accept my sincere sympathy for your loss of Snoop. This one hit me hard; I just did not expect this to happen and so quickly. We thought he was eating less because of the extremely hot weather. It didn't take long, though, to see that his lack of appetite was far different than the other kitties' eating less and so, the dance began. Boy, we've been through this so many times but, this one - so unexpected and Sunny so young - just was a big slap in the face. What I am so thankful for is that his memory, image and soul will be remembered forever through this wonderful web site...and that helps to lessen the loss. thank you so much, yourcybersister, for stopping by and your beautiful and kind words. I truly appreciate it.

      Bobbi, you are so right, to lose a wonderful friend, animal or human is very difficult. And, as everyone knows, I'm a nut about my animals and my cats, specially. It means SO MUCH to me that you were moved by this poem and that you appreciate it because I have so much respect for you as a writer and intelligent woman. So, I thank you kindly for your sweet words. Bless you, too, BobbiRant! Kathy

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      BobbiRant 6 years ago from New York

      To lose such a wonderful friend, animal or human, is very hard. This lovely tribute made me cry and is so beautiful. Bless you.

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      your cybersister 6 years ago

      I read your tribute to Sunny through my tears. I knew from the title of your hub that you had suffered a loss, what I did not know was how eloquently you would tell your story or how deeply it would affect me. The picture of Sunny grabbed my attention - it looked SO MUCH like my beloved Snoop (although I had to admit that I found Sunny's eyes more mesmerizing). I know that your time with him was too short, but I am sure that you gave him the best possible life while he was with you. Your love for animals is incredible and I truly admire all the rescue work that you do. Sunny is no longer is pain and has, no doubt, already made friends with many other beloved pets who have crossed the Rainbow Bridge ahead of him. I lost my Tiger earlier this year - perhaps they are hanging out together (Tiger was older and would make a good big brother.) I am sure that Sunny will always have a special place in your heart and you in his.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Oh, Seeker7, thank you so much for your kindness and, specially, for the fact that you feel for animals...this is so important to me. I wish this world was populated with so many more like us...and all those who have commented here; what a wonderful world that would be. Love for all; our companions and companion animals. I truly appreciate your visit here, sentiment and reassuring words...Thank you!!! Kathy

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      Helen Murphy Howell 6 years ago from Fife, Scotland

      Hi Luckycats,

      A beautiful tribute to your wonderful animal - it's got me crying!! LOL! I'm such a wimp when it comes to animals. But take heart, you gave your animal a wonderful life and they are never far away even after death. You'll meet up with Sunny and the rest one day. Have voted this beautiful hub up + awesome. A heartfelt piece of work, many thanks for sharing this at your time of loss.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      AliciaC, sweetie, you have my deepest sympathy and understanding. To make the decision, to go through all that this entails, and then, to be left without your loved one is incredibly heartbreaking. I wrote this to continue Sunny's's the best way I can think of to keep him "alive." And to reach out to others, knowing that there are many wonderful people here who have experienced the same kind of loss. I hope you are healed from sadness and know that you loved golden boy and he was given a relief from you. Thank you so much for taking the time to very much appreciated. Kathy

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      Linda Crampton 6 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      I am so sorry for your loss, Lucky Cats. I can understand something of what you are going through, since my much-loved golden retriever also had lymphoma, and I had to make the horrible decision to let him pass on. Your hub is a wonderful tribute to Sunny.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hello Ianleverette47. Thank you so much for understanding and for taking the time to tell me so. I just visited the link you added and, I have to say, your sharing of this sorrowful event is sad but truly beautiful. You have described all the conflicting emotions and thoughts that we have at a time like this...all the responsibility; the loss; the desire to make it vanish; to wake from a bad dream. You know you have my heartfelt condolences, even these 2 years is never forgotten; they are valuable, loved members of our family. Bless you, Ianleverette! And thank you.

      Catgypsy; you are a wonderful person with such caring and I am always pleased that you are here...and I know that you understand the depth or sadness when we've lost a sweet friend...that you've experienced it so many times tells me what a kind, loving and sweet soul you are..and thank goodness that you are here on this earth to help our defenseless, sometimes forgotten companion animals. Bless you and thank you for your thoughts and kind support. Your friend, Kathy

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      catgypsy 6 years ago from the South

      Lucky Cats, I'm so sorry. I've been there a million times, like you, and it never gets easier. At least she had you and a good life.

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      ianleverette47 6 years ago from Brinston, Ontario Canada

      I know exactly how you feel, especially just after.

