Three Abstract Paintings
I painted this with acrylic and ink on canvas. So it is more of a mixed media piece. It is heavily textured.
I paint for therapy. I have schizoaffective disorder, which is like having schizophrenia and bipolar disorder at the same time. I find peace while painting. It is also relaxing, and a big distraction for me.
My "art studio" is a desk in the corner of the garage, but my little space is home to me. It is messy and unorganized, just like my mind.
I write for therapy as well, but painting is much more involved. it takes up more of the senses. it is a bigger distraction. With abstract painting, you are able to completely be yourself for minutes at a time.
I chose the theme of flowers for this article. I do flowers a lot. I find them beautiful. I never try for perfection. Life is always a little messy. I like to pint with sponges, brushes, palette knife, my fingers. I even sometimes use cloth or plastic wrap. Whatever does the job.
I also paint on anything and everything. Canvases, wood, paper,cardboard, rocks. The cheaper and more abundant, the better. I like to try out new techniques. I am always playing around with methods and colors.
I use inexpensive materials, because it's what I can afford. Painting is a hobby for me, not a profession. If I ever get good at it, I may rethink that. There is always the future.
This painting is an abstract acrylic on artboard.
Painting is more than a hobby for me. I can get into the "zone", where I am not thinking anymore, just doing. My mind is free for short periods of time. It is my zen meditation. All the worries of the world are gone.
No medications, no side effects, no akathesia, no hallucinations, no delusions.
No numbers. No synchronicities. No morphic fields. No evolution.
No money, no bills.
Here is another acrylic painting on canvas.
Art has been a big part of my life. I don't just paint. I make dolls, collages, mixed media, art journalling. I would like to try watercolors, but can't afford the materials right now. Acrylic is much cheaper.
I make polymer clay face cabochons for my dolls, which I sculpt by hand and paint with acrylics. Then I attach to wood and wrap with cloth and add accessories like beads or shells. They are called "spirit dolls". I have also done a few fully sculptured dolls that turned out pretty well and realistic.
I don't buy expensive art journals, I make my own out of old planners and books. I just paint the pages black first, wait for it to dry, and then create a painting, collage, or mixed media page.
If I didn't have art and writing for therapy, I don't know what I would do. Schizoaffective disorder takes it's toll on me. Not every day, but many many days. It is very frustrating to live with. Delusions, hallucinations. I see numbers every day. I have synchronicities every day. These are messages from the Universe. My boyfriend wants me to up my meds, but I really don't want to. Not with all the side effects from the meds. Especially the akathesia. it's pacing and pacing all day long. i can't sit still for long periods of time. I can't relax unless I'm painting or writing, and even those don't always work.
But I do what I can. I distract myself. It is one of the few things I can do for relief. With as much as I clean, you would think I would keep my painting are in order. But I don't I don't know why. Maybe it is a reflection of my mind. I keep at it, but there's that one little area I can't touch.
Painting also helps when I am manic, like now. Basically, it relaxes me and gives me something to do. Like writing. Sometimes I get up in the middle of the night to paint or write.
Painting should really be considered as a therapy for people with disorders like mine. I highly recommend it. It helps.