My parents are divorced since I was 11. I had a great bond with my mom but the judge sent me and my brothers who were babies with my dad. I fight with him but now I try my best to please him. I'm away in college so he'll do things like pay for clothes. But he gives everything to my brothers freely. With me he makes note of money. All I want is to know he loves me and there's nothing more special about my brothers then there is about me. I also notice my struggles have affected my relationship with my mom. She thinks I am devoted to my dad when it's really just me trying to see if he loves me.