      It was similar for us as well - 2 years goes by fast but it's always in the back of your mind. You'll see Sunny again.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Cataphoria420...thank you so much for your kind words. I am so appreciative of all of you who understand this loss and who take the time to share your sympathy and understanding. I love your name and that you have loved animals since being a child. And that you want to do rescue together with your sister...this is what Al and I do and it is so rewarding; the love so great...the hardships are pretty difficult at times and, of course, there are moments such as this; loosing a loved one. You are in Oklahoma? I'm in SE Kansas right now though I'm trying to return to California soon. Of course, the sanctuary in the country will remain for as long as needed....I am with you 100% about the wanton killing of defenseless, sweet and helpless companion animals. I can't imagine the personality or soul of such people who do this..who order it done, who actually do the deed...sick does not come close to how I feel about them.

      When I first arrived here, we dropped right into an incredible amount of abandoned, abused, thrown away animals...heart breaking and maddening. Almost immediately, the rescueing began...we were doing the same thing in California. It is heart breaking; the need in this part of the country.

      Bless you for your warm and kind means so much to me and it helps to ease and lessen the pain of loss as others meet Sunny through this tribute....each and every one are deserving of life, comfort, love and security. One day, I hope to see this! Please visit Paw-Paw his 'confessions' series...he has said it so perfectly and w/out a doubt..

      Thank you Cataphoria420...and do keep in touch; I'd love to hear more about your loving work with animals. Kathy

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hi Kathy! Yes, I know you are right there and understand completely. It's always terribly painful and hard to accept...and knowing that others feel the same and understand, well, that helps so much. I've been asked how I can 'tell them all apart,' and 'you have so many, it probably doesn't matter...' Oh , how wrong. Just as with friends and family; each is unique, special, individual and an important part my life. Each has his/her own story to tell.

      Kathy, you write so well...your comment is perfect; I need not add another word as you've pinpointed just how important is the love and value of our animals and how big a part of life they are. His eternal purpose and meaning in my life...this is beautiful!

      Well, I had hoped to have Sunny go back w/the first group of kitties....I can't tell you how totally wonderful he was..just a unique little kitty soul. So unassuming, so gentle...

      He will be missed forever. I wrote this to continue his memory in perpetuity.

      Much love to you, Kathy..I know you're a kindred soul; one who is so so very valued!

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      Cataphoria420 6 years ago

      Wow, that left me speechless. I don't even know how to begin. Saying "I'm sorry for your loss", doesn't seem to fit. I will say, "Thank you" for making such a difference in Sunny's short but VERY love filled life. It gives me great comfort knowing that there are others out there that are that passionate, loving, and caring about cats and dogs. I have been bringing home every stray since I was a child. I have 4 cats and 2 dogs now, all of which were rescues. I wouldn't have it any other way. Some day in the not too distant future, my sister and I, are going to have a rescue. I am in Oklahoma and the mission needs to be NO KILL. That is the thing that makes me sick to my stomach, there is no reason that a companion animal, should be put to death. I love your poem, it made me cry. I am a believer of "things happen for a reason". Your time with Sunny may have been short, but he ended up at your place, "for a reason". His maker had a special "job" for him, but he will be waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge. He is in a better place, no more sickness, he is a kitten again, all the fish and catnip he could ever want. May you have peace, my hope for you is to remember all the good memories. I hope your writing gave you some solace. Bless your soul for all that you do.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from California

      This is the first hub I read today Kath, I saw it on your hub widget when I was on the Kats tale blog so of course I clicked on it...This touches me so deeply - there are tears in my eyes for Sunny and all that Sunny represents and because I know how much it hurt you to let him go..for now.

      We find comfort in knowing that while Sunny was with you and Al he was able to be the sweet baby that he was, you gave him that life, selflessly and without hesitation. Your memorial is mesmerizing and heartfelt - it speaks of Sunny's eternal purpose and meaning in your life. Thank you Kathy.

      Wishing you the fondest memories.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Oh, Jennifer...Yes yes yes, I DO understand and share your grief; my God, you've lost so many long time companions in such a short time. It IS almost is so hard and empty. I, too, know that the soul of these beloved beings is what we are relating to; that special, unique, individual essence that is each one. Still, just as you noted, losing the physical touch, bonding, love is so so very difficult. An emptiness like no other. So so very sorry, and you know that I am feeling your loss and hurt..because, for those of us who truly do love and value our animal family, this loss is extremely difficult and leaves such a void. Your animals have lived long lives; that is such a testament to who you are and how you care...what fantastic and cherished lives they have lived, too. You have given them a gift that, otherwise, they would have never been able to have...that of love, comfort, safety, security and sustenance...a Gift beyond words.

