I'm 22 years old and I can't drive. This is the biggest challenge in my life right now. It's not like I woke up one day and said "I don't want to ever drive." It is such a simple task. A basic life skill. For me it isn't.
I don't even have my drivers permit. I took the test and failed by one freaking point.
I know a lot of people don't understand what the big deal is. The fear and panic is so hard to explain, but for me it's very real.
It's ironic because I'm such a perfectionist in every other aspect of my life and a control freak. You would think driving would fit into that, but the way I see it is there are too many variables that can happen on the road. You can't control what other drivers and cars are going to do. Sure, you can control what you are going to do.
Also the idea that I could kill someone is terrifying. It's not just other cars you have to look out for, it's pedestrians, animals, objects. TOO much.
Even as a passenger in a car I have a hard time and feel on edge.
Anxiety manifests in many different ways, and it's different for everyone. Yes, it is embarrassing, inconvenient, and debilitating. That's the thing about anxiety, it's embarrassing to get anxious over such simple things.
People need to remember that it's hard and that we work everyday to deal with it.
Yes, one day I would like to drive. Hopefully this will help someone dealing with the same issue.