Milestones: 50 hubs and counting!
It has been a long, hard road, but I made it! 50 hubs! I realize that in the scheme of things here on Hubpages, that ain't a helluva lot; but for me it is a milestone. This is my fiftieth hub. I have been on the site for some months now, and have greatly enjoyed myself thus far. I have put out a variety of hubs, varying from the suitably silly to the ranting and raving. There has been fact, fiction, and anything in between. Some hubs have had serious thought given them; others slapped together in moments it seems. I have given you things that happened; things I wish hadn't happened; and things I wish would happen. You have seen what type of music I enjoy; books I have read; and things I have experienced. You have weighed in on my movies, and given me some to view myself. I have had a blast so far, and look forward to putting out more for your perusement in the future.
While this hub is not meant to be an acknowledgement of fellow hubbers as billibuc has been so kind in doing; I still must shout out to a couple. Billy, or Sir William, I would not still be here if not for you. Your encouragement, comments, and critiques have broadened my horizons, to say nothing of the articles you have posted for us to read. In particular, your ideas on the "novel" I am working on sent me into another direction, and I look forward to completing it for your consideration. You are such an inspiration to so many, I truly do not think you realize what you mean to so many of us.
Amy in St Louis has been a constant supporter, and she understands the depth of acceptance granted by readers here on this site. She has had a rough go of it, yet always has a kind word to say, and is a gentle reminder that each of us has worth. She herself is tremendously worthy of our friendship, and that friendship is greatly valued.
And shiningirisheyes, you are a special friend indeed. You insight and comments have helped to keep me afloat as I struggle to find words to write. It is kind of odd, these friends and I; one is northwest, one just north, and the other northeast, and me smack in between. I get good from the left, the right, and the middle. How lucky am I!
I have met people in both the good ole US of A, and from places I never will be fortunate enough to visit. I have read of places and things that interest me, and others that I never knew would interest me, but found they did. My horizons have been expanded in ways I never hoped for. I continually stand amazed at the personalities I have met and been influenced by here on these pages. I have never been one to embrace technology, but I find myself trying to become immersed in this site. Thus far, there has been no bad, only good. It is rare to find such as this. I am thankful.
If you have read my profile, you know I am a 53 year old married husband to a wonderful woman, and father to a multitude of children. Our family consists of our three sons, and two daughters, plus our pets who are as much family members as the children. Each is special in their own way; each is trying in their own way. In my younger years, I was a small, skinny, "nerd" who tried every sport but failed at virtually every sport. I desperately wanted to be accepted for who I was by friends, yet never found that acceptance in those I desired it from. As an adult, I was the one who would take "friends" fishing and hunting to those places I had found on my own, hoping for repayment in some way. It never came. So I eventually got the picture that I was not worthy of said friendship, and stopped trying. I now prefer my solitude, and my family. I worked retail management for some years, and discovered I could "shine" the customers while maintaining a distance. I became popular with those I assisted, yet never found that which for years I sought. Then my wife found me. I learned that by not trying, what I needed found me. I now have a relationship with the most important person in the world, and I do not even have to ask: it is given freely. What a blessing.
So, I went on in this manner, having a front of a nice, warm, personable person who seems to care for the world but in reality was just faking it because it was my job, and keeping my family life as my sole point of contact for true feelings. I can honestly say this: no one I work with knows the real me. Nobody I come in contact with knows the real me. None but my wife, and my family. At least, until now.
Now, I must include those hubbers into my family of people who know me. I put myself out there, into the viral world; lock, stock, and barrel. I became secure enough (well, for the time being) to open the door to my inner self a slight bit, just a crack really. But through that crack came acceptance by you. I speak, you listen. I ask, you answer. I read and learn almost daily. Who among us does not desire something so wonderful? For some, these pages may be used for sharing, for information. For me, these pages have become a window to my innermost thoughts. I would never have thought this possible, for me to open up and allow someone inside my walls. I have dared to offer up my dream of becoming a writer to scrutiny by others, and have received not criticism on what I write, but praise and well done's. At first, I did not know how to handle it, and didn't believe it. But now, I appreciate it with each comment and feedback received. And while I am nowhere near Bill's 100,000 views or multitude of comments, I still feel blessed to receive any, and I am thankful for each one.
I aspire to write. In the grand scheme of things, I realize I may not amount to much in this arena, but still I try. I write here, little snippits of things to gain ideas and thoughts. To see whether I have the mettle to write elsewhere. I have three books on Amazon, each with small sales. Not much, but encouraging. I am working on no less than about fifteen ideas for books now; sometimes it is hard to find the ability to focus on one at a time. I tend to jump from one idea to another, expounding here and there as the mood hits me. Then I run here and try to see what is going on with my friends, and put out something worthy for them. Perhaps at some point I will drop a few paragraphs of those book ideas on here for you to comment on.
I understand this is a somewhat rambling hub, perhaps not falling easily into any particular category, but that is what I am. Slightly off center most of the time. I just wanted to say thank you to each and every person who has taken the time to read one of my stories; to comment on what I presented; and to each of you who have enriched my life through my reading one of your hubs. I will leave you now, for the moment anyway, with a couple of videos from youtube. One is a video I found recently which I just love. It is an underwater scene from a river in the northwest, a trout stream. I sit and watch it several times each day; it is so beautiful and peaceful; and the trout shown being caught fuels my fire to go fishing! The other is just silly, something to laugh at. My wife and son love watching this silly dog doing its dance. As they say, laughter restores the soul. And I leave you to laugh, and remember why each of us joined this family. For a family it is, blended and together in a way which allows each of us our space, and yet binds us closely together, Many thanks, my friends and family. And many blessings be upon each of you in this holiday season.