      Please allow the fact that there are others here who feel as you do and understand the true meaning of compassion and love for our companion animals; please allow this to relieve some of your pain. It's kind of like many people carrying a burden rather than one trying to do it all alone.

      My tribute here to Sunny came to me shortly after saying goodbye - for now - I just had to say it and share elevate him; his importance and intrinsic value in this life. This is how I feel...that our very loved companion animals are equal to us and deserving of no less.

      We talked earlier, months ago, about the killing fields and debased environment in which you find yourself; I am in the same kind of you know...where animals are tools; and poorly kept care of tools, at that. It is extremely difficult to deal w/it day by day.

      I want you to visit PawPawJohn's site here on HP's...he commented on this memorial to Sunny and I went to his site...his depth and love and respect for animals is will find a friend and comfort there. His sentiment is centered primarily on cats but, you will see that it applies to all....

      Thank you, Jennifer, for commenting; it means so much to me and I am so glad to see you here...with all the business and life necessities; I lose track of some of the very important people here and in the "other world." I 'm glad to be back in touch with you as I hold you as a kindred spirit and very very special person.

      My deepest sympathy for your many losses...please know that you can depend upon knowing my strength and support in this.


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      Jennifer Theories 6 years ago from Canada

      I am so sorry. I cried deeply through this whole reading because I know intimately what you are going through. I 'lost' Vader, my Baby Vader on June 21 2011. Vader has been with us for 15 years. We rescued him from a family that couldn't afford to look after him when he was just seven weeks old. He is my beautiful black, sleek kitty that was (is) a kindred spirit to me. Vader got sick, and like you we did everything we could to help him get better and just like Sunny there were ups and downs and days when we thought he would beat the problems and be healthy again but he grew weaker in the third week of his illness and I knew he was leaving.

      So many others have reached out to let you know they care and that they understand the almost inexplicable bonds that people like us have with our animal friends, our family. We will never really lose them, the real Sunny was not his body but the soul within it. That was released. Freedom. But yes, I know the grief of knowing that the physical experience together is over.

      I have run a small animal rescue for about twenty years now and just in this last year, we lost our 10 year old german shepard/retriever - Rogan, our 13 year old cat - Theo, our 17 year old terrier/spaniel - Ruhka and then Vader our 15 year old cat. Rogan came to our family when she was six weeks old, Ruhka was four months old, Vader was seven weeks old and Theo was born in my son's bedroom closet when we had rescued a pregnant cat (Mara who is still with us at 17 years). I have devoted my life to the care of these beautiful beings, so sadness and grief have been constant companions to me over this last 11 months. It is like a dream.

      I also live in quite a remote location surrounded by farms and animal killing industries that devalue the lives of animals. Despite the dislike for much of the human population around here, it has been a great location for walking dogs and housing (indoor) cats (and budgies and a fish). In times like these though the only comfort is from my own spiritual practice and encountering other humans that truly understand our love of the animals we share our hearts with.

      So thank you from the depths of my soul for sharing your grief with me/us. It is so important. I have not been able to write anything for so long. I feel blocked and tired by all this but God Bless you for having the strength to share this experience. Just when I think I can't cry anymore . . .well, it's a process.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Hi Always Exploring. thank you for feeling this...that says so much...of something that is very important to me. I am so so sorry about your baby kitten; thank God that it was mother did the same thing once, and she, too, was devastated. These things happen; it's life. I love this Hub Pages Community because, for some crazy reason; we've all found one another and there is a circle of compassion that is shared here and it radiates out throughout the day to others. A very powerful love for animals is equally as strong; as you know and I so appreciate that you recognize this. Thank you my friend. I'll always miss my Sunny one so true.

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 6 years ago from Southern Illinois

      The total and complete love you have for your animals is wonderful. Tears filled my eyes while reading this beautiful poem. I actually felt your loss. Sunny was a lucky little Kitten to find you, and Al appears to be your perfect soul-mate. I am truly sorry for your loss. Once, i backed my car over my Baby Kitten, it died instantly. I was devastated. Take care. Best wishes.

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      Kathy 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      HerbivoreHippi, welcome and thank you so much for understanding the depth to which I love these animals. They are, to me, a beautiful creation deserving of equal recognition, right to life and love. I am with you on so many levels...your name tells me that along with your sentiment. bless you!

      Sunnie...funny that this sweet boy shares a name with you...different spelling but same meaning. And so true. Sweet, sunnie, positive, loving...thank you my dear friend.

      Glassvisage, yes, we all feel this way, don't we? If we are capable of loving our companion animals; the loss is great and deep. thank you for understanding the universality of this as well as the personal is true..and you are wonderful for knowing this.

      Augustine; true to who I have found you to be, your sentiment and understanding is cherished and valued...though this may sound 'skewed,' is always doubly wonderful and assuring to hear, read and know such words from a man...sensitive as well as strong is a killer combination. Yes..I miss my baby..

      mckbirdbks...that you refer to Sunny as my family member speaks volumns to me...that you understand this aspect of love; it is all encompassing and extends to all creatures...thank you for knowing this and your kind, comforting comment.

      Truthfornow...I appreciate your comment that we did a good thing saving Sunny; thank you so much for that. It is a difficult and emotionally as well as physically demanding love for these cats and dogs. I could not walk the earth being any other way; I can't look the other way when I see one in need...just have to do something about it. Sunny was so beautiful; those eyes (the picture doesn't really show how deep, clear...crystal clear and expressive his eyes were...I've had many many cats through the years but, never saw eyes like this...) Thank you so much for commenting, I sincerely appreciate it.

      Paw Paw John...your name says it all and that you rescue is amazing and wonderful to me. Just as I said to Augustine; the trait and nurturing I see in men who can love like this is such an amazing and wonderful attribute..thank you for your last paragraph...I so hope it is true and, if I were convinced it was not true...I don't know how I'd handle all the loss over the years...bless you and thank you!

      Naturegirl, It is everything, that you took the time to comment and offer condolences. When I understand; when I realize that people relate, empathize; it means the world. We are not alone...and your comment confirms this. That you've written about my loss of Sunny just amplifies this fact..and does serve to lessen the impact of losing Sunny because his memory has been seen and recognized and I am learning of others who, means everything. thank you so much.

      Alastar...the last in this comment column but NEVER the least...your words are both simple as well as deep. I find myself going back and forth and all over the place at times like this; losing a loved one..but, when I read words such as yours; I am reassured that there is another (many, perhaps...probably!) level of our energy, life essence, soul! and your words help to confirm this for me which is very very important! Again, not to be repetitive but, knowing the part of you, as a man, who can be so sensitive and accepting of, (and, may I say, sympathetic/empathetic of what others may think is inconsequential), particularly from men, is wonderful! I see this as evolutionary! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being you, Alastar! Much affection.

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      Alastar Packer 6 years ago from North Carolina

      Sunny came to you and your friend. like the barn swallows returning. he just knew. the true essence of Sunny will never die. even if one knows or believes such, the pain of loss still reaches deep; and those that care share in your sorrow. wishing peace and the sweet memories for you and Al kind Kathy.

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      Yvonne L. B. 6 years ago from South Louisiana

      I know it's not much consolation, but the best time of Sunny's short life was with you. I feel your pain. You are a special person to try to reach out to so many little foundlings. Bless you and your family.

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      Paw-Paw John 6 years ago from Greenville, SC

      I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers. I too have had many of my rescues pass on. I always find comfort in this thought:

      Those who have gone before us, Will be there to greet us, when our own journey's end, Finally brings us home.

      May you be at peace.

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      truthfornow 6 years ago from New Orleans, LA

      Poor Baby Sunny. What a beautiful cat and even though you had a short time together, it was everything to your baby. You did a good thing in taking him into your family and giving him a chance to know the love of a family. I am sorry for your loss.

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      mckbirdbks 6 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Beautiful words expressing the tears brought by the loss of your close family member. She is missing you.

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      Augustine A Zavala 6 years ago from Texas

      A beautiful aching lament. My condolescences...

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      glassvisage 6 years ago from Northern California

      I am sorry for your loss. You have expressed yourself so clearly and I feel like I know Sunny well from your words. Your poem is something that every pet owner can relate to, and yet it is unique to your beautiful cat. Thank you so much for sharing this and I wish you the best.

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      Sunnie Day 6 years ago

      I am so so sorry..I have been there and the pain is so great when you lose part of your family..Sending you a big hug..a really long one and will be thinking about you..beautiful poem and song..



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      theherbivorehippi 6 years ago from Holly, MI

      Such a beautiful poem. So sorry for your loss. I would rather lose a human than lose a's the worst. You've made a beautiful tribute